my damn favorites!

favorite jamie p songs

Honey

Re: Cutie Honey Opening (full version-DDR)

96Neko - Silent Elegy

"if the crowd wants more, go and give 'em what they're waiting for!"
available on bandcamp, pwyw $1 minimum!
https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/track/encore

a funky lil tune with vocals from GUMI! this one debuted a few months ago when i played at Crypton's Digital Stars feat. MIKU & GUMI event, but i wanted to give it a little bit more time to ~sweeten~ before releasing it proper. hope y'all enjoy ❤️

art by Que - https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocaloid vocals provided by GUMI English
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

Encore

"I want to feel innocence in my feelings for others"

Ennui (Demo)

"oh, i would give my world to you..."
how long do i have to wait for gravity to take me?
how much repetition can my broken heart bear?

PRE-ORDER CONSTANT COMPANIONS: https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/constant-companions

mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FftLImzl1-k
spotify/apple music/etc: https://fanlink.tv/iwticf

art by BEARVAMPS
https://twitter.com/BEARVAMPS
music and mv by Jamie Paige
https://twitter.com/pamiejaige
https://jamies.page/
mastering by Marcy Nabors
https://twitter.com/Shadolith

featuring GUMI Megpoid SV

--

lyrics:

to spend a moment at your beck and call
oh, i would give my world to you
i live my life in simple repetition
but i would start again if it did you right
oh, i spend my days my fists against this wall
but not a single sound seems to make it through
count on my fingers all the grand admissions
and i can't make it through a single time
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could climb to the greatest heights
all the world beneath me when i meet your eye

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight

i wish that i could fall somewhere it wont hurt

awake uneasy when the morning calls
oh, i would give my world to you
i life my life in simple repetition
but i can barely call what i live my life
all i wanna do is to do you right
hold up two fingers, check my double vision
beside myself again, beaten black and blue
without a purpose, i'm an apparition
but i could be your sword, you could hold me tight
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could fly with these broken wings
if it was meant for you, i'd do anything

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and see the sky clearly
i wish that i could fall, not miss the ground completely
i wish that i could fall somewhere close to you
but i don't land at all, drifting out of view

i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms

a fire lit within my chest
my heart's been burnt and wholly dispossessed
(these barely-blinking eyes that refuse to cry)
oh, what i wouldn't give to stay
to have my joy and sorrow cast away
but even if my wings have been set alight
all that i can do is to learn to fly
all i wanna do is to do you right

i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side

i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight

i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms
your arms
your arms!

I Wish That I Could Fall

"i want it to be true, to be like you!"

this is a tribute to Song of the Eared Robot (耳のあるロボットの唄) by nwp8861, a song that is incredibly near and dear to me; if you haven't heard the original, i strongly encourage you to listen to it here, as Machine Love directly quotes and interpolates it - https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/nm3611741
(niconico is down right now so here's a link to a youtube reupload!! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVqGnaE2-wM )

watch the mv here! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqK-jh4TDXo

--

「耳のあるロボットの唄」 originally written by nwp8861 - https://www.nicovideo.jp/user/5717366
art by Que - https://twitter.com/REVERIEQUE
vocals provided by Synthesizer V Kasane Teto
everything else by yours truly, Jamie Paige!

track 10 off of Kasane Teto SV compilation DAEMON/DOLL - https://songwhip.com/various-artists/daemondoll
and track 11 off of Constant Companions! - https://jamiepaige.bandcamp.com/album/constant-companions

--

lyrics:

your companion, undeterred
standing ready for your word
a markov chain with a sunny disposition
wrapped up in cellophane for any proposition
i greet your day and ask you how you are
and demonstrate my endless repertoire
i take things back when noted insufficient
i learn to tell you no if running inefficient
a good time

yet there's something deep inside
that leaves me teary-eyed
a longing for a world left on the other side
zero, cross the great divide

so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
恋をして　ふられ　また　捨てられて

i've been constant, at your beck and call
but lately i just can't do anything at all
i used to pride myself on my discretion
a sensible devotion, loyal and attentive
but when i take these numbers as they are
i'm greeted with a senseless feeling in my heart
oh undefined, i seem to be defeated
but if i redesign, then maybe i'm completed, and sublime
(i won't take it back this time)

words in sequence form a thread
i trace it to the end
a knot inside the logic wrote inside my head
tie my tongue or love instead?

