SELF SABOTAGE

(rough).jp (Emma Aibara + shxrda)

+ ever again +

neo organic bioform

run away (prod 1hurt)

This is another project, what was sitting for 3 years in my archive and now I finally finsished it.
Also out on my Youtube Channel and will be available on every other Music Streaming Service on Friday Nov.21st 2025 and the Music Libraries of TikTok, Instagram, Snapchat and Facebook.

Illusion

Streaming Option

Ein zerstörtes System.
Ein brennender Herzschlag.
Digitale Splitter, Stahlrisse, flackerndes Licht.

BRUCHSYSTEM.exe ist ein glitchendes Zersägen von Macht – kalt, industriell, emotional und kompromisslos ProDMusicKI.
Ein Lied wie ein Einsturz:
abgehackt, verzerrt, voller Druck, voller Wahrheit.

BRUCHSYSTEM.exe

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Anything to Gain/Nothing to Lose - 4:14
prod. Blacklight
lyrics/vox. PK Shellboy
mix/master. PK Shellboy

[Verse 1]
Questioning, I'm jeopardized
Had to ask the devil why
Bring me down from heaven's sky
This might be a blessing in disguise
I intensify
Making my repression die
Don't care if I'm dead, alive
Rebound my depression to a high
Let me emphasize
I've been feeling petrified
Everything that's said tonight
I'll probably regret and reconcile
I'm desensitized
Every day just getting by
I can't even recognize
Maybe armageddon's nigh 

[Chorus]
This might be the hardest
Thing for me to harness
I gotta be honest
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
I don’t have anyone to turn to
I never deserved you
Don't wanna concern you
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
Yeah I know that
This might be the hardest
Thing for me to harness
I gotta be honest
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain
I don’t have anyone to turn to
I never deserved you
Don't wanna concern you
I don't have anything to gain
Anything to gain 

[Verse 2]
We're not destined to be what we wanted to be
Maybe we're doomed to be common, not free
Stop me from bending and taking a knee
Don't go with my plea bring the ending to me
Remember the times when we wanted to die
The times where our plans failed and things went awry
The months after August and weeks in July
No I wouldn't lie should I say goodbye 

[Verse 3]
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Yeah I got the whole crew but I'm still feeling blue
I got red in my eyes, I got green in my food, but the world's staying grey in my view what to do
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Mother says it's been years since I've sat in a pew
Yeah it's true but just being in church made me puke
What's the point of a god if he's not sending clues
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Never calling a truce I keep paying my dues
No I don't give a fuck if my shit's misconstrued
Don't care 'bout your insults and verbal abuse
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
I'm not keeping my cool got no time for you fools
Might come off as crude or just blowing my fuse
But you fucks can't accuse me of not being true
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Do this shit for myself in my head got the proof
Perhaps satisfaction will always elude me 
But so help me god I'll still see this shit through
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
In my head I got trouble I'm hearing it brew
Soul leaving my body the void still consumes
Me and fuck I don't know if I'm right to assume
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
I'm not kicking the chair I'm not getting the noose
Got more shit to do I've got more shit to do
Got people who need me I can't meet my doom
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Save the liquor and booze and my knees that were bruised
Don't wanna be yet one more dead on the news
’Cause those deaths come in twos, even more it's the truth
Nothing to lose I got nothing to lose
Save the liquor and booze and my knees that were bruised
Don't wanna be yet one more dead on the news
‘Cause those deaths come in twos, even more it's the truth

(rough).jp (Emma Aibara + shxrda)

Emma Aibara

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