9/22
lyrics:
i been hard to reach
i been hard to reach
i won't pick up the phone
i been out of sync
i been out of sync and i can't let this go

diamond in the rough
is he good enough?
i'm not so sure
he's so off the cuff
he's sick and tired
doesn't have a choice
he tries to speak but doesn't have a voice
the only walls he knows
the four that's in his room
the time could pass him by
he wouldn't have a clue
and the strings lead back to you
and the strings lead back to you

strings

links:
https://ffm.to/c210 
https://socializingmusic.com/#nishith

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i got in the car
the heat on, cause it’s 56 outside
i told you i fucked up
you acted surprised
you said i keep making the same old stupid mistakes
and i said i hadn’t but Iim pretty sure i lied

take me by the hand, take me by the hand and never let go 
squeeze me super tight, squeeze me super tight and keep me close
cause i can’t lose you again 
it’s like hide and seek, cause i’ll count to ten
and you’ll be gone 

it’s been getting colder, and the leaves have been falling down
but i’ve been wearing a sweater since the start of march 
walking 'round the harbor sweating bullets but i’ll keep it on
what do i know?
i’m still just a kid

take me by the hand, take me by the hand and never let go 
squeeze me super tight, squeeze me super tight and keep me close
cause i can’t lose you again 
it’s like hide and seek, cause i’ll count to ten
and you’ll be gone

count to ten

||until then i'm lost||

prod me ykyky 
co written with @insertsonghere

thank u for the awesome year even though i didn't post much, next year is stronger :3


🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
If you have a question
I could answer it
I need to break the ice
I’d leave a nice impression and just a little hint
Our fire can suffice

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
until our paths cross
I promise i will be ok
Until then i’m lost
I still have my memories 
that you must of forgot
I’ll remind you who i am 
Doesn’t matter what's the cost

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
time moves slowly
but my heart is speeding up
thinkin’ am i out of luck
to find you, to find you
you, you, you, you
i can never get enough 
i can't seem to give it up.

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
If you have a question
I could answer it
I need to break the ice
until our paths cross
I promise i will be ok
until then i’m lost

until our paths cross

https://ffm.to/alwayswere

cover art by noah geene https://temberl.in/ 

i think i see it in the distance 
___________________________________
always were, like you always were
its the rote screen door on your front porch 
where you fell asleep on the tile floor
but you've unstrung all your britching now

bite my tongue 'till it falls right off
its the tailgate on that fane barbwire 
trace the windshield as we drove for miles 
spurn the sauder on the backing line
and i swear i saw you standing at the edge 

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

always were

extremely low effort

original song by novo amor https://soundcloud.com/iamnovoamor/state-lines

heavily inspired by @elidrinksgrapemilk

state lines

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

ann j gardner canyon park 2012

I spent too long inside my mind 
I took to much I’m paralyzed 
The life I want was all a lie 
Ik exactly what I want 
I didn’t  mean to cut you off.
I couldn’t keep a promise you hear it in my tone 
my heart is in my poem but baby girl you know
just how I felt 
My minds loose  
Confused 
What’s wrong with me ?
So I’ll throw my head against the wall 
don’t wanna have to run from you
you know I do 
but you would tell me breathe 
you taught me how to breathe  
I don’t know what it means 
the past is obsolete 
and I won’t let it , hold me closer
let it  pull me under 
All the things I wish I could undo
I fold another time , Ik it’s do or die  
you see it in my eyes
 you know I’m paralyzed.
You know I hurt you , I didn’t mean to haunt you
you said it wasn’t all my fault , 
but why always say my problems aren’t the cause of drama , 
when my time is all I misuse
And so I’ll breath , 
as long as I just breath
Ik this isn’t me 
I felt it I’m too weak 
too weak
I start to realize 
it’s all a suicide 
spent 3 months in the back of my mind 
just tryna make it feel right 
I start to haunt  you 
you know I didn’t want too 
the past will always cut through 
the pain will always relapse  
but I don’t think you see it
no I don’t think you know my life
A lie
and I don’t know 
if this is what I want
or who I have to be
this isn’t what I see 
but baby don’t you lie
don’t lie 
don’t lie 
don’t lie

https://open.spotify.com/track/1jso3yWBgbZbCTpA5x65ln?si=0f2810c4021e4943

Orpheus

he had a thing for dual titles earlier in his work, grew out of it though

i remember that night on christmas eve, we had almost called the police department after he'd been missing for 2 days, but he came back to the house around 3am. Mom and dad interrogated the hell out of the poor kid as to where he'd been but he wouldn't let up. Locked himself in his room all night and i'm assuming recorded this (judging by the dates from the folder), but i wasn't awake. Zion never seemed the type to get into substances, and he didn't display signs indicative of it anyway, but it had to have been something significant. He didn't talk for a good few months afterwards. I just wish he would've opened up to me, but being the youngest sibling i was generally disregarded. I try not to hold it against him, but it's more difficult than i'd like to admit sometimes.

Treading the marish

I hold the brume close to me, but her body’s not like mine 
Plaiting the cordage  
run my hands through the fireweed 
haled out in flume

two eyes, four legs, white scales, sharp fangs,
pitching, dorsal, ivory, rippling 
sleighting, subsumed

when she breached the water
I knew I’d seen something that shouldn't be
but when she breached the water
I felt real

choice_scarf//breach♕♖♗♘♚♛♜♝♞♟dec2011.wav

Distance

stream Freak Out: https://ffm.to/streamfreakout
visualizer: https://youtu.be/0ZYSbsEqIkc
prod. Soutjay & Cole Calico 
artwork by Azucena

Lyrics:

intro:
(much love)

verse 1:
head is spinning round again
all my life I've been out of it
tried talking but it's counterfeit,
couldn't beleive it
but it's all in the way that I think that

pre-chorus:
I got everything I wanted
what am I gonna do now
you kept thinking of everything
you couldn't say out loud

chorus:
and I let you down a little
you watched me Freak Out
I can't help but hope that
you'll stick around (woah)

verse 2:
I can't describe this feeling
these words bounce round and around
till the find some meaning, yea
they always come out blue
tell me again why I just 
couldn't see it through
now I'm afraid to lose you
and I'm dodging the truth
it seems I've made you the reason
I need to think that

pre-chorus:
I got everything I wanted
what am I gonna do now
you kept thinking of everything
you couldn't say out loud

chorus:
and I let you down a little
you watched me Freak Out
I can't help but hope that
you'll stick around (woah)

(freakin out, you'll stick around x4)

pest

eloen

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jish!

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