lyrics~

I think I am better off dead
Do or die don’t live life with regret
In the night until the moon sets
It was there when there was no one left
I am one with my darkness
I’m so cold I can see my breath
I don’t know where my hearts been
I always feel so fuckin depressed 

I think everyone likes to leave me 
To see me on the floor bleeding
I got some problems that they aren’t believing 
Until another cut they are seeing 
Got so much rage that I keep in me
Don’t let it stop this is part of the sequence
No one can judge me cuz you cannot be me
I’m my own god, in the end I will be free

Tell me how to maintain
Stuck in my damn brain
Stuck in my damn pain 
Better days seem, to stay so far away
I’ve gotta try so hard, to stop me from fuckin departing 

I think I am better off dead
Do or die don’t live life with regret
In the night until the moon sets
It was there when there was no one left
I am one with my darkness
I’m so cold I can see my breath
I don’t know where my hearts been
I always feel so fuckin depressed 

Minds burning like the holes in my chest
I do what feels right, till nothings left
When my times up, will it all be fuckin spent
Cuz every day I’m trying my best
Like Ken I’m muh fuckin hellbent
I’m no Angel imma demon
My whole life I have been different 
This void I must fuckin embrace it

Void (prod. Puhf)

The Ruin

prod : https://soundcloud.com/blackdeku
mixed by : https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi

Lyrics

And his lifes in a loop and he fucking hates it
Everyday he wants to wakes to he wants change it
Stuck in the same everything everyday
He looks in the mirror and sees only pain
His wrists and bleeding his face drained
His lifes been feeling like someones games
He feels abused and he feels used
And now theres bloodstains on the couch stains
His eyes are full of rain
I’m going to die today
He whispers then croaks then gargles the rest
Everything slowly turns a shade of red
He feels at peace then his mind goes blank
But then we wakes up, another day of the damned

misery (prod. blackdeku)

REJECT!
MUCH LOVE TO EVERYONE WHO CAME ON
Feat. [ @erisu-san ]
Prod. [ @sketchmyname ]
Lyrics:
[FRVR]
Lonely in the day im a reject
When it comes to night im a vampire
Smoke on this joint get higher
Bitch i aint ever retiring

Imma shoot my shot bitch im firing
Being stuck here is so tiring

Every night i feel like im dying
I cant fucking stop
I cant fucking stop

Lying to myself
I sold my soul o well

Your kiss is so passionate 
It burns me 
It burns me

Your kiss is so passionate 
It burns me 

But i love it

Lonely in the day im a reject
When it comes to night im a vampire
Smoke on this joint get higher
Bitch i aint ever retiring

Imma shoot my shot bitch im firing
Being stuck here is so tiring

Every night i feel like im dying
I cant fucking stop
I cant fucking stop

[ERISU]
Severed hearts,
Come apart
I won’t stop till you’re mine
Like frvr im a vampire in the moonlight 

It’s in her eyes, hypnotized, why won’t you come alive?
Breathing down my neck the answer lie within your bite
Red on white, Bloody fights, that’s what I fantasize 
Paralyzed, fear inside, you know that you are mine

[FRVR]
Lonely in the day im a reject
When it comes to night im a vampire
Smoke on this joint get higher
Bitch i aint ever retiring

Imma shoot my shot bitch im firing
Being stuck here is so tiring

Every night i feel like im dying
I cant fucking stop
I cant fucking stop

SPOTIFY

REJECT - FRVR X ERISU

Thicker Than Water

downtown girls

downtown girls (slowed+reverb)

Take me to a wonderland
Keep me from falling into hell
Save me from myself again
Lately I've been giving in

Taking all of these pills again
Doctor tells me its illusions, they're all in my head
Something tells me the walls are slowly caving in
Vivid memories of a time where I would love this end

Slowly making paths
Dark halls lead to bright lands
Chained to beings in
Voided memories
 
Calls to 
All of the people that doubted me now
Yours true
emjaay is back and he's making it loud
Your fault?
Bitch I would place all the blame on myself 
I know
That I wouldn't make it without all this crowd

Sitting awake
Flashes of all of the takes
Dreams that don't fade
Won't go away
Won't go away

Stay in my lane
Myself that I pray
The future I wanted
With effort is made
With effort is made
Don't want it fade
Want it fade

