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Seeking refuge in the rain
Melt me down, I feel the pain
And you're calling me insane
I question everything
Is this even real?
Am I really okay?

I can't understand how you feel
I can't understand how I feel
Everything around feels surreal
Everything around me is sealed

Pen to the paper I'm writing
All of the words that I never got out
Hooked at the mouth
Wasted, just sitting around 
I realize this now

Call it a foul
Screaming "I'm lost" till I'm found
Empty echos are rattling the crowd
Empty eyes as I fall to the ground
No one around to save me
Is this really a "fate" thing
Born to this world with the same creed
Get me out
Get me out
No one around to save me

Can someone please
Explain to me
How it's really meant to be
Can someone please
Explain to me
How it's really meant to be

Can't get away from me
Cycling endlessly
Swirling with memories
How would I change
People surrounding me
Thinking the best of me
Put up a front
Cause It's not for your hate

Silently judging me
Never could follow me
Say I can run but I'm losing the chase
Say I'm a waste
Closing the case
Cause I am seeking

Seeking refuge in the rain
Melt me down, I feel the pain
And you're calling me insane
I question everything
Is this even real?
Am I really okay?

But I'll try, I'll try, I'll try
To face my fears again
But I'll try, I'll try, I'll try
To face it all again

refuge in the rain [prod. smokerose]

give a big kiss to: https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

cus i know im a fuck up
cast me aside when you don't want help
i know i can be to 
much but its fine

well take shift in the morning
always watching out for suicidal friends
you said call me up 
anytime you know i'm here

my heart breaks far to often
i'm sick of watching everyone just fade out
stuck on the pills
till i no longer recognize

your best friend who is calling
they're trying to figure out if you're just alright
we both know that
i'm not so i'll just stay inside

-RipThePetals

Hit me up when you hear this

You know the things inside my head
You know that I wish I were dead
But you know how to keep my going

I know that I’m going when the blood flow slow
Your scared and alone
You tightened your tongue, your tongue, your tongue (you can put down the gun)

You know that I’m done (know that I’m done)
I’m in love with the one (in love with the one)
I can put down the gun, the gun, the gun (the gun the gun)

--

am i really that awful
am i so disgusting that you just left
can you explain
your one who makes me hate myself

did you get what you wanted
have you no use for someone who is empty
you take apart
the shell of the person you said you love

Day Shift Ft. RipThePetals

Check Out HeyLee Manzeron:
Soundcloud: @heylee-manzeron
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0U57BGCHuZ2SMW5iK2t0dM?si=hbc97B2PSRqoYuZVM4RrYg
Beatstars: https://www.beatstars.com/heyleemanzeron
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKhCeJiIRvbTMtQMlnzCwkQ
Insta: https://www.instagram.com/heyleemanzeron/
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TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@heyleemanzeron

Artwork by Fall:
Insta: https://www.instagram.com/_fxllen.stxrs_/

Cover Art Designed by:
Soundcloud: @devilboyxo
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/0u9B7tJYm…EN0zb5pfK3g&nd=1
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UC1r8soprLjOPmurl2D_NdFw
Twitter: twitter.com/devilboyxo
Instagram: www.instagram.com/devilboyxo/

Check Out the Producer:
Beatstars: https://wxrst.beatstars.com/
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@wxrst1
Insta: https://www.instagram.com/wxrst.beats/

Lyrics:
------------------------------------
(Robstar)
I fell asleep with the lights on
I can't breathe when I'm this deep in the fog
Choking in my sleep with my ice on
She want me to leave but I was already gone
She told me be a little bit clearer
So I took a pill and I wrote this song
The feeling of apathy is nearer
But I couldn't care not to care at all

I cultivate my sins
I make them what you wish
I carve my body to pieces
Endless as bread and fish
Feed me to your hungry
Rip apart my flesh
Use my bones for your undead throne
While parading in my skin

(HeyLee Manzeron)
You told me not to worry about you, but I haven’t given a shit in so damn long
You tried to isolate me from my friends, while you sleep with yours so its hard to be strong
I remember when you held me hostage, you said you’d kill yourself and it would be my fault
I remember when I said I was struggling, you said you didn’t care, fuck you’re so damn cold

And this getting old, but I will never fold to your will and your manipulative games
I thought I knew you well, and in my arms I’d hold you, but all the love just seems to fade away

Through all the tears I’ve cried, and all the drawn out lies
You really took your time to let your darkness show
I hear the echoed chimes of all the hurt inside
Self inflicted scars that only seem to grow

Now I’m a fallen shell
Way too many faults to tell
My soul is gone, it’s dark, you see?
Wrapped up in my apathy