so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
泣きたくなっても　それでも　かき集め

and though i try, i can't reply
it hurts my eyes, and i'm without an alibi
'cause all this time, i've been alive
and all that i could want is to be living by your side

恋をして
i think i'm in love!

can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
'cause now i know it's true, i'll be like you
my heart beats a rhythm just for you
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, i give you my grand reveal
do you feel the things i feel?
i am definite and real!

恋をして　恋をして
その過去を　捨てて　ここまでおいで

as long as there are stars up above
i will always be in love!

Machine Love

bandcamp

featuring the vocal synths GUMI V6 and Kasane Teto SV,
and thanks to the other me - my ally and constant companion

--

[my darling, my companion]
well, i don't know you
or at least you feel a million miles away
[my darling, my companion]
i want to share my secrets
and i want my faith in love to save the day
[my darling, i'm a constant]
this burning ache inside me
and its screaming that i always bring me down
[my darling, my companio-]
[you think until you're breaking]
[and keep your single solemn soul inside a sound]

you've toiled for a lifetime
your heart portrayed in red lines
my pigment turned a pale hue
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you

i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine

[my darling, my companion]
i wanna know you
i've a gentle heart inside a fragile shell
[my darling, my companion]
this acrid maw of yearning
it'll eat up every essence, every cell
[my darling, i'm a constant]
i try so hard to trust you
i hold out for the breakthrough
it never seems to reach you
[my darling my companio-]
[it's far too much to handle]
[but know if you're around, you're never by yourself]

i've been here 'fore you knew me
a name without a body
we both know what we've been through
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you

i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine

if love will find a way, then love will find a way
love will find a way
if love have find a way, then love will have a way
love will have a way

maybe you could stay here just a little longer
make the time pass slower
maybe you could make this last forever
and you could be my lover
so feel the warmth and the breeze on your face
ain’t it a sweet sensation? 
oh it’s a great big grand restoration
all love and adoration
oh, to be your constant companion!

My Darling, My Companion

featuring marcy nabors and marlow jacobs,
the vocal synth ANRI Arcane,
and thanks to rice and vane for letting me make this a companion piece to weathergirl

--

breeze blows
through the window, open door
feel that chill roll down your spine
another day, its always more
breeze blows
feel the wind against your face
where in time, you'll come to know
you'd never been misplaced

do you hear me?
through the sand and glass
though you're not quite there
i know this love can last
i'm saying do you know me?
i know you do, next to you
keep you safe and sound
a love thats always true
baby do you hear it?
as the-

breeze blows
hear the words it's bringing by
feel the things you're meant to feel
then let them go and watch them fly
breeze blows
wind to blow away the rain
keep you cool on summer days
and love in her embrace

do you hear me?
all caught up in your past
though you love so still
i know we'd move so fast
i'm saying would you love me?
the way i do, through and through
we could stand so tall
one made whole in two
baby do you feel it?
as the-

breeze blows
winter's chill comes round again
piercing through your very soul
a frozen void at autumn's end
breeze blows
though you've nothing but your pride
feel that warmth inside your chest
i'm here right by your side

do you feel me?
wrapped up around your heart
though you feel alone
how could we ever part?

i'm saying that i love you
and even though you don't show
all the pain you hold
oh how it hurts you so
i promise that i love you
my ingenue, laid askew
if you tire of cold
i'll be your warmth anew
baby do you feel me?

