Darkie

mixed up mutt (PROD. SKOTSKR)

door right now (PROD. WENDIGO)

sorrow (PROD. BRAHMAN)

positive and patient (PROD. TRIPLESIXDELETE)

the war is won (PROD. MKULTRA)

I WANNA BE (PROD. SKOTSKR)

stay alone (PROD. WENDIGO)

this song is a love letter to my friends, family, and partner who help me stay grounded no matter what i'm going through. i hope it brings peace to some of y'all who listen

every heartbeat (prod. calder)

KING OF CALIFORNIA (PROD. WENDIGO)

i'm going CRAZY (PROD. SKOTSKR)

lyrics:

I WENT ON A HIKE AND DID SOME DRUGS 
MY HEADPHONES PLAYING’ MY FAVORITE SONG 
I’M FILLED WITH SO MUCH LOVE 
DON’T KNOW WHERE IT’S BEEN AT ALL ALONG 
UP ON A MOUNTAIN TOUCH THE SKY
I COULD DIE IF I STAY UP HERE TOO LONG
MY BEST FRIEND BY MY SIDE 
AND I’M SO HIGH TELL ME WHY

I CAN SEE HEAVEN
HEAVEN
HEAVEN IN YOUR EYES
I’M SEEING HEAVEN 
HEAVEN
YOU’RE HEAVEN IN DISGUISE

I WANNA FLY AWAY 
ON A TIDAL WAVE
OF ENERGY 
MY BODY TURNS INTO PARTICLES 
DISINTEGRATE AND MELT AWAY


heaven (PROD. CALDER X kevm)

lyrics:

WHEN I OPEN MY DEVICE
I SEE HELL
(I SEE HELL)
INFINITY INSIDE MY SPIRIT 
I BEEN HOLDING UP THE SKY FOR SO LONG
I FORGOT WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO SEE IT 
SO TAKE THE FALL 
SO TAKE THE FALL
THE SUN GET’S FAR AWAY
THE SUN GET’S FAR AWAY
YOU’RE NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO FLY SO NEAR IT
SO TAKE THE FALL
SO TAKE THE FALL
WHAT'S THE POINT OF WRITING?
WHAT'S THE POINT?
IF NO ONE EVEN UNDERSTANDS THE LYRICS?
SAID NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THE LYRICS
YOU PLAYING THE SONG BUT I DOUBT IF YOU REALLY HEAR IT
MAN WHO AM I KIDDING 
CANT CHARGE ME TO PAY ATTENTION 
MY BEST DRAWINGS WERE ON THE DESK 
IN AFTER SCHOOL DETENTION
CREATING EVERY DAY CUZ IT’S THE ONLY THING I’M GOOD AT
OR GREAT AT
OR YOU COULD ARGUE NOBODY SHOULD SAY THAT ABOUT ME 
AND IT’S A CRIME THE AMOUNT OF SUCCESS THAT GOD HAS ALLOWED ME TO HAVE 
THROW ME THAT HAIL MARY YOU KNOW I AIN'T DROPPING THE PASS
YEAH
I FEEL THE MOST AT PEACE WITH BOTH MY FEET STOOD ON TOP OF THE GRASS
LEARNING NOT TO GIVE A FUCK COMPLETELY?
IMPOSSIBLE TASK
THOUGHTS OF GREY MATTER ON THE WALL
BUT YOU CALL AND YOU ASK ME
WHY I AIN’T RAPPING 
ISN’T LIVING INSPIRING?
I SAID:
WHAT'S THE POINT OF WRITING
IF NO ONE EVEN UNDERSTANDS THE LYRICS?


take the fall (PROD. Brahman)

lyrics:

YOU TOOK OFF ALL MY CLOTHES 
WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS HOME
YOU CAME AND SAT WITH ME
WOULDN’T LEAVE ME ALONE 
I FELL IN LOVE AGAIN 
IT FEELS LIKE IT’LL NEVER END 
I FOUND IT WAS PRETEND 
CAUGHT YOU SLEEPING WITH MY FRIEND

LIAR
THE WORDS ON YOUR FORKED TONGUE
BURN LIKE FIRE
VERTICAL PUPILS LIKE KNIVES
CUT INTO PIECES MY LIFE

LOST WITHOUT DIRECTION
AFRAID OF REJECTION
NATURAL SELECTION
I WILL NOT SURVIVE 
FRIVOLOUS CONNECTIONS 
SPREAD LIKE AN INFECTION
BEG FOR THE AFFECTION 
I CANNOT PROVIDE
YOU WANT MY SOUL
RIP IT FROM INSIDE 
YOUR HEART IS SO COLD 
I WISH YOU WOULD 

