Every time you say that "things are okay"
I add another dollar to the tip jar
Maybe one day when I spare enough change
I'll run away, but I know
I won't make it far

If I'm lucky, just a mile or two
But a mile's another mile away from you
I'll save up the cash
In the tip jar

And when it's filled to the top
Will you smash the jar on the rocks?
Will you destroy all the proof of your false promises
Did you ever mean for it to end like this?

You can try to hold me, keep me
But my mind is already gone

My mind is already gone

The Tip Jar song (My funds to get away from you) - Demo

The Tip Jar Song (My Funds To Get Away From You)

I finally know just what it means to grieve
No one could ever replicate that sting
I've waited like a dog
Obeying every law
Forgetting myself in the process of everything

When I choose to leave,
Choose to put myself to sleep
Euthanize every memory of me
It does nobody good to think

I finally forgot the meaning to the words:
"My body feels much better when it's hurt"
'Cause when I look into my eyes,
I see a girl inside
And I know I can't make her better
Or make her worse

So when I choose to go to sleep
Choose to finally fucking leave
Euthanize every memory of me
When you look into my beady eyes
You'll find nothing inside
It's better just to let me dream

Don't resuscitate 
Please, don't hesitate
Please just let me be
Please just let me bleed

Euthanasia (DNR).m4a

Track 03 from the SALEM.m4a EP.

lyrics:
I am nothin,
I feel nothin
It's horrible, I know
You're reaching for feelings
But my receptors have been nulled

They function like children
Without a soul to fix the holes
Ripped open by villains
No stitches, no home

And the medical professional will kick the children down until their
Receptors have been nulled
The medical professional will pick apart the children
Tell the parents, "They're too dull"
Believe me, I know

(Believe me, I know)
(Don't leave me alone)
(They'll leave me alone)
(Leave me alone)

SALEM.m4a

Receptors (demo)

this election got me feeling like!!!! sigh

Hold me close and hold my tight
This too shall pass, just give it time
And gnash your skin right into mine
I'll cry all night, we'll cry all night

I'll shave my face and shed my tears
A real woman is made of fear
I threaten sacred laws of life
I'm what the bible tries to fight

The night cries out to the morning
"Why is it only I who is mourning?"
Morning replies with a trembling voice
"I'm afraid I have no choice"


im afraid

I forgot words
I forgot how to speak
Starin' up at fixtures
While you're staring down at me
Let the shadows shape my fears
Into cold reality

The warmness of my lamp
Feels like fire to my skin
Though, I know it burns
I can't form a reaction

I can blame God,
Or blame this timeline that we're in
Though, I know the world is changing
I still can't form a reaction 
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Reactions *

There I'll find her deep in thought
Deep in mem'ries; she's too far gone
I'll try to save her, reel her in
I cast my line
It snapped again
So I'll say:

"There'll be some summer day
When all the leaves start to decay
There is no changing what has begun
But there's preparations that can be done
To keep the peace from better seasons
When the good times start their leavin'
Just look inside yourself and see that
Everything is permanent in heart"

It's a good start :) <3

permanent in heart (really early demo)

Bury your head down in Michigan [Teaser]

Move up north
Leave behind your parents, your pets
Your siblings and friends

Move up north
You can always fake your death
And go bury your head down
In Michigan

I came across a lonely boy
And I asked him his story
And I listened to what he had to say:

"I had to run away
I had to leave my home
My father drowned himself in liquor
And my mother was never really in the picture
I never had a friend to my name
So, I walked here from Maryland
I wanted to start new again
But everything is worse, if not the same"

And I had to let him stay
I had to let him tag along, what could go wrong?
I mean, he's awfully sweet
And the company completes me

Your father and your sister are both sitting back at home
Your father grabs a beer, and your sister's all alone
They noticed you went missing, like, seven days ago
But they never bothered to follow your footprints in the snow
(Did they even?)
(Did they even?)

Headed north
When we were halfway there, we stopped
And we stared at the river

Headed north
I've never seen a place like this before

We got stopped by the cops
We headed to the station
Me and the little boy were shakin'
They asked us where we came from
We said that we were locals
But the cops didn't buy it one bit
So, we stayed overnight
But we couldn't sleep
We stayed up 'til we saw the rising morning
The boy got sent back to Maryland
To this day, I can't get through to him
But no one ever came to claim me
And I cry all..
I cry all day

(Cry all day)
(Cry all day)

After days of no one coming
They sent me on my way
I'm headed for Michigan
I just want to start new again
But I don't have a friend to my name
I'm headed for Michigan
I just want to start new again
But everything is worse, if not the same
So, I'll cry all day
I cry all day

Well, I'll make my bed in some bushes
Hope I wake up safe
Lay my head in the dumpster
Hope I wake up okay
Maybe leaving home wasn't my greatest thought
I'm cold, hungry, and lost

My father and my mother are still sitting back at home
I've sat and pondered calling them on a payphone
They noticed I went missing, like, several weeks ago
But I doubt they'd bother to follow my footprints in the snow
My father and my mother are still sitting back at home
Well I'm all out of money, so I can't afford the phone
They noticed I went missing, like, several weeks ago
But I doubt they'd bother to follow my footprints in the snow
Or did they even know?

(What could go wrong?)
(What could go wrong?)
(What could go wrong?)
(I cry all night long)
(While nature sings its taunting, mocking
Fucking haunting song)
(What.. Could.. Go wrong?)

Bury your head down in Michigan (What could go wrong?)

A psychedelic freak-folk deer girl named after a road sign
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My name is Fawn, I'm 16 years old, and I record and produce all my music in my bedroom!! I write songs about anything & everything, but I *like* to write songs with storytelling, running away, and dead little freaks <(@_@)>

I make music that ranges through a lot of genres, but for the most part, I try to aim for psychedelic/freak-folk tunes. 
I'm really inspired by the Hop Along, Queen Ansleis album, 'Freshman year' as you can probably tell, but other people I'm influenced by are 'The Oh Hellos', 'Foot Ox', 'Kimya Dawson', 'June Henry', and many more!!

Stick around for super cool new stuff, and consider joining my discord + following my tiktok/instagram for updates regarding my upcoming releases!!1!1! I'm working on a reworked/better/more-produced/less-grating version of 'Choose Your People Carefully, You Shouldn't Run Away With Just Anyone', so stick around for that!!! May be one of my most favorite projects so far

And while you're waiting, stream my first ever album, 'You're In The Doghouse Now (The oven is piping hot)' !! (It's not great but maybe it'll suit your tastebuds >:-)

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