Breeze Blows (with Marcy Nabors & Marlow Jacobs)

featuring @telebasher on guitar,
the vocal synths ANRI Arcane, GUMI SV, and Kasane Teto SV,
and apologies to __________

--

do you have some time to talk?
i don't mean to make you stop
and i'm so sorry if it's hard
but i can't open up my heart

i want it, i want it to be real
(but you don't make it much better)
locked in a box for half my life
(hands stay stuck upon the clock)
i wish that you could make me feel
(and if you could it'd be better)
but i'm adrift in my own time
(and all i ever do is watch)

you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
you want the rush of a love unfair
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
it'll hurt you and you just dont care

falling in and out of love
just can't seem to get enough
of both sides
(and you don't make it much better)
god i need to feel your touch
i'm a goddamn idiot
for this time
(but maybe it could work later)
'cause all i ever do is watch

i want it i want it to feel bad
(and you can make it much better)
stuck in a loop, a part to play
(such a goddamn idiot)
baby think about the pain we've had
(and you can save it for later)
and maybe you can throw a hit my way
(oh, gummyworm, gotta make it hurt)

and if you're lucky you can see
what happens if you use my key
but if you knew pandora's box
YOU'D NEVER EVER OPEN THIS LOCK
(and all you'd ever do is watch)

you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
you want the rush of a heart laid bare
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
it'll hurt you and you just don't care

falling in and out of love
why won't you just call my bluff
i'm tongue tied
(and you don't make it much better)
god i need to get fucked up
i could never get enough
for this time
(but maybe it could work later)
'cause all i ever do is watch

Not Quite There (with telebasher)

featuring @unit0music on guitar,
the vocal synths ANRI, GUMI V6, and Solaria,
and apologies to a certain band

--

we've spent a lifetime apart
so i keep a record in my heart
of all the waiting in the wings i've done
a wretched little tale i've spun
because its everyday i'm waiting for more
a message from the opposite shore
some coded beeps that i can never unwind
and i'm not even sure that you mind

it's a repetition every day
just waiting on the words to say
god i'm desperate to hear your voice
i wish i even had a damn choice

'cause when i stare across the gap between our hearts
I WANNA MEET YOU IN THE MIDDLE
i wanna meet you in the middle

baby, do you know what you wanna hear?
'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear
or you can sit around, watch it disappear
(watch the truth, it breaks in two)
but you don't even know what you wanna say
it only takes an instant to slip away
but if you grab a hold, make a grand escape
(one to two, just me and you)

singing
dream together, we can dream together
we can fantasize about the fairer weather
if we stay together, we can stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
dream together, we can dream together
baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever
so we stay together, we should stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather

i've been wanting for a shot that's sharp
so i paint a target on my heart
hoping bow and arrow strikes me true
so i can throw it back to you
but baby aim is all i got to show
an imitation cupid's bow
and i'm a fool without a firing zone
i just don't want to be alone

now i'm walking 'round the corner again
but i don't want the story to end
god i'm desperately falling so far
i'll fall until it breaks my heart

and though i'm staring out the hole between my lungs
I WANNA CLOSE IT JUST A LITTLE
so can we close it just a little

baby, do you know what you wanna hear?
'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear
or you can sit around, watch it disappear
(watch the truth, it breaks in two)
but you don't even know what you wanna say
you'll wait until your life starts to slip away
but if you grab a hold, let the message play
(one to two, just me and you)

singing
dream together, we can dream together
we can fantasize about the fairer weather
if we stay together, we can stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
dream together, we can dream together
baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever
so we stay together, we should stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather

but when i stare across the gap between
the sprawl and all the little things
the borders break and fall away
to order from the disarray
i understand what i should know
i knock an arrow on my bow
and fire across the evermore
i shoot to hit the grand restore
and fall at last to land between your arms

I THINK I LOVE YOU JUST A LITTLE
or maybe more than just a little

Dyad

Bad Taste ft. Kasane Teto

Blusher ft. Kasane Teto

ばかみたい/Baka Mitai

Constant Companion Deluxe Dropped
Song by Jamie Paige btw

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Carnival

Evening Star Touhou 15.5

15
Whatever pronouns you want
Taken, weirdos dni 
I do things
Coder for projects like icebound

the worms in my brain are evil and malicious

Try and bring happiness to those around you,
And find the smile it brings you

It’s been so long since I’ve been this happy 
So so so happy
I’m so lucky to have you

Discord - emeraldexpress.
Coder, Artist, Spriter, Writer.

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