Name: Play Pretend by ElysianSoul
Duration: 4 min 11 s
Description: Play Pretend depicts the spiralling loss of control that comes with the development of certain mental illnesses, and the manifesting of deceptive behaviours birthed by inner demons and illusion. Within the lyrics, I touch upon hallucinations, anorexia, bipolar thought processes, psychosis, and a fragmented sense of reality.

I'm so excited for the rest of the album! :)

Sticks And Stones And Bones

Danielle Benson - Ana [Sub.Español]

Immune is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent, about anorexia hospitalisation, and expresses how the sufferer is 'immune' to intervention due to the defensive strength of the anorexic voice.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Immune

Girl Within The Ghost is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent. This song describes how anorexia can completely take over your own personality, to the point where that person appears to be a ghost of their former self; 'the lights are on, but nobody's home'.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Girl Within The Ghost

Dysmorphia is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent. Through Dysmorphia, I've tried to reflect the psychological mind games involved with body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) as an element of eating disorders.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Dysmorphia

On My Mind is the first song I've written solely about binge eating disorder.

The track features clips from a YouTube video by Keiko Cupcake, who describes what it's like to live with the disorder while in the midst of a binge eating episode. I thought the video was so powerful and raw, I really wanted to utilise it to add depth to the song.

Link to Keiko Cupcake's video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dda6vN8IdA

On My Mind

The Darkest Star is a track from my 2020 album Beauty In The Darkness.

I had quite a lot of requests to remake Decadence and Disorder for the album, so I decided to restructure the lyrics and give it a totally new sound. The title comes from my favourite lyric in D&D: 'you're the darkest star within the galaxy of life'.

The Darkest Star (The Voice Of Anorexia)

Shadow Dancer is a track from my 2020 album Beauty In The Darkness.

The inspiration behind this song came from the memory of dancing alone in my bedroom at night when I was suffering from anorexia as a teenager. I would wait until after midnight, put on my headphones, and dance until I believed I'd burned off enough calories - it was just me, my shadow, and the anorexic voice pushing me on. With this track, I hoped to capture the haunting feeling of isolation that comes with embracing the anorexic voice, and the strange sense of companionship that forms as a result.

Shadow Dancer

Cold is a track from my 2020 album Beauty In The Darkness, based on the cold reality of anorexia hospitalisation. Within the track, I've added voiceovers reflecting the mental battle between the sufferer and the anorexic voice. Cold can also be seen as a sister song to Immune.

Cold

Beauty In The Darkness is a song from my 2020 album under the same name. 

This track was inspired by a YouTube comment on one of my other songs, which made me realise that there are elements of beauty within the darkness of eating disorders - for example, the intense euphoria and feeling of achievement experienced through weight loss. The lyrics convey how the ED tries to seduce the sufferer by playing on insecurities and fears from childhood, or from peer pressure, and offers a misleading sense of comfort and security.

Beauty In The Darkness

Play Pretend depicts the spiralling loss of control that comes with the development of certain mental illnesses, and the manifesting of deceptive behaviours birthed by inner demons and illusion. Within the lyrics, I touch upon hallucinations, anorexia, bipolar thought processes, psychosis, and a fragmented sense of reality.

Play Pretend

Recovered anorexic from UK 🇬🇧
Psychological music based on eating disorders & mental illness 🎶

Play Pretend

ElysianSoul

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