DIE
THE WORDS ON YOUR FORKED TONGUE
BURN LIKE FIRE
VERTICAL PUPILS LIKE KNIVES
CUT INTO PIECES MY LIFE


liar (PROD. Wonton)

lyrics:

IF YOU MOVE TO THE BEAT OF THE DRUM YOU WILL FIND 
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SONGS 
ARE ONES YOU CANNOT REWIND 
I GET UP
ON MY FEET AND START 
SHAKING MY SPINE 
I FEEL IT VIBRATE
I MAKE THE MOST OF MY TIME 
NOW WAKE UP
OPEN UP YO EYES 
AND WAKE UP 
COME INTO THE LIGHT 
AND WAKE UP 
ARE YOU STUCK IN A DREAM?
DO YOU FIND THE WORLD IS NOT WHAT IT SEEM TO BE?
A BIG FANTASY
THEY MADE UP?
NOW IT’S TIME FOR YOU MAKE THE BED
AND WAKE UP 
A PRODUCT OF THE BRAIN
I USED TO A SLAVE TO MY PAIN
THE STRESS OUTWEIGHING 
MY LOVE FOR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
EVERYDAY IT MADE ME GO INSANE 
EVERY NIGHT PRAYING
SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE
I WANNA PUT MY LIFE ON FREEZE 
DOWN ON MY KNEES 
THINKING BOUT SUICIDE 
IT’S DO OR DIE TO ME 
HOW CAN I BE FREE?
IF I GET UP IN THE MORNING BUT I KNOW I’M STILL SLEEP 
MY ALARM BEEP BEEP AND THE BIRDS CHEEP 
GRINDING MY TEETH 
AND BITING MY NAILS 
I MOVE LIKE A SNAIL 
LIFE FEEL LIKE HELL 
I HAD A COUPLE SHROOMS IN A BAG I FORGOT 
MIGHT AS WELL TAKE EM ALL
IT DON’T SEEM LIKE A TON
BEEN A WHILE SINCE LAST TIME 
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
CAN’T GET WORSE THAN STARING AT A GUN!
AFTER A BIT
STARTED FEELING KINDA WEIRD 
SEEING SHAPES ON THE CEILING
MY EYES MAKE TEARS
THE MUSHROOM SPEAKING TO ME IN MY HEAD
I COULD HEAR WITHOUT USING MY EARS
AND THIS IS WHAT HE SAID 
YOU GOTTA LET GO BABY
OF ALL THAT HATE 
YOU GOTTA STOP TRYNA CONTROL SHIT THAT’S OUT OF YOUR REACH 
LIVE YOUR LIFE
I’M HAPPY TO BE STUCK UP 
IN A BODY OF MEAT
NOT BOTHERING ME 
IN THE RAIN OR THE SUN 
EVERYONE CAN HAVE SOME FUN AND GET HIGH
YOU GOTTA LET GO BABY OF ALL THAT HATE
TOO HEAVY TO LET YOU FLY


wake up (PROD. MKULTRA)

lyrics:

WORK SO HARD
FLY SO FAR
FORGET EVERYTHING YOU ARE
WASTE YOUR TIME
THE CLOCK TICKS ON 
BUT YOU WERE WITH ME ALL ALONG 
BODY HURTS
CAN’T GET UP 
I DON’T WANNA REGRET NOT VISITING ENOUGH 
HOLD MY HAND 
DON’T GO AWAY
I’D TRADE A YEAR FOR ANOTHER DAY 
I LOVE
I LOVE, YOU
PAIN
TEARS BURN
FALLING FROM MY 
EYES
MY TURN
TO LOSE EVERYTHING 
I LOVE
I HANG YOUR PAINTINGS ON MY WALL 
I’LL FILL ENTIRE CONCERT HALLS
YOU SAY I’M GROWING UP SO TALL
BUT FOR A FEW YEARS I HAVEN’T GROWN AT ALL
WE HAVEN’T SPOKEN FOR A WHILE
NERVOUS LOOKING AT THE DIAL
I WANT TO SEE THE WAY YOU SMILE
A THOUSANDS PICTURES IN A PILE 
I LOVE
I LOVE, YOU
WHY
SPIRAL
FALLING FROM THE
SKY
MY TURN
TO LOSE EVERYTHING 
I LOVE


everything i love (prod. Wonton X Brahman)

lyrics:

