next to me

August 2016. Written, recorded and performed by myself. x
She’s got a face laden with disgrace
She’s got a plan, but it involves a man
Who would’ve known it’d come to this?
A forest fire of a devil’s kiss
Who was blame in this awful town?
Just a girl who was already falling down
Man with the money blows the wind to sail
Empty vessels near to growing jails
Don’t try to change under this sun
Oh, it’s been tried and it’s not fun
Lost in this haze, where have these days gone?
Take me away, show me the way
Oh, I’m not that daft but I can’t see this mask of lies and deceit, is that what you want from me?
She turned around, didn’t make a sound
Something is near, and it filled her with fear
The only way out is to forget the past, holding on and she would never last
Don’t try to change under this sun
It’s been tried and it’s not fun x2
(And in your eyes, I see corners of the universe I know I’ve never seen before
And in your eyes, I see corners of the universe I know I’ll never see again).

sail

unseen moons

from the dark

This is a cover of 'Polly' by Dillard and Clark. I also took inspiration from Robert Plant's version. Hope you enjoy! x

polly - gene clark cover

You, you’re not like the others
But I don’t know why
They say you follow oceans
That lead to rivers in your mind
Can you feel it? X2
There’s something and it’s coming from deep inside
Like a lonely tide
Moving in sync with the stars
Wherever you are
You say it’s easier
To take the batteries out the clock
Time keeps on going
But in your head at least the ticking’s stopped
Can you feel it? x2
You’re not like you used to be
I thought you left me behind
Take what you want from me
‘Cause you left me blind
You’re not like you were before
You’re much worse, much worse
I thought you only came in one form
But this is new, a new you
You’re not like used to be, you’re not like you used to be
Now I’m not free
So, tell me, tell me, tell me so
Will you leave me alone?

alone

constellations

When all the answers lose their meaning
It’s hard to tell wrong from right
And all you know is what you’ve wished for
But even that’s not worth a fight
Take me away
Why can’t the world work in a new way?
Wealth drives hate
Can’t you see we need to change?
It’s as if you don’t see other humans
And all you see is empty shells
Vessels sailing towards your profits
You’ve stolen their anchors, silenced their bells
Take me away
Why can’t the world work in a new way?
Wealth drives hate
Can’t you see we need to change?
We need to change
If we could see through each other’s eyes 
We’d see the world in many ways
And cast shadows away
From each other’s gaze
Exposing new ways.

take me away

Lately I’ve been thinking like before
And I’ve found myself trapped behind a door
The evening light swims in from the moon
And I’m locked in from the inside of this tomb
So the one thing you could do for me
Is open it with your key
But I know you’ll be gone
As soon as winter’s come
The trees will soon be bare
Smothering the silent air
I wish those nights that quickly turned to day
Were much closer than just a distant haze
A carousel of empty future plans 
Carries you away from who I am
Still sometimes when I dream, I dream of you
And all the things we did and didn’t do
But now that winter’s come
And summer’s been and gone
To you I’m just a screen
In and out of your digital dreams

i know you'll be gone

There’s moonlight streaming in
I can feel it on my skin
Circulating through my heart 
The wonder of is and aren’t  
And I see you all the time
As your life flicks by online 
Behind the plastic and the glass
Writing tales of an unreal past

You’re just a stranger to me now
Embracing years of fading out 
I’ll dry the tears and try to sleep
And hope I sleep another week

There’s beauty in the way
The sky looked yesterday
When the cold is finally gone
I’ll run off to find the sun
Seeing pictures of those fields
But now the memories don’t feel real
Behind the blue grey of your eyes
You tend a garden full of lies

You’re just a stranger to me now
Embracing years of fading out
And when I try to go to bed
The images won’t leave my head
So, let me sleep another week  
Let me sleep another week
Let me sleep another week

another week

i love you - billie eilish cover

i've lost a part of me
to somewhere i can't see or feel
but when you come back home
i know that i'll forget these cycles of fear
london's still calling and the sky's still grey
i need you to call me and tell me that it's okay
16 degrees in the coldest of months
news still the same and people don't want to change
i feel like kind of stranger
walking around in my hometown 
without you it's kind of greyer
i need something to help it feel more real
you're right here on my screen
10 millimetres by 16 and silent
reduced to colour and light
is this how we try to survive in this culture of fear?
they want the country back on its feet
red blue white banners from city wall street, division
the world's still burning under our feet
your anger's misplaced so come on come see some truth
i feel a kind of stranger 
waling around in my hometown
divisions have made it greyer 
i wish i could make it seem more real
i feel like a kind of stranger
walking around in my hometown
without you it's kind of greyer 
i need something to help it feel more real

division streets

i know
i know the answers are not true
that's why you chose them
i know
i know there's something that you
have gone and hidden
oh i don't see an honest truth
another stranger
to a bleak world of our youth
just more distraction

and every night i find
i can't stop thinking about the way you lie
sometimes it's hard to feel like myself
when all around me turns to blue

some days
just lost in thought 500 miles away
i forget it all
late nights and hours talking through the rain
trying not to fall
oh i wish you could see it through my eyes
no point in hiding
endless weeks drawn out by denial
you gotta know

that every night i find
i can't stop thinking about the way you lie
sometimes it's hard to feel like myself x2

when all around me turns to blue

when all around me turns to blue

written on a cold night during the sheffield floods 2019  

i'm stuck in the shadows
the ones left by the stars
drawn in by the colours
forgotten who you are
i hope i see you soon
under the same moon
three hours and the speed of light
break the distance between us

hold me in your arms
tell me that you're there
they want me back at home
but i feel much better here

do you like the look of my shoes?
use this code, get them too
distractions in metal and glass
no closer to being with you

rain outside the window 
clouds inside the mind
can you sell me heaven?
i'll pay a good price

ooh what have i done to you?
left you out in the dark
but i don't know why, don't know how
time will heal
can time heal my failure?

this phone's not made for lonliness 
but it gives me my fair share
binary digits span the land
but i still can't hold your hand.

between us

winter sky
watching the world go by
it feels kinda new and then i remember you
and the nights spent waiting for you to pick up your phone
sharing pictures i don't feel quite as alone

and i've forgotten how you feel
dark nights in december
tell me when you're gonna try
help me to remember 

some days i feel there's a maze in my mind
i dream of the gardens we used to spend some time
and the nights that followed drinking stuff in your room
your eyes much brighter as they're lit by the moon

but i've forgotten how you feel
dark nights in december
tell me when you're gonna try
help me to remember

remember

begin and end

24-year-old musician and composer from Sheffield.

Emily Marks

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