Big love to:  https://soundcloud.com/akacarpenter
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

Castle in the Sky

Sapphire Tears

Butterfly

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

prod. Vaegud

LYRICS
get high oh my
i really like it when i
get high oh my
i really like it when i
get high oh my
i really like it when i

i really like it when i’m soaring,
soaring through the sky
in a foreign
foreign when i ride
get me tourin'
tourin' through the night
shit it’s pouring
pouring on my vibe

and it's been a while
for me since i went
yet another mile
call me any day
sitting in denial
on my knees as i pray
i don't need anything
i just need you again

i hold on
i lay low
the only way that i know how
i hold on
i lay low
the world is slowly pulling me down

so i get high oh my
i really like it when i
get high oh my
i really like it when i
get high oh my
i really like it when i
i really like it when i’m soaring

i really like it when i'm soaring
i really like it when i'm soaring, yeah yeah

i really like it when i’m soaring,
soaring through the sky
in a foreign
foreign when i ride
get me tourin'
tourin' through the night
shit it’s pouring
pouring on my vibe

and it's been a while
for me since i went
yet another mile
call me any day
sitting in denial
on my knees as i pray
i don't need anything
i just need you again

i hold on
i lay low
the only way that i know how
i hold on
i lay low
the world is slowly pulling me down

so i get high oh my
i really like it when i
get high oh my
i really like it when i
get high oh my
i really like it when i
i really like it when i’m soaring

Soaring (prod. Vaegud)

s0cliche x Ethan Ross - "Miles Away" (prod. Drunk Girl)

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

Ride or Die

Darth Rose:
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Twitter - twitter.com/DarthRose3
My Discord - darthrose
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Producer :
youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@lilportal
Insta - https://www.instagram.com/prod.lilportal/

cover art:
Insta - https://www.instagram.com/venusminui/

Lyrics :
I feel like I'm falling apart
my homie mixing codeine with sprite now
is this another night of getting fucked up 
please save me now
 
yeah

but my friend keep on hittin your dm
like he next in line
wish you gave me more time yeah
its not worth it in the end 
I will save myself 
you're not worth the pain
 
was it worth all the time 
and all the money I spent  
all the feelings inside I kept deep within
I just don't know If I could relive this shit over again  
but I guess Its better this way
 
I hope that he will buy you what I couldn't affoard 
and I hope he treats better then I could I guess
but my mind is a dark place I thought I could escape
with you by my side everything felt okay

It's bold of me to think you could change 
putting poison in my veins I hope it all goes away
I hope It goes down the drain 
like all the feelings I ever had for you
oh yeah yeah yeah

inside my mind, it's like I'm frozen in time 
and I can't seem to feel a thing 
(bitch I can't feel a thing)
I guess I'm fine doing line after line
will my mind be alright
guess Ill sleep on this shit again

but my friend keep on hittin your dm
like he next in line
wish you gave me more time yeah
its not worth it in the end 
I will save myself 
you're not worth the pain

I hope that he will buy you what I couldn't affoard 
and I hope he treats better then I could I guess
but my mind is a dark place I thought I could escape
with you by my side everything felt okay

It's bold of me to think you could change 
putting poison in my veins I hope it all goes away
I hope It goes down the drain 
like all the feelings I ever had for you
oh yeah yeah yeah

Save Me [prod.lilportal]

Blank face staring back thru the mirror
Wish I knew where to find another picture
Cold frost lurks through the other window
Damn, I'll never understand how to end up

Try to crash memories but they're all gone
Try to live through the pain but im so lost
Say I cant come back, but ive come up?
What ya say, what ya say, what ya say now?

TAKE MY SOUL
TAKE MY ALL,
TAKE MY ALL, NOW
TIME TO FALL
NOTHER GHOST
IN MY OWN HOUSE

BROKEN MENTAL, IN THE ZONE
IN MY SAFE SPACE -
TRANSFORM, CODE NEVER LEFT ME
NOTHA TASTE FROM THE ORG TRYNA PLACE ME
TIME I GET A FORWARD ON MY OWN PACE

STAY ALONE, ALL THE TIME
DOES IT HELP ME?
FORGOT WHATS ITS LIKE
TO FEEL AGAIN.
TO FEEL AGAIN.
UGH, EY

Blank face staring back thru the mirror
Wish I knew where to find another picture
Cold frost lurks through the other window
Damn, I'll never understand how to end up

Try to crash memories but they're all gone
Try to live through the pain but im so lost
Say I cant come back, but ive come up?
What ya say, what ya say, what ya say now?

I've dug through my pockets, and come up empty...

IDLEGLANCE

I've dug through my pockets, and come up empty... [prod. purc]

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

You say I'm to blame now for all of our problems
 According to you I'm just evil in disguise
Tears in the rain, I got a mind full of sorrow 
Loving is pain
 I gave you my trust
my everything wasn't enough
still high off your drugs
a blurry frame of who I was
a dangerous lust
you're poisonous down to the touch 
Now I'm fading to a ghost, and I'm to blame 

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

I've been losing touch with the old you
If we keep losing trust it'll happen again
Better off alone in the bad news
Only time will heal the wounds

Started caving in
And i'm admitting it now
Distant memories are haunting more than doubt
Will it be enough 
All While you're rotting in my head
Like a plague of our regret
Hope I'm the same

lost in your pretty eyes
Don't chase tears waiting on me
Wasting life away
Always because of you
The chains are getting loose

My smile is coming down 
I wanna love you now
Begging to see the sun 
Take me for another round
I need her warm embrace
Before I meet the horizon 
I know only time will heal the wounds

I've dug through my pockets, and come up empty... [prod. purc]

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