WOULD YOU THROW IT ALL AWAY 
JUST TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY
WOULD YOU LEAVE OR WOULD YOU STAY
WHEN THINGS GET DIFFICULT 
I PRAY
YOU FIND A REASON TO KEEP TRYING
EVERYBODY HAS TO DIE
I’VE SAID THAT SHIT A HUNDRED TIMES
BECAUSE IT’S ALWAYS ON MY MIND 
WE ARE BLIND TO THE SIGNS 
EVERY TIME I HEAR THAT SONG 
MY HEART BREAKS OPEN AND I CRY
LIKE RAIN THAT’S FALLING FROM THE SKY 
IT FEEL LIKE THE END IS NIGH
WATCH THE DAY TURN INTO NIGHT 
THE SUN WILL COME UP 
A BEAUTIFUL SYMMETRY PERSISTS 
YOU CAN RAISE A HAND OR A FIST 
IF YOU WANT 
BUT IT’S ON TOP OF A WRIST EITHER WAY
JUST WATCH, THERE WILL BE DARK TIMES
AND BRIGHTER DAYS 
IF YOU WAIT
THE CLOCK LOOK LIKE A PLATE  
WITH A KNIFE AND A FORK
OR SOME CHOPSTICKS 
FOR STUFFING YOUR FACE 
I HEAR IT TICK
GOT ME BUGGIN
BLOOD SUCKERS INSIST 
ON HURTING OTHERS FOR KICKS 
THE FENG SHUI IS AMIS
WOULD ROUND HOUSES MAKE US NONVIOLENT?
IF THERE AIN’T A CORNER YOU CAN HIDE IN?
ZIP LIPS
STAY SILENT?
TRY TO WIDEN MY MIND 
BUT WHAT’S THE POINT OF TRYING TO
IF EVERYTHING I’M FIGHTING FOR
IS ALWAYS DYING
HOPE IS NOT PROVIDED 
RESIDING IN DIMENSION OF IMPERMANENCE
FURNACES BURNING AND CONSUMING 
IS IT PURPOSELESS? 
LIFE FEEL LIKE A CIRCUS 
IMMA JESTER
KEEP TRACK OF YOUR PURCHASES 
BECOME AN INVESTOR 
REWARD YOUR SUCCESSORS 
HONOR ANCESTORS 
LEARN ABOUT HOW YOU CAN SUFFER FOR A SEMESTER 
AND ANSWERS ALL THE QUESTIONS WHEN THEY TEST YA
YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A COMPLEX COLLECTION OF RECEPTORS 
BORN TO WORK AND DIE 
NEVER TELL JOKES OR SMILE 
OBEY THE THE BOSS 
CEO OR PROFESSOR 
DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL
AND I THREW AWAY THE ROPE 
FREE EXPRESSION HOW I COPE
NOW I MAKE MY OWN HOPE


hope (PROD. SKOTSKR)

lyrics:

EVER SINCE I CAME IN THE GAME 
I WANTED NOTHING BUT TO JUMP IN THEY GUTS AND GESTATE
BE BORN LIKE A XENOMORPH 
FORMED FROM THE HATE
THAT’S BEEN THROWN IN MY FACE 
OLD FRIENDS TURN TO 
SHAKE
SMOKED UP LIKE A STEAK 
TO THE HEART OF A VAMPIRE 
ARRIVE IN YOUR FACE
LIKE A FIST OR A DICK 
BITCH 
THE FUCK IS YOU SAYIN’?

DARKNESS
IN LIGHT 
(X4)

BEEN STEPPED ON MY WHOLE LIFE
AND JUST BECAUSE I LOVE YOU DON’T 
MEAN YOU CAN DO THE SAME
THERE’S YANG IN THE YIN
AND YIN IN THE YANG
I TRIED TO MAKE IT WORK
BUT PEOPLE SHIFT AND TIMES CHANGE
I JUMP INTO THE FLAME
EVER SINCE I CAME IN THE GAME 
I WANTED NOTHING BUT TO JUMP IN THEY GUTS AND TAKE SHAPE
I GOT A KID ON THE WAY
I CAN’T EXPECT YOU TO RELATE TO DAT
WANNA ACT BUDDY BUDDY?
BUDDY IT’S TOO LATE FOR THAT
I HOPE THAT YOU GROW UP
AND MEET A NICE GIRL OR A GUY
AND YOU TRY TO TREAT THEM BETTER THAN I 
WHEN YOU FIGHT
TRY TO FORGIVE INSTEAD OF EYE FOR AN EYE
TIL YOU BLIND YOUR WHOLE LIFE
IT’S YANG HOE
I’LL SEE YOU ASS WHEN I DIE


guts (PROD. SKOTSKR)

lyrics: 

