bappy:
tryna make it, tired of waiting
scared to face it all, i rise and then i fall
i know that i need help n help is just one call away
but i'm ashamed, nobody like me deserves to be saved

a fast death or a long life of nothing, go head n choose
its hard when 20 years down the line i got nun to lose
distracting myself could never free me from the truth
i swear my mind been bleeding out my mind forever bruised

wish i could cry, wish you was there for me
a hard goodbye, to what life used to be
the world jus keeps on spinning like a cd
fuck different choices, ya, no matter what the cycle repeats (x2)

via:
I know that love's hard to find
please wipe your tears with my mind
Hide that fear all inside
I had to trust when you lied
Thought I'd feel better once I fucking got up and tried
But I can't lie so many times I hope I just die

Gettin over it the hardest part of growing up
But when I'm in that room I still just feel like throwing up
And everytime you yell you tell me that it's all for love
I wan't no part of it I don't even wanna open up

Had no time to be young I'm always stressed out
And you know I freeze up when they bring checks out
They like "yo via you the best now"
And I'm so scared just to fucking let down

I ain't have a dad for my whole damn life
When he hit me up he like "hope you found a wife"
"Yeah I fuckin love you son just know you give me life-
but if it were the other way around, I wouldn't like"

bappy:
heaven or hell, your choice
life or death, your choice
pleasure, pain, your choice
life will lose its poise

i fell into the hole
where it ends, nobody knows
but i'll get back up one more time

via:
Gettin over it the hardest part of growing up
But when I'm in that room I still just feel like throwing up
And everytime you yell you tell me that it's all for love
I wan't no part of it I don't even wanna open up

Had no time to be young I'm always stressed out
And you know I freeze up when they bring checks out
They like "yo via you the best now"
And I'm so scared just to fucking let down

I ain't have a dad for my whole damn life
When he hit me up he like "hope you found a wife"
"Yeah I fuckin love you son just know you give me life-
but if it were the other way around, I wouldn't like"

bappy:
till it gets better it gets worse
but when does that change? cuz i feel the same
burning out cant even put words into a verse
asking "is this the end? or is it just a phase"

why do i still live like that when its bad for me
been closed off from the world now we in too deep
yea im wide awake, but ill try to sleep it off
no comfort in my eternal paradox

MY ETERNAL PARADOX II (with via) [PROD. BAPPY]

j'suis dans la ville 
et j'sais pas ou j'vais 

j'me demande toujours ou j'habite 
j'serais jamais accepté
tout le monde me demande qui je suis 
mais ça vaut pas la peine 

pas la peine
si t'as besoin je te donne mon aide 

toujours les memes histoires
et toujours les memes problemes 
encore ça s'repete 
dit moi juste quand ça s'arrete


on fait bouger les tetes
on fais bouger les choses
on bouge pas d'chez nous 
on bouge pas d'chez nous 

86 ? god damn, i wish

j'suis dans la ville 
et j'sais pas ou j'vais 

j'me demande toujours ou j'habite 
j'serais jamais accepté
tout le monde me demande qui je suis 
mais ça vaut pas la peine 

pas la peine
si t'as besoin je te donne mon aide 
nan nan 

pas la peine
pas la peine
si t'as besoin je te donne mon aide 
nan
pas la peine
pas la peine

pas la peine

This track came from wanting to capture the feeling of being pulled under but refusing to stay down. It’s a conversation with the flood inside me, the memories, the shadows, the chaos that tried to erase me, and turning it into proof that I lived. The lyrics move between loss and resilience, ghosts of love and static light, crashing waves and fractured ruins, but every scar becomes a reminder that I still rise.

Floodlit Dreams is a hymn for the ones who don’t let silence consume them. It’s defiant, surreal, and vulnerable. Rebirth by drowning, survival by surrendering to change.

Lyrics:

Tide breaks, pulse shakes
Floodlit dreams won’t let me wake

There’s a photo in the static glow
Your face flickers like a TV show
I reach for you in pixel light
But you’re a phantom on the edge of night

I built a house on water glass
Salt in the frames, couldn’t last
Time bent me, broke me twice
But I rose out the undertow’s vice

I drowned in silence, found the sound
Every wave tried to drag me down
From the wreckage, from the rain
I’m not the same, I won’t remain

Floodlit dreams, pull me wide
I still rise with the changing tide
Floodlit dreams, break my name
I won’t drown, I won’t stay the same
Floodlit dreams, every scar, every wave
Proof I lived, not proof I caved
I still rise
I still rise through the static glow

I still hear you in the faded glow
Like rain like razors in the wires below
I lost the words, but kept the ache
Some shadows never learn to break

I used to fear the undertow
Now I dive where it runs cold
Change don’t care, it just collides
But it carves me new each time I die

I carved through static, I bled through flame
Every ruin just spelled my name
You can fracture, still survive
You can fall apart and come alive

Floodlit dreams, pull me wide
I still rise with the changing tide
Floodlit dreams, break my name
I won’t drown, I won’t stay the same
Floodlit dreams, every scar, every wave
Proof I lived, not proof I caved
I still rise
I still rise through the static glow

The storm still came
The lie was staying the same
But I bloom in the break
In the fracture, in the shake
Every crash remakes me

Floodlit dreams, pull me wide
I still rise with the changing tide
Floodlit dreams, you know my name
I won’t drown, I won’t stay the same
Floodlit dreams, every scar, every wave
Proof I lived, not proof I caved
I still rise
I still rise
I still rise

Floodlit dreams
I still rise

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