I don't like you
Why do you come round me
I don't like you
Why can't you leave me be

why can't I be better at communicating
why can't I learn to speak my mind
why do I think that drawing boundaries 
means that I have to be unkind

of course that doesn't mean question me
when I draw my boundaries
that doesn't mean question me
or I'll tell you to leave me be

and I'll be mean
and I'll be mean
and I'll be mean
and I'll be

Healthy Space

I don't have anything enlightening
to bring to the table in a lyrical format
'cause that kinda shit's on an individual basis
what you need to know you also need to ask
and that's the most I've got
go find what you want
it could be anywhere
and maybe you'll never find it
'cause maybe it doesn't exist yet
you might just stumble
on an original idea
but prob'ly not yeah
'cause most of those are already taken
I create for the sake of creatin
all original ideas already taken
and everything's a regurgitation
of something I heard when I was younger

This Might Be Platonic

I don't trip anymore
My legs grew long the last few times
and I find that I have far less trouble
climbing over fallen debris

I don't trip anymore
The cloud my head is in it often rains
and that's okay
cuz I don't swim anymmore
but I still fill the quota for water on my face

I don't trip anymore
Kaleidoscopes are beautiful
but their patterns are meaningless
to me

and I'm beginning to suspect
it's hard to sell your abstract art
at least for what you think it's worth
unless of course you're laundering
someones dirty money

I don't trip anymore
I don't trip anymore
I don't trip anymore
I don't trip anymore

But I still drink smoke
like it's protein
And I make my coffee 
with room for the rain
and I make my morning 
with room for the walk
and I make my mind up 
with room for my brain

I Dont Trip Anymore

Do you perceive what you picked and passed up
What all you pushed away
The perfect portent of potions plays
Piped and plated, proportionately plain
Perfectly outspoken and possibly pertained
To puzzle pieces pixelated but that's okay
You're busy with the bigger picture
I'm busy boarding plains
With peaches 
Protein screams and preaches
Parfait cream 
The leeches
And MS Paint

With peaches 
Protein screams and preaches
Parfait cream 
The leeches
And MS Paint

You're busy with the bigger picture
I'm busy boarding plains
With peaches 
Protein screams and preaches
Parfait cream 
The leeches
And MS Paint

With peaches 
Protein screams and preaches
Parfait cream 
The leeches
And MS Paint

Do you perceive what you picked and passed up
what all you pushed away

Empathetic Machine Project

The Bigger Picture

Anxiety
Holding out for 
A better joke or 
At least a role model
This world is getting sick
Is this your best attempt
At providing a platform?
Then you're sick.

So I have learned
to dance to anything with a rythm
and I have learned
to slide in to the craks
where I can see that I fit em
I'll fall in to a dirty fit when I'm
When I'm going down
And I will hold myself back
when I feel I'm gonna drown

Some days
it all just feels like
a shallow immitation
of what life
should really be like
for

I'm gonna get mine

I'm gonna get mine

I'm gonna get mine

Give me a peice of that
action
I wanna get
a better reaction
gimmie a peice of that
break it off
gimmie what I deserve
cuz you don't see my
you don't see my
you don't see my work

I'm gonna get mine

If it kills me.

Passive Progressive

Adjusting To The Art

Old World Wounds

Counting Up Our Days

Thank you for all the kisses
Thank you for the merry Christmas
Thank you for every slap on the wrist
Thank you for all you took
All the risk

I know it wasn't easy
I can be quite a handful to myself
Even
I'm sorry if I hurt you
I'm sorry if I let my temper get away from me

Since 2018
I've been stuck in this sense
Of deja vu
Oh nostalgia washed over me
It hasn't left in 2 years

I can't get the scene of the snow out of my head
Why oh why

Back when mom was still around
Hot pink was my favorite colour
I didn't know anything about the world
And before I had a brother

Oh
Do you remember building snowmen
Putting ornaments on the tree
I made one for each of you

Things would never be the same again
Things would never be the same again
Things would never be the same again
Things would never be the same again
Things would never be the same again
Things would never be the same again

I've been stuck in this sense of deja vu
I've been stuck in this sense of deja vu
Since 2018 nostalgia washed over me
And never went away
I still see it snow when I close my eyes
It never went away

Is that the day I died
Is that the day it all went wrong
Couldn't've been
Was that the last day things were right
I wonder
I wonder
I wonder

ooohhhh
I didn't even know myself

Now I'm 26 and I can't stand Christmas carols
I feel its homicidal
When they play them in the store
Like 
They want me to break down
Right there inside the aisle
I wanna cry
I miss my mom and dad

I wanna go back home
But I don't wanna go home
I wanna go home
I don't wanna go home
I just wanna grow old
But yeah I wanna go home

Nostalgia Loop

PNW Local, Trans (Represent!), artist and musician.
I make music I like to listen to.

EMP (The Empathetic Machine Project)