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scrapped version of the opener, if i ever release this hi!!
if u like this more than the normal one... Sorry,,, 

- lyrics -

"you can feel it if you try"
i hope the words aren't empty
and i know you're so sure why
does it change anything?
is that what you always thought of me?
and it doesn't seem that way
this week who are you gonna be?
will you tear as i run away?
and i know more than ever
i'm scared, i'm hiding
you're under the weather
so aware as you scare us together
so very careful you're making me wither
so when you're back come say hello
we can catch up on all you did, all you said
and i'll hide much smarter, you'll count to ten
but this time i wont see how this ends

count to ten (demo)

last year i held still, hidden in stagnation
evoked by pieces i need to cut out
cave under her standards, i don't mind
able to hold a lie until i'm talking too loud

will you feel ashamed when you see me
if i make my wounds apparent
i'm not the kid you want
and i'm more than you deserve

contort me into something else
so it's easy on your stomach
i'll dream of intent to rip the insides out
please don't take this away
a distressed, enduring wonder
dispelled as it yearns for a shred of doubt

i scream things that define me
things you hate to hear
i miss that kind of support
i'm running towards you, please turn back
recollection washed in somers trees
but i can't hold out much longer

never apparent enough

Stop being someone
prod me and dream_diary

I grew into the shell

Identification Card NS10017

what i've always wanted

all by me :3

sensitivity im fragile
and u said you knew
and i cant tell thats the truth
n u said you'd fix me up
now ill look round the room
dont know what to do
if its me you're talking to
i dont really think you can

"can you see it in my eyes"
she says as she starts to cry
"swear ive known you all my life
wondering why you cant try
just 1 time apologize 
know your wrongs and know your rights
take your wrongs and make them right
ill give you another try"
"i get dressed to want to die
i send pics to live a lie
swear they make me warm inside
i cant do it anymore
makes me hate all my insides
for a second
of my time
i swear i just waste it all
this just isnt worth my life"

all platss

fragile

Testing...

secret song

agony (cover)

my memory is changing, inside out
newborn leave piles splash around
and im so scared of falling down
muscles tense, i make no sound
if you were as strong as you always said
youd've kept it together, held that thread
you thrash around it, your face red
defenseless ground i dare to tread
i feel my heart drop to the ground
i'm lost out here, detatched, unwound
and my composition is spilling out
fabric tears, structures down
if i'd afforded myself some rest
i could've carved a path through this foggy mess
"take me, be my guest"
"take me, be my guest"

count to ten (demo)

elliebell

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