Amalgamation

It's not right
All the things you do to me
I want to be your dog
Just treat me gently

Time with you
All I want is more of it
Time with you
It's all I'll ever have

I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're poison
Oh you know I've never been afraid to die
You've got me trapped in this night
In this moment I'm frozen
Won't you bite me on the neck just one more time?

I feel sick
I feel wrong inside my head
I can not take the pain
I don't want to just see red

Time with you
I can't bear to be alone
Time with you
Won't you take me home?

I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're poison
Oh you know I've never been afraid to die
You've got me trapped in this night
In this moment I'm frozen
Won't you bite me on the neck just one more time?

I'm alive
But part of me is broken inside
I'm alright
As long as I don't feel
There's seven feet of emotion in five feet of flesh
Just save me from myself

I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're poison
Oh you know I've never been afraid to die
You've got me trapped in this night
In this moment I'm frozen
Won't you bite me on the neck just one more time?

Time With You

Hey there baby
Take my hand
Meet me under the bridge I'll make you understand

Beyond a shadow
Of a doubt
Take this bottle we're gonna cry our eyes right out

I'll make you see
I'm not devoid of empathy
I hope that I can show you more

You're so unfair
Have too much charm
You make me smile with the cat you drew on my arm

I'm idealizing
But I don't care
I want to love you like an animal
Anytime anywhere

Hide from the rain with me
I need to love you carnally
No matter how gross I am

Can you promise you're not gonna stop?
With our faces on the tabletop
Can you laugh so hard it hurts?

Can you handle the anger I feel?
Can you show me something that feels real?
And don't just use your words

I am a victim
Of my past
I am the reason that nothing ever seems to last

Just don't believe them
When I start to crack
You said you love me and I won't let you take it back

What do I wanna be?
Whatever you need from me
Just don't ever run away

Can you promise you're not gonna stop?
With our faces on the tabletop
Can you laugh so hard it hurts?

Can you handle the anger I feel?
Can you show me something that feels real?
And don't just use your words

Tabletop

All alone on a Friday night
When my phone lights up like a kid's night-light
And I see your text
Asking me to come over

You say you need me for some dirty work
And I'm starting to think you're kind of a jerk
I know I always said I'd hide a body for you
But I really didn't think you'd ever ask me to

I go to your house and I see you there
In that cute black dress that you always wear
Covered in red from head to toe in the moonlight

You say "grab the feet while I take the arms"
And I know I should be feeling pretty alarmed
But you're my best friend no matter what you do
And I'm sickeningly happy to spend time with you

You look so pretty
His blood brings out your eyes
I know you're really
Fucked up but so am I
I try to ignore what is hiding in plain sight
Yeah you are a killer
You are killing me tonight

Throwing up while we dig this hole
The stress of this night is taking its toll
As pangs of guilt run through my chest in the garden

But the way you hold your hand in mine
Has me believing everything will be fine
Though I know I'm getting used
I'm sickeningly happy to spend time with you

You look so pretty
His blood brings out your eyes
I know you're really
Fucked up but so am I
I try to ignore what is hiding in plain sight
Yeah you are a killer
You are killing me tonight

Oh dear God
I'm sorry for this
I know I won't be saved

But this girl
Has taken my heart
With her to the grave

You look so pretty
His blood brings out your eyes
I know you're really
Fucked up but so am I
I try to ignore what is hiding in plain sight
Yeah you are a killer
You are killing me tonight

Best Friend

I wish that I could be like you
Instead I'm stuck here imitating the truth
A statistic i really don't want to be
But I need to find some release

I didn't ask to be this way
I can hear your whispers and the things you say
When you think that I can't hear

An amalgamation girl
Worst of both worlds despite what some sites would have you believe

Landmine, yeah I'm kinda crazy
Pretty life, I've been thinking about it lately
Snow in June, save some for me
Whatever I can do to fill what's empty

When I was a teenager I felt alone
It hasn't changed now that I'm fully grown
Am I cute enough to be alive?
Am I worth enough for the day to arrive?

Shut your stupid mouth
Don't talk about things that you have no idea about
Like this

I'm just trying to cope
Hang on to the things that just might give me hope
And keep me on this earth

Landmine, yeah I'm kinda crazy
Pretty life, I've been thinking about it lately
Snow in June, save some for me
Whatever I can do to fill what's empty

Landmine, yeah I'm kinda crazy
Pretty life, I've been thinking about it lately
Snow in June, save some for me
Whatever I can do to fill what's empty

Whatever I can do to fill what's empty

Landmine

Open the door
Step outside, girl
You look better in the rain

On empty streets
It's our bedsheets
And it cleanses what shouldn't remain

Look in the eyes of the busy
They stare down to keep their faces dry
If words can not reach you, then maybe clouds can teach you
There's nothing wrong with looking inside

There's nothing wrong with looking inside

My wrists are held by chains
The world is rearranged
All the time, you know

But no matter what they say
You can not buy the rain
Or control the way it goes

All the raindrops, they glow on your skin
Reflecting brighter sides of everything

As I walk up these cold concrete stairs
My loose thoughts are suspended in the air

What am I doing wrong, been thinking for so long
But I'm no closer to the truth
But everything I know, the rain will make it grow
It will shelter you

Rain

I wanna be a cat going maow maow maow
Laying in the sun going maow maow maow
Everybody go maow maow maow maow
A maow maow maow ma ma maow maow maow

I wanna be a cat going maow maow maow
Laying in the sun going maow maow maow
Everybody go maow maow maow maow
I wanna be a cat going maow maow maow
Laying in the sun going maow maow maow
Everybody go maow maow maow maow
A maow maow maow ma ma maow maow maow

I never wanted to know
I never wanted to know

Darkness, endless
I can't see this evening
This love you say you give
I'm not feeling

If you wanna be a cat going maow maow maow
Listen to me go maow maow maow
Everybody go maow maow maow maow maow
A maow maow maow ma ma maow maow maow

If you wanna be a cat going maow maow maow
Listen to me go maow maow maow
Everybody go maow maow maow maow maow
A maow maow maow ma ma maow maow maow

I never wanted to know
I never wanted to know

Darkness, endless
I can't see this evening
This love you say you give
I'm not feeling

I hate this school and I hate this life
Another fucking day brings another fucking night
I wanna die I don't wanna live
How long is it gonna take 'fore something gives

Something's gonna give man
Something's gonna give
Something's gonna give

Something's gonna give man
Something's gonna give man
Something's gonna give

I never wanted to know
I never wanted to know

Darkness, endless
I can't see this evening
This love you say you give
I'm not feeling

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