sad and lonely

i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed 
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess 
i'm sorry that i missed your call 
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show

music video

i'm sorry, i'm trying.

how you been/how you've been

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artwork: @sirbj
https://twitter.com/SirBJ
lyrics:
You took it nice and slow when you walked out the door
I won't be seeing that face no more (no more)
But it was just a dream, yeah so it seems
I got lost in what we used to be (be)

And I know that things change, we will go our separate ways
But you still call on me and I don't know what to say

CHORUS 
Well I don't wanna know "Yeah how you been?" 
But I don't wanna know just how you been
Well I don't wanna know "Yeah how you been?"
But I don't wanna know just how you been
Ohhhh
Everything we did yeah it didn't make sense
I was trying to get you out of my own head
Remember those times when we kept it low key
And it was all cool cause you didn't know me
On the verge of love pushing number 17
I was in my heart trying to make it for the queen
But those days seem so distant now

And I know that things change, we will go our separate ways
But you still call on me, and I don't know what to say

CHORUS X2

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How You/You've Been (prod. by CaRter)

I Will Be Okay

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Now You're Gone - Original (LISTEN TO DEBUT EP ‘DOCTOR’ ON SPOTIFY

Being So Normal

Hot Knifer

start//end

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you try to kill it but it wont stop bleeding
try to forget it but it wont stop killing you
youre running out of time
yeah you know you cant go back
its too late
to say its too late
you cant take back that you said nothing
how could you do nothing

is this burning right?
am i living bridges
can we build our past right?
learning through future solecism

its played out (ive missed times)
ive moved on (been disconnected) 
get fucked up (i stressed time)
my new draw (forgetting timing)
and its not right (and i need you to talk me down)
youre dead wrong
what are we doing (cos i feel like i need to crash)
lets go home
theres no hope
its all wrong

//cos i been looking at the sky to show me where i went wrong
//been looking at the sky like someone was looking down
//but it keeps raining on me
//and i been looking at the sky since i was like 5 years old
//been looking for the the stars but it seems like theyre all gone
//and the faults not ours alone
//but i think its time to go

its played out
ive moved on
get fucked up
my new draw
and its not right
youre dead wrong
what are we doing?
lets go home
theres no hope
its all wrong

and ive got way too many questions just to try and get it right
cos i cant be the one to shrug it off
and i could be the reason that we stay up all night to be someone
be someone
and oh all weve got is to try to get it right
but no one told you
that this gon hurt
oh no
and now all i really want is to scream

that shit just to try and find a way get my head down
and head out or maybe just the two of us
and head now 
im just trying to find the real now
dream clouds, ghost ground
real friends, dead home town

cos i been looking at the sky to show me where i went wrong
been looking at the sky like someone was looking down
but it keeps raining on me
when i been looking at the sky since i was like 5 years old
been looking for the the stars but it seems like theyre all gone
and it breaks my heart you know
but i think its time to go

//and its not right
//youre dead wrong
//what are we doing
//lets go home
//theres no hope
//its all wrong

start//end

idle

ghosts

bedside kites - a sad song about a girl i no longer know

Please never fall in love again by Ollie MN

cage

please nver fall in love

vertigo is out now: ftrbnd.co/vertigo

wings
4 of 13

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last night was a car crash
highlights meet a quick end
live the high life 'fore the week ends
coming down hard to the sunset sinking in

didnt try hard for a diehard
nothing i can say that you wont get wrong
and everybody asks where youre gone now
can you only really want
what you dont have enough?
everything you ever wanted adding up
to be the reason you cant stand it now
you talk a lot well act like it
finally found a way to get myself untangled

and undone but its alright
this aint been the dream in a long time
make sure you play the music when my times up
oh just say it im done

so if you loved me how was i supposed to know?
cos now were fading and losing what we wanted most
but in spite of how you feel its not the end of the world
some say these things are for the best
how are you so sure?

and you can find me where the sea pours into the stars
ill get there someday
i hope you find everything you think that you want
bruises will fade
time on our side we can wait for it
ill be doing fine if you are
cos life is but a dream
only as real as you let it be

so if you loved me how was i supposed to know?
and now were fading and losing what we wanted most
but in spite of how you feel its not the end of the world
some say these things are for the best
for better, or worse

vertigo

wings

Angela

Recorded and mixed by Summer Salt
Mastered by Charlie Ekhaus

Baby girl when was it that you had decided
You’d call it off and on 
You were just having fun 
With loving one last time
 
Still I’d catch you when the days through
At my side passing by
Wishin' someday you’d make up your mind
 
Alone alone again on valentine
 
Honey bee was it your buzzin’ I adored
You’ve stung me twice before
I kept coming back
Kept coming back for more
 
Always reminded
Of the days when
You were my
Cherry lime
Finding our own worlds getting lost
You and I
(Long gone an) old friend of mine
A blue moons on the rise
No one I'd rather have
Beside me tonight

One Last Time

vertigo is out now: ftrbnd.co/vertigo

forever//over
9 of 13

soundcloud is dead, long live soundcloud

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i met the devil in the hills last night
i was driving by myself, alone
he said boy what you running from?
i said i dont know

i dont know if it was a better time
but girl we were giants then
endless nights we were infinite
summers end would mean the death of us

but summer past
and we grew up
and all of our paths
they split up
and i havent seen your face or heard your voice in so long
so so long
we had a good run
its over now

lying on the grass talk is so old
living under orion we grew so bold
lying on our days we were outlaws
our loss but
catch me if you can
never wiped out
trying to catch a wave
trying to break out
i guess i didnt know

and now im gone
but it dont hurt me anymore
thats just the way it goes
yeah i shouldve known
but i heard you talking through the walls late last night
there are no ends just grays and half-lives
half time
its alright

that summer past
and we grew up
and all of our plans
they split us up
and i havent seen your face or heard your voice in so long
so so long
we had a good run
its over now

so please dont fade me out
so please dont lose me now

i heard the words that you never said
smoke screen from a cigarette
exhale we can never be whats in our heads
elevation doesnt matter now its straight ahead
sending shivers down my spine, life pirouettes
its cool, were used to losing real friends
only ever feeling it in retrospect
and we were really breathing not silhouettes
maybe in another dream this would never end

cos everything is not alright
and we are falling
but thats just life without some lows there is no highs
and everything will be ok
though we are all hurting
cos time flies fast and you know no pain is forever

ever

forever//over

Please Never Fall in Love Again

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Malibu Nights

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