I see myself strutting through a park surrounded by trees and flowers, drinking iced tea, smiling at strangers. 😋 #catchavibe

I've been expecting the rain to pour
for my heart to feel sore
But all I see is sunshine
and I see it in your eyes

You always make it worth my while
every time I see you smile
It's knowing that you're mine
every single night, yeah

I've got a brand new attitude
Oh you've got me in the mood

Life hurts, yeah it's fine
as long as I can see you shine
There's nothing I want more
than to see you walkin' through that door

It'd take an army to keep me down
from trying to flip your frown
I love you more and more
You I'll always adore

I've got a brand new attitude
Yeah you've got me in the mood

In The Mood

Wave Cassette

BEAAS

Rise

I don't know where I'm gonna go
in this life of mine
But I think that I've found
a way around

If you had to walk one mile in my shoes
what would you do?
If you had the same hand dealt to you
where would you be?

I can't tell you where I'm going 
cause I myself don't know
All I can say is I'm right where I wanna be

Unpredictable

humans suck.

lyrics:

i'll be careful when i do it
i wont even make a sound

but dont tell my parents
cause i know they'll freak out
---
i dont want a second chance in life
why choose to be sad twice? sad twice?

i dont want a second glance of hope
well im hangin by a tightrope, tightrope
---
never fine
never could discuss
what was wrong
never good enough

never find
never could just love
without trust
never good enough
---
i kinda wanna die
---
I just know no one will miss me
its a thing where ive thought twice

and i hope you all feel guilty
cause i showed all the warning signs
----
i dont want a second chance in life
why choose to be sad twice? sad twice?

i dont want a second glance of hope
or maybe ill just let go, let go
---
never fine
never could discuss
what was wrong
never good enough

never find
never could just love
without trust
never good enough
---
i kinda wanna die
---
all of these people, dont know that youre hiding
all of these people, just know that youre smiling

i know its kind hard, what youre going through
cause youre just like me
im just like you

all of these people, dont know that youre trying
---
i kinda wanna die
---



stay alive for me

i kinda wanna die

henlo. this is a song ive been working on for like a year on and off because I couldn't get the lyrics down, but now its finished! this song is called orange skies because the mix of sunset is sometimes orange, or sometimes the sky turns orang when there are fires nearby, and one can't tell the difference. orange skies, (this is a call for help) is a song based on bi-polar disorder and mental illness. i originally made this song for one of my family members who's was battling with suicidal thoughts, but as time went by i started to create the song with myself in mind as well when i have manic episodes. sometimes when u go through these things, you may not want to not tell anyone, and deal with it yourself, but you end up worse than before. sometimes people around u even contribute to these thoughts. you want to call for help, but what happens when you feel as though no one in ur life cares enough about u to even care? or to check up on u? i know this feeling all too well, its a very hard cycle. but in orange skies sometimes we have to pretend they are sunsets when our whole world is on fire. 
if you feel this way please contact: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Lyrics:
i want someone to realize, that this is a call for help
i want someone to realize, that this is a call from hell
--
i want someone to tell me, they'd miss me if i was dead
i want someone kiss me, and tell me that i matter to them
--
but what if no one notices I'm truly trying now?
what if its just wait to late and ill drown in my doubt?
don't wanna drag my family and friends in all my problems
ill shut myself away and hopefully ill somehow solve em
--
oh
don't wanna go through this
alone..
will anyone miss me? 
i want someone to realize, that this is a call for help
i want someone to realize, that this is a call from hell
--
can anyone?
can anyone?
hear me when I'm gone

can anyone?
can anyone?
hear me when I call?

I think its my fault cause i shut myself away, maybe its not my fault they ignore me anyway, i know its not my fault cause i feel this everyday and even if i died everything would stay the same
----
I am fully convinced that nobody wants me hear
that if i died tomorrow no one would shed a single tear
--
cause no one ever notices I'm never not around, no one really cares for me i dont call it a doubt, i really hate my family and friends they never bother, to check up on me now and then i guess ill never tell em
--
my left brain, isn't working right
my right brain has been on all night

i want someone to realize, that this is a call for help
i want someone to realize, that this is a call from hell
----
can anyone?
can anyone?
hear me when I'm gone

can anyone?
can anyone?
hear me when I call?

I think its my fault cause i shut myself away, well maybe its not my fault they ignore me anyway, i know its not my fault cause i feel this everyday and even if i died everything would stay the same
----
can anyone?
can anyone?
hear me when I'm gone

can anyone?
can anyone?
hear me when I call?
----

orange skies (a call for help)

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Homies

Hey! I'm Ellie ~ I've been making my own music for a few years now. Grew up in a small town, but ya girl has big dreams. Thx so much for listening to my music. ♥

✧no matter what, you're gonna be okay. i believe in u:)✧

Unpredictable

Ellie Marie

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