Lemme just *cough cough* slide this link here https://soundcloud.com/glitter_in_my_veins/nightcore-invisible-killer-elysiansoul

it feels so nice to be able to listen to her songs without feeling the need to starve myself anymore

Sticks And Stones And Bones

The Smile Underneath

The first track on my 2018 album Dark Descent. It attempts to illustrate the beginning of the descent into anorexia - the elation, the high, and the initial seduction of the disease.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Dark Descent

This is the first song I've written about bulimia. This song presented quite a challenge for me - I hadn't thought about how it feels to be bulimic for a long time, so reliving the mentality was difficult. I also wanted to maintain the same sound and feel to the lyrics as my other songs.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Pull Me Under

Midnight Run is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent. With Midnight Run, I wanted to create something that would reflect the emotional drive and willpower that comes along with compulsive over-exercising as an anorexic.
It's very different to any other song on the album - it's upbeat, energetic, and was designed with running and exercising in mind.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Midnight Run

Girl Within The Ghost is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent. This song describes how anorexia can completely take over your own personality, to the point where that person appears to be a ghost of their former self; 'the lights are on, but nobody's home'.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Girl Within The Ghost

Dysmorphia is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent. Through Dysmorphia, I've tried to reflect the psychological mind games involved with body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) as an element of eating disorders.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Dysmorphia

The Darkest Star is a track from my 2020 album Beauty In The Darkness.

I had quite a lot of requests to remake Decadence and Disorder for the album, so I decided to restructure the lyrics and give it a totally new sound. The title comes from my favourite lyric in D&D: 'you're the darkest star within the galaxy of life'.

The Darkest Star (The Voice Of Anorexia)

Beauty In The Darkness is a song from my 2020 album under the same name. 

This track was inspired by a YouTube comment on one of my other songs, which made me realise that there are elements of beauty within the darkness of eating disorders - for example, the intense euphoria and feeling of achievement experienced through weight loss. The lyrics convey how the ED tries to seduce the sufferer by playing on insecurities and fears from childhood, or from peer pressure, and offers a misleading sense of comfort and security.

Beauty In The Darkness

Invisible Killer is a track from my Hollow EP about atypical anorexia - a type of anorexia that means the sufferer may be a normal weight, or not fit the general criteria of typical anorexia nervosa.

It's an incredibly suffocating mental illness, which I've experienced first hand. Others tend to refuse to believe you have anorexia or offer you any help, based solely on the fact that you're not underweight.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Invisible Killer

Deteriorate is a song from my Hollow EP about an eating disorder relapse. The idea for this song stems directly from a memory of a time when I experienced relapses of my eating disorder as a teenager.

A vivid image that hangs in my mind is of a crimson sky at dawn, when I would wake up early and run to burn off calories before the day had begun. There were some beautiful skies in the countryside, and for me, the red sky and cold morning rain always signalled the beginning of a relapse, and the fall back into the anorexic mindset.

Deteriorate

Recovered anorexic from UK 🇬🇧
Psychological music based on eating disorders & mental illness 🎶

Invisible Killer

ElysianSoul

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