merry draincember

@musictravels
@clovehitch
@astersterling

Noblest Strive

- lyrics -

i find myself on the floor
a moment between your voices
escape from a paradigm where i
have trouble reaching anything anymore
and as you told me where i belong
thrown towards you, an exit out of sight
know that i've laid here far too long
recontextualize "all right"

concurrence impossible still
i'm drowning in your transience
a descriptor i find so often
at times it can hurt
at times it’s relieving

but i don't wanna go back

i couldn't help but be
one who’ll cave in
to your mitigating promise
i couldn’t help but be
one who’ll cave in
to your recurrent cycles

oh oh oh
well, it's pouring over
oh oh oh
ill give some credit to myself
oh oh oh
getting hard to duck and cover
oh oh oh
from what i've been hanging to since last december
it seems pathetic, i'm aware
i see myself more than you ever have
you're weaker still, break down on your way over
i just want to go home

oh oh oh
i feel i'm fading, dying
oh oh oh
but at least it's something new
oh oh oh
well, it's pouring over
oh oh oh
but at least it's something new

how did it end up this way?
i'll run from every embrace if i don't know your motive
i'll try to go to bed today
is this all human or a sharpened habit?
but i'll still be here more
might as well make peace with your voice in my head
can't help but lock my door
clinging as tight as i can

(i do have feelings. when i listen they remind me what's important.)

dec 03 2021

- lyrics -

i'll remain in the time i've been through
blurring lines that keep me alive
though i cant seem to find
somewhere to rest my head
i can take it for a little bit longer
it's okay to retrace
too many steps sometimes
because home never felt so unstable
and ill take some time
learn how to figure it out
and we'll keep in touch if we're able
and i'll be gone by tomorrow
you'll count to ten
but this time i wont see
how this ends

take note of a feeling
derived from winter air
its skies embrace me at their core
kind hands could lead me through
remind me that i'm not broken
i'll blossom, ease a longing heart

count to ten

- lyrics -

i am drifting through each passage
playing with ideas that once meant everything to me
help me find a mark to remember
why each breath isn't yours, it's who you want to be
could anyone reach so far?
and it was hard to hold on without you
so i'd picture your smile
stuck together, we're torn apart
so i'll break our ropes, untethered
lost in contact, i'm torn apart

again i find things revealing
a nature i didn't know i'd need
retract all that's keeping me going
what i'd hear when it got hard to breathe

(just try to hold on for now)

a frame that doesn't fit me anymore
are you certain it ever did?

fractured like wilted flowers in your wake
in honesty i've lost hope for our process
and all i knew was to hold on to you
and all i could see were your conflicting colors

nothing to keep me around
flinching without intent
identity detached through breakdowns
never connected again

a thread strung through
i'm beginning to wonder
if i've ever made it past this filter
when they'd drive me up north
and i'd trace the signs around us
wondering what leads to losing sight

erasing composure
i'll break as you reach me

and in familiar hills i remember
to feel things i'm sure are allowed
and i just can't hold myself together
reaching for words that can hold me down

at least it's coming to a close
i'll leave some words unsaid
tearing down something i'd kill to uphold

estates like home

single for "im sinking, come save me."

https://soundcloud.com/user-473055284/buriedingas?si=9fbd82431e9f4567b2461bfd207a0812&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Away.

sad song that is totally finished yea its called "weak" <3

ive seen her in doubles from the other side

packed her bags and took the drive away

take it from someone muzzle-faced & ready for the lunge

and get it under my lungs

september

Original audio file i worked with by @azkii1

4 Walls, i want 2 leave my blood on the 3rd 1

pipedream!

new order

on a thousand islands in the sea
i see a thousand people just like me
a hundred unions in the snow
i watch them walking, falling in a row

we live always underground
it's gonna be so quiet in here tonight
a thousand islands in the sea
it's a shame

and a hundred years ago a sailor
trod this ground i stood upon
take me away everyone
when it hurts thou
from my head to my toes from the words from the books
i see a vision that would bring me luck
from my head to my toes to my teeth through my nose
you get these words wrong

you get these words wrong
every time

but from my head to my toes from my knees to my eyes
(i was born in carlisleeee but i was MADE in the royal navyyy)

every time i watch the sky
these last few days, leave me alone
but for these last few days, just leave me alone

just leave me alone
leave me alone
leave me alone
leave me alone
leave me alone
just leave me alone

estates like home

elliebell

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