WHERE IS THE LOVE?
WHERE IS THE SOUL PLEASE
HELP ME TO SEE IT
I’VE LOST ALL CONTROL
LIKE PAPER I FOLD
IN TWO
THEN FOUR
THEN EIGHT
THEN MORE
IS THERE A PIECE OF ART YOU CAN’T BUY?
A PAINTING HUNG SO HIGH 
A GOLDEN FRAME WHOSE CONTENTS 
YOU CAN’T NAME A PRICE FOR
THEY CAN’T STAND THE SIGHT OF IT
A SONG THAT NOBODY CAN RECORD 
ONE THAT NOBODY’S HEARD BEFORE
SOMETHING YOU’LL NEVER BUY IN A STORE
AND THERE WILL NEVER BE MORE 
WHERE IS THE LOVE?
WHERE IS THE SOUL PLEASE
HELP ME TO SEE IT
I’VE LOST ALL CONTROL
LIKE PAPER I FOLD
IN TWO
THEN FOUR
THEN EIGHT
THEN MORE
WHERE IS THE LOVE?
WHERE IS THE SOUL PLEASE
HELP ME TO SEE IT
I’VE LOST ALL CONTROL
FOR PAPER WE FOLD
IN TWO
THEN FOUR
THEN EIGHT
THEN MORE

a song you cannot record (PROD. CALDER)

lyrics:

HOLDING ONTO 
HOLDING ONTO THE PEOPLE AND THEIR FEELINGS
I MISS YOU 
ALL MY LIFE I SPENT 
TRYNA BE APPROVED OF
BASE MYSELF ON MY FRIENDS
BUT EVERYTHING GOTTA END 
ARE YOU HOLDING ON TOO?
GIVE ALL YOU WANT 
BUT YOU KNOW THE WORLD TAKE IT BACK
PLACE BLAME ALL THAT YOU WANT 
TIL YOUR SOUL IS BLACK 
DON’T PICK UP WHEN I CALL
I DON’T WANNA CHAT 
HATE ME UNTIL ONE OF US HAVE A HEART ATTACK
I LOVE YOU
I DON’T WANNA SEE YOU GO AWAY 
HIDE OUT 
WHEN YOU TRY TO GO
LIKE A STOWAWAY 
READY TO FORGIVE YOU
BUT YOU KNOW HOW TO HOLD A GRUDGE
READY TO MOVE ON 
GOTTA FIND SOMEWHERE TO PUT MY LOVE 
ROT INSIDE 
YOU CAN DIE WHEN I DECIDE 
YOU CANNOT BREAK FAMILY TIES 
QUITE SO EASILY 
HEART RATE RISING 
DEFEATING ME 
I’M SO TIRED 
WANNA GO TO SLEEP 
YOU’RE INSIDE OF ANOTHER DREAM 
WE AREN’T EVEN ENEMIES 
WHY 
WHY WON’T YOU LOOK INTO MY EYES
WHY
SPEND YOUR LIFE 
PICKING UP THE PIECES 
OF DIFFERENT PUZZLES 
FIREFLIES IN THE SUMMERTIME 
DON’T KNOW WHY THEY SHINE
AS THEY FLY THROUGH THE SKY 
I SEE LIGHT 


firefly (PROD. CALDER X kevm)

lyrics:

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CARRY I FEEL SO WEAK 
DYSPHORIC IN MY MASCULINITY 
WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR I HATE WHAT I SEE
SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT YOU SEE IN ME

ERICA LOOK INTO MY EYES
ERICA YOU’RE JUST MY TYPE 
ERICA I HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE
I FEEL SO ALIVE WITH YOU

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CARRY I FEEL SO WEAK 
DYSPHORIC IN MY MASCULINITY 
WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR I HATE WHAT I SEE
SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT YOU SEE IN ME
I DO WHAT I MUST STRUGGLE WITH WHAT I CAN
WHEN YOU SEE ME CRY, AM I LESS OF A MAN?
YOU CRADLE MY SOUL AND YOU HOLD MY HAND
YOU LET ME KNOW THAT YOU LOVE ME THE WAY THAT I AM


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