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step in they all stare
ima cross a nigga up n ima leave him there
i can tell that he a bum wtf u wearin
bad milf bitch ya her name karen

really based living this shit not a trend
im ridin round Quahog wit a mac10
it get lonely at the top but i dont need friends

no i dont need u

feel bad energy ur so see through
n u werent there 4 me so i would i b there 4 u ?

energy prod. alex + numb

nauseous p. jones, gateway, deyflo

you said you would be there

credit to graydawn for this beautiful beat

if only it were easy just to let all of it go
i only wanted to know  how you were, just goes to show
that nothings ever as simple as it once was
remember last summer just gettin high and havin fun
we couldnt smoke for shit now im smokin past my limits
now im told that im not shit n i really start to think it
all a sudden im not blinkin, i got so high im just percievin
but maybe theres a way far away from my demons.

chorus:
all goes to shit without your touch i need it now
i can sense your presence but i couldnt tell you how
i just need you closer i cant see you in this crowd
i just fucking love you i need to hold you for a while.
for if i dont feel you my body will freeze under this snow
and my hands will start to rot from the seeds that i have sewn
and my eyes will fall back from all the drugs that i had downed
all my senses will be shot and all my feeling will be gone.

with my last breath ill cry out your name
everything without you has never quite felt the same
as my life once was, fleeting memories to go
as they always fuckin do, ill forget December's snow
but the feelin of my self-hatred is something that ive always known
the coldness of myself is something that i know ill always hold
so then why does the sensation of your touch never get old?
these winter nights n happy memories will forever be untold.

HoldYouForAWhile (prod by Graydawn)

More acoustic stuff it’s been fun to write

lyrics//
I look back to the kid I was
I feel bad only because
I blamed it all on myself
Oh I blamed it all on myself

So self centered yet I had no idea
Of the person I was yet meant to be
Social interaction made me feel like a creature
Like an alien, far from reality

I never knew it wasn’t my fault
When I wanted to end it all
Confusion clouded my mind rapidly
Constantly creating yet never happily
Married to the ideas I was meant to have
Too caught up in what ifs and anxiety, I had
No line between my thoughts and being
20 years down the line now I’m finally seeing

Nothing came out to be the way I thought
Nothing came out the way I thought
x2

I’d lay in bed and rot and rot
Thinking is this it?
For months on end but I never forgot
The feeling my mind only seldom crossed:
My being is one of a selfless lot

I had the bottle in my hand.
But the thought of you was stuck in my head.
I put it down and tried to reflect.
That wasn’t my ending and I knew that.

Nothing Came Out the Way I Thought

keep thinking you're somebody and I’ll stay here being nobody

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