Was a slap to the face
Put me back, put me back to the place
That I feared most
That I tried most
To stay away from, 
And you know its true 

Always stayed awake
Till the sunlight breaks
4:00am turned work to sleep
broke the chains I'm free
Wish it called to me
A void so empty
As I see I'm falling

I can feel it fall away
I can feel it fall away
Can it get out of the way
I can feel another day
I can feel another day
Going to waste
Let a dream fly away
Young jaay seal your fate
Think its time to face
Challenges made
Make it a pace
Make it to wonderland

Make it to wonderland
Make it to wonderland

Take me to a wonderland
Keep me from falling into hell
Save me from myself again
Lately I've been giving in

Wonderland [prod. smokerose]

Let Down
Call me a let down
Call me a let down
Call me a let down
Call me a let down

Call me a let down
Break out of the safe house
Inhale all the fallout
Rain 
From the dark clouds
Look up to see hell, now

Calling me a let down
You'd think that I know by now.

So
Get me the fuck away
Follow me to my grave
Suffering, seal my fate
Until it's too late

Coughing up blood
As my lungs fall apart from the 
Drugs that I used to take
Masked the pain

Shit used to keep me sane
Ruined my friends and my family
So fuck it, follow me.

Hope somebody shows me
That more to see in life
I've been lost inside this dream for too long
I don't wanna show
All my vulnerabilities
All of it falling on me
I see it closing on me
Cause I feel like a

Let Down
Call me a let down
Call me a let down
Call me a let down
Call me a let down

Look back, choices I regret now
Fix the mind with a white pill
Temporarily stable
For a moment I'm able
Knew it wasn't forever 
Hurts more when you see it
Fall to pieces to feel something
Call me a let down

Let down [prod. CapsCtrl]

What is real?
What you feel?
What you see?
Do you think,
About your past
And where you've been?

Visualize
The broken times
In your sleep
Call it back
To broken nights
Inside your dreams

Cause I've thinking a lot
Regretting the choices that broke all the trust around me
Snapping pencils in class
The sadness and anger was pushing the absent cracked seams
Want the living to last
Feel it get harder, my soul drifting further from me
Want this nightmare to end
Feel like I'm fine till I'm sitting alone with the trees

Burn in the breeze
While you're staring at me
Watch as the world comes down
Crashing on me

Suffocating the life from me
Scattered ashes in seas
Because I'll fucking leave my mark before I fall away
Causing things that you feel
And it carries the pain
In all the things that I'm saying
This is my effigy

(This is my effigy)

Encapsulate the memories
Twisted thoughts, use them as you experiments
Never really thought of trauma that's impairing me
Looking back, never thought of all the mental things

It's getting cold you say
Glow on your face as I fall away
Wake with a smile and it fades away
Photos of pasts seem to call to me
Call to me

Calling to something
In past was in love in
The music's emotion
Breaks over this ocean  
The pains in this life
Seem to take over night
Broken thoughts in the mind
Of the helpless tonight

I think the future is something you seal
I think a calling is something you feel
I think the pain is a lash that you heal
Alone in the trees, all these voices I hear
As I burn

Burn in the breeze
While you're staring at me
Watch as the world comes down
Crashing on me

Suffocating the life from me
Scattered ashes in seas
Because I'll fucking leave my mark before I fall away
Causing things that you feel
And it carries the pain
In all the things that I'm saying
This is my effigy

Alone in the trees [prod. APT.102]

Caught
In silence
I fought,
Doesn't feel right

My mind
Conviced myself it's all for you
But I tried
And it always fell through

I feel it 
It's coming
The end is slowly nearing
What takes me
Myself or
The things that I hold close

Hit another low again
It's a cycle that I never miss
Reversed love like a devils kiss

Eyes are locking on the ceiling
Contenplate like a teen kid
"I can't feel shit"

But what are you supposed to do?
Wrapped with thoughts nobody sees through
What I am I supposed to know?
Am I missing something, can you let it show?

As I feel it closing in
I'm losing it again

When the fuck is the right time?
Holding for hope that I'll be right
Lost alone in the night times
I'm Caught in
I'm Caught in

Caught
In silence
I fought,
Doesn't feel right

My mind
Conviced myself it's all for you
But I tried
And it always fell through

Caught in silence [prod. Wraith Nîr]

emjaay

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