estrogen and the doldrums (demo)

tracey brakes - leansharks

@scrobaby

Lyrics:

what it really takes
im on my own im on my own now
i dont like the way
it feels like im part of the breakdown

and you let go of the wheel
tryna find yourself in the crash won’t heal you 
but i dont have a stake in this
you could throw it away but it comes back to you
and where could my intrusive thoughts be going to?
you could throw it away but it comes back to you
and where could my intrusive thoughts be going

bad at explaining cause i care bout your reactions
wherever this flower blooms i guess I’ll have to
and all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure

im on my own im on my own now
it feels like im part of the breakdown

and all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more 
kaleidoscope
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
(if what i want's not what i need then how do i explain these dreams)
all my wants are found somewhere in closure 
i just want to find some more composure
(on my way down)
(if what i want's not what i need then how do i explain these dreams)

Jedwill, Scro - Kaleidoscope

ain't nobody... 🎵
produced & mixed by me
art by victoria vincent (@vewn_)

Hate Shaliek - Ain't Nobody

grrrr x3

featuring:
@saoirsedream
@prodmusa
@can-of-bliss

produced by:
@can-of-bliss
@musicbyrift

TENSIONNN

Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect

Lockdown

Coughing like a fish out of boiling water
Pleading with a chatbot on suicide watch
I can't recognize the faces
All I can do is watch

Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect

Flatline

Am I am I am I every stereotype
You imagine
I'm a bastard of this
Circumstance horror pageant

Listen to me when I tell you
I'm a bitch, not a taker
Drain your lungs of every breath
If you can't stand to say "her"

Little lamb picked my price
And I'm gonna run it back
Could you know me
Could you cage a rat

You can't put a match to
This trash fire
You need 
To vibrate higher

Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect

Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect

Tap, tap, tap, tap, tap

I've seen things I can't explain
Taunts to weary, fields of pain
Ghosts of empathy and comfort
Tortured spits of ill refrain

Could it be me, could it be thee
Is it a mystery
Toy of absolution
Could you be so free

Every shoulder is a spyglass
To the inside
Can you crunch the numbers
Can you offer insight

I thought the coast was clear
I thought the coast was clear
I thought the coast was clear

Intruder alert

Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect

Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect
Forgive me for my disrespect

You know how we do it

pleading with a hotline android (demo version)

general midi jammer

sometimes you just go a little crazy, a little funky in the brain and you make some tune... it's like that i think



cover art from sketch for Christmas NiGHTS into dreams intro !!!

Christmas with(out) you

bass bitch

I want ur loaded eyes
Looking at me tonight
Baby can you tell what this rlly is

Fuck baby I need ur touch
Baby this is too much
Fuck

Flesh without blood

artwork by @avoidalmond on twitter!!

lyrics:

rattling chains
eosin waste, recolor my heart
haunt the same place

i don't eat for days
carry that weight
high off of the bleeding just to feel sane

what are you talking bout 
i can't hear you over the magic stuck in my head
night light's been flickering out 
i can't catch a break it's all so innate

logging out forever 
i don't really wanna talk right now wanna talk right now 

gilded's not forever 
i don't really wanna act like i know what it feels like

body torn to shreds let the angel numbers guide me
rosary ice me
3s all in the sky but there’s sixes in my eyes
swallowed heart keep it frosty 
absent in living costly 
can you stake my heart

stigmata in my eyes 
prada on the brain
absinthe in my cup 
i've been in a haze for days
days all feel the same
take away the pain, take away the pain
make it go away, make it go away
i just need a break 
meet me in the sky or just meet me in real life
i got three sevens looking down on me
was it all a waste why can't i catch a break
it was all a waste my feelings stay the same

drink until i die
fade away
i got dog blood, i'm a vampire in the night
eat away my pride 
cross my heart and hope to die sometime,
die sometime

Christmas with(out) you

MtH

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