Apathy

HeyLee Manzeron

HeyLee Manzeron x Robstar - Apathy [Prod. WXRST]

Prod by: @quiteevil

Robstar: @robstar100

Lyrics:

(SCAR$)
(Verse 1)
Do you remember last fall?
Cause I don't
Remember anything at all
Anythin'
Anythin' but your last fucking call

Waking me up in the middle of the night
Screaming at the top of your lungs that you wanna fucking die
And I'm
Gonna buy
A gun for you to say one more final goodbye
Not a single angel would ever cry

(Robstar)
(chorus)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

But I don't mind if you waste my time
Up at 2 am with some other guy
You text that you miss me but that's a lie
I kinda liked how you'd twist that knife

(Robstar & SCAR$)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

(SCAR$)
(Verse 2)
Used to hope that you would miss me, but not at this time
You and all my flaws seemed to intertwine
Now the only one you kiss is a bottle of wine
So you're callin' up my line, but I shrug and decline

(Bridge)
And as my world was fallin' to pieces
You gave me
No reasons
To stay
So that I would walk away

(Robstar)
(chorus)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

But I don't mind if you waste my time
Up at 2 am with some other guy
You text that you miss me but that's a lie
I kinda liked how you'd twist that knife

(Robstar)
Do you remember last fall
Cause I don't
I don't remember a single thing at all
I'd hope
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I'd hope
I hope

(SCAR$)
(Outro)
Do you remember last fall
I don't remember a single thing at all
To disappear
It's the last thing I recall
I hope

Last Fall

Last Fall (ft. Robstar)

🖤

Lyrics:

I wanna take a drive when it’s midnight 
Crack the windows feel the breeze cause it feels nice
Dissociating when im at a stop light 
Blasting sad songs that makes me wanna swerve right 
I wanna take a drive when it’s midnight 
Crack the windows feel the breeze cause it feels nice
Dissociating when im at a stop light 
Blasting sad songs that makes me wanna swerve right 

I’m trying 
I’m doing what I can but I’m dying
Never thought that this would end now I’m crying 
Overthinking in my head my minds frying
But im alright 
Getting lost in the void of these dark skies
Stars in the sky look just like your eyes
Maybe I should turn off my headlights
Hundred on the dash with nothing in sight 
You get what I implied
But honestly I really don’t wanna die 
Life force is leaking feeling so dry 
Nothing going to stop me still gonna try
I’m still gonna try
Still gonna try
I’m still gonna try 
Still gonna try

I wanna take a drive when it’s midnight 
Crack the windows feel the breeze cause it feels nice
Dissociating when im at a stop light 
Blasting sad songs that makes me wanna swerve right 
I wanna take a drive when it’s midnight 
Crack the windows feel the breeze cause it feels nice
Dissociating when im at a stop light 
Blasting sad songs that makes me wanna swerve right

midnight drive (4thirty)

Prod. @nate2timezz

😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈

Lyrics: 
Holy shit
Im off the drugs in a whip
Yeah she wanna suck me quick
Say i love you to my dick
Uh

Drown myself out bitch
With the pussy 
And the drugs
And the noise
Knock myself out


I been cursed 
With the knowledge 
Of this earth
What do you see
Im the worst
I might self destruct bitch 
Put me in a hearse

Holy shit
Im off the drugs in a whip
Yeah she wanna suck me quick
Say i love you to my dick
Uh

Drown myself out bitch
With the pussy 
And the drugs
And the noise
Knock myself out


I been cursed 
With the knowledge 
Of this earth
What do you see
Im the worst
I might self destruct bitch 
Put me in a hearse


I dont know what i been goin through its always in my head
X4

I dont know what i been goin through its always in my head
Yeah im bleedin fuckin red
Too much in my nose again
Vampire throat bled
Sapphire tears shed
She takin off her clothes
Im waiting to be dead again


I like to fuck these thots alot
But they always fuck me up yuh
I like to fuck these thots alot
Before they fuck me up yuh

I dont wanna ever stop
Heartbroke so i cover it with commas
I cover up the pain a lot
Off the blow, so im cold to the drama


Holy shit
Im off the drugs in a whip
Yeah she wanna suck me quick
Say i love you to my dick
Uh

Drown myself out bitch
With the pussy 
And the drugs
And the noise
Knock myself out


I been cursed 
With the knowledge 
Of this earth
What do you see
Im the worst
I might self destruct bitch 
Put me in a hearse

Holy shit
Im off the drugs in a whip
Yeah she wanna suck me quick
Say i love you to my dick
Uh

Drown myself out bitch
With the pussy 
And the drugs
And the noise
Knock myself out


