produced by https://soundcloud.com/fkwt27 

lyrics:
I saw it coming 
was already running 
anticipated the heartbreak
that's why I make my legs shake 
I'm too afraid to take 
that blade to my wrists 
I don't want scars 
don't wanna remember this
starving myself cuz I can't eat 
anxiety it makes me weak 
I feel nausea I feel weak 
I don't wanna live like this 
why can't I just call it quits 
you and me are not the same 
I'll always just take the blame
fuck you for the words you say 
you make me feel guilty 
for living every day 
I'm sorry that I let you down 
I see it in your frown 
And I know you're never proud
I would leave this earth 
If I knew it wouldn't
hurt the ones around me 
suicide cross my mind 
but I downplay my issues 
and tell you i'm fine 

I'm fine really you don't have to worry about me, it okay I’ll be okay it’s fine

The saddest part is that I saw it coming 
this isn't new, this is nothing new to me 
I knew you'd tell me you love me 
and I knew you'd leave 
and I knew I would be here feeling empty 
still wondering why I'm not good enough 
to make anyone stick around long enough 
to get to know me
but it's okay I'm fine everything will be okay
I just need a little time

saw it coming (prod.fkwt)

pyrrhic - kiss (lil peep cover)

Figure it out

A GHOST WITHOUT A FRIEND [Prod. HXRXKILLER]

Thank you so much to @sadeku I love him and his music so much <3.

[gothurted]
trapped inside my mind
I'm not feeling fine
I'm not living life 
for sure, as I should
tears inside your smile
seen it a hundred times
even all those miles
I'm with you, and I will forever

[lil eky]
I'm not feeling fine
I've been on my own
everybody smiles
but I just really know
they just lie
they don't care alright
how can I cope
when I wanna die
how can I cope with my own life
I held by the strings a held by knife
to my own wrist or neck so I bleed
I can never live past the darkness ye
trees of fuckin misery dwelling up inside
I feel like I wanna die and I never am alright
she said she cared but she never ever there
just like the others their fuckin with my mind

[gothurted]
trapped inside my mind
I'm not feeling fine
I'm not living life 
for sure, as I should
tears inside your smile
seen it a hundred times
even all those miles
I'm with you, and I will forever

smile ft. lil eky [prod. Loopy!]

(prod. sketchymyname & kuroime)

Lyrics:
Ive been walking miles
Ive been doing time
Learning bout myself
Tryna socialize
I cant realize 
Look into my eyes

If you wanna kill me you can do it
Take your knife yeah, you can do it
I wont stop you, im letting go of the edge tonight

Walk down stairs and im falling now
Catch me quick im balling my eyes out

Were you gon
Why arent you here anymore
Why did you leave me on the flo-or
Crying and I dont know where to go-ho
One more time x3

i give up

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Serpentine

Serpentine [Prod. Collins]

This one was mostly just for fun and to try a style I haven't used before, I hope you enjoy!

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Jabarionthebeat Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m9FVs9DKZY

Lyrics:

Lie down wake up she putting on her make up
Late night stayed up hoping you wont wake up
Lights out stakes up dont wanna make you wait long
Clothes off moons out you never seem to stay long
Low cut top you knew what you were doing
So cut off acting like you never knew me
Broke my trust babygirl u got me fuming
Face like that guess it let's you be confusing
Choosy 
I don't understand why you so choosy
Face down not paying attention to the movie
Acting famous but you just barely a groupie
Confuse me

Choruse
I been flying real low
I been driving real slow
Lately you been so cold
Only see you when it snow x2

Showed up late you were chillin in your night dress
Backdoor unlocked baby whys it like that
Car out front I dont really recognize it
Just my luck that you would have a night guest
Tie me up think I'm losing control
Might end up lying pale against the door
Mind fucked up my vision starts to swirl
Babe get back I think I'm gonna hurl

Chorus

Snow (Prod. Jabarionthebeat X Tokiowahl X Kimpe)

Sad Boy Nefelibata:

[VERSE 1]

i can feel the cold air on my face
i go numb as you walk away,

snow falls down and covers the street,
shimmering beautiful catastrophe

feel the aura surround my skin
i let it sink in

tear my chest open i cant breathe,
i guess now i know you dont love me

////////

[CHORUS]

ya things been fuzzy in my head again
I sip and let it in

i been stuck thinking about you a lot
still cant change, youre gone

ya things been getting cold at night ive been
tasting her moonlit skin

eyes go dark as sunshine breaks to dawn
still cant change that youre gone

////////

[VERSE 2]

packet of cigs and a bottle of gin 
i can tell we’ve changed again

faded alone ya it feels like the end,
she cant love an emotional wreck

////////

[CHORUS]

////////

[BRIDGE]

why does everything happen so fast i been 
stuck in the void looking back through the glass

i cant fall asleep and demons always surrounding me
ya ive been so fucked up lately

////////

[CHORUS]

(still cant change, that youre gone)

melancholy child

Video: https://youtu.be/NO4V1Q39VEE

Broken Frost
Broken Frost
Broken Frost
Broken Frost

I tried, 
I tried to save you 
(But I failed)
I tried, I tried
I tried to save you..
(But I failed)
 
I see, that you struggled to sleep
I feel, all confusion in dreams
So lost, in the world that you see
I'm so lost..

Never happened to me
Holding at seams
It's all in my mind again
The pain that I see
I won't forget the way you looked at me
Hurt inside, fuck the life we live
Fuck the life we live

Last message left unread
Broken frost is left unsaid
Never left you from my head
Never left you from my head

Broken frost
I'll hold my tongue 
I can't forgive in you now..
For what you've done

Pushed too far away now
Too late to be saved now
I wish I could've seen you one last time.
One last time.

Broken Frost
Broken Frost
Broken Frost
Broken Frost

I tried, 
I tried to save you 
(But I failed)
I tried, I tried
I tried to save you..
(But I failed)

broken [prod. Wraith Nîr]

emjaay

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