I been cursed 
With the knowledge 
Of this earth
What do you see
Im the worst
I might self destruct bitch 
Put me in a hearse

On all platforms

IT'S ALWAYS IN MY HEAD (prod. nate2timez)

Prod. @r3dqx

another single off my upcoming album ;) hope you all enjoy <333

Lyrics:
I don’t wanna be alone
But there’s no place to go
So these drugs are my only friend
Can you see inside of my soul
There’s a hole that keeps growing 
At the bottom of this bottle 

where my pain is showing
Watching as they goin
In my thoughts, overdosing
Fuck all this commotion
I get self destructive 
it’s a problem and I know it
Losing grip I’m holding onto
Something in the moment 

I push everyone away and I’m fine with it
She said she can see the fucking lies in it
No you don’t get it
It was my choice from all the scars that have been imbedded 

In my head it’s 
A forgotten message
In my head it’s
All the scars i'm shedding 

I don’t wanna be alone
But there’s no place to go
So these drugs are my only friend
Can you see inside of my soul
There’s a hole that keeps growing 
At the bottom of this bottle 

where my pain is showing
Watching as they goin
In my thoughts, overdosing
Fuck all this commotion
I get self destructive 
it’s a problem and I know it
Losing grip I’m holding onto
Something in the moment

STREAM EVERYWHERE

Forgotten Message (Prod. R3DQX & 5head)

TODAY feat. Unkwxn.

Lyrics:

(Dank)
Just another mistake 
Now im stuck in the blues 
Poisoned by a snake
Her fuckin love was such a ruse 

Needa wake up call
Or else im gonna go insane 
shouldnt care at all
But I cant get rid of this pain oh

After all the running thoughts 
I think i needa break
Cant afford to stay in place 
Greatness is what i wanna make 

Burning like a firestorm 
My heart is up in flames 
I will no longer take part
In all these fuckin games 

Shot down
Got up
Guess what
Ion give a fuck
Haters on my back 
And ima leave em in the fuckin dust

Tellin me about him
Sayin i cannot compare  
You keep tellin me abt him
Bby idfc 

Now im on my quest
Rly fightin for my life 
Turned into a man possessed 
Never gonna say it twice 

Tellin me  about him
Sayin i cannot campare 
You keep tellin me abt him
Bby idfc 

(frvr&alwys)
idfc anymore 
you were never there when i needed you 
girl i plea to you 
now you give off bad vibes 
and Im readin through 
all your lies 

you dont mind 
so i dont mind 
ill go cold 
ill freeze to ice 
sleep alone 
and bleed on these white lines 

ill see you off in the nighttime 
my dear 
i dont care who youll see 
ima make that clear 
you were never a lifeline 
for my fears 
and my heart will be set free 

(Dank) 
Yeah this shit gets hard 
But ion know what to say
Got these voices in my head 
Got these demons in my brain 

Tellin me you love me
I dont play these games you play
Tellin me who love 
Bitch you gotta stay away oooooh

Shot down
Got up
Guess what
Ion give a fuck
Haters on my back 
And ima leave em in the fuckin dust

Tellin me about him
Sayin i cannot compare  
You keep tellin me abt him
Bby idfc 

Now im on my quest
Rly fightin for my life 
Turned into a man possessed 
Never gonna say it twice 

Tellin me  about him
Sayin i cannot campare 
You keep tellin me abt him
Bby idfc

IDFC (Ft.frvr&alwys){Quaffer}

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

show some love!

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

Lyrics:
(cyzun)
I need you, you don’t want me 
I see you, you could haunt me x2

I feel so alone 
I don’t have a home
Give me something to believe in
Just a little hope 
I know I’m a joke 
I hate myself the most
I’m a fucking waste of space I need to fucking go

(I need to fucking go
I need to fucking go)


Take me, break me
Do whatever you want with my soul x2

I can’t seem to escape it at all
Take my heart and rip it apart 
Leave my body to rest in the dark
Leave my body to rest in the dark

(unknxwn.)
You were all I ever needed and more
All I ever wanted was to be yours
But you stepped away and walked out the door
Will my heart ever heal up from the scourge?

Making me out as the bad guy
I can make sure that this lie is your last time
Fucked up so much in my last life
All of this pain gone this life my last try

Why in the fuck I exist
I never knew and I don't give a shit
I'll never know where the love and the hope and the courage to cope without sedatives went

Take me
Break me
I know everyone is just gonna fold
Lately
Hate be
Taking over most of my fucking soul

(cyzun)
Take me, break me
Do whatever you want with my soul 
Do whatever you want with my soul x4

refuge in the rain [prod. smokerose]

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