Sorry for the meh audio quality, this was as best as i could do with editing out room noise. 

Thanks to everyone who helped and is helping me recover. It's thanks to your support i was able to write again. Hopefully someday i'l be as strong as you all are.

Lyrics:
But when he loved me,
Time and space swiftly dispersed.
And when he kissed me,
I could see the universe.
Not as vast and empty space but as a home;
Through great and bad,
Back to back,
Never alone.

And I gave up
Everything, all of me, just to save him. 
Never knew,
I could lose myself.
I thought love was enough, 
Any other stuff,
was a kindness I didn't deserve. 
He was refined and so cruel with his words. 
In the barrage of scorch marks and scars;
I held out for the shooting stars.

But when he loved me,
all that pain would fade away. 
And when we kissed, we 
Could see the Milky Way. 
Not as vast and empty space but as a home;
Through great and bad, 
And bad, 
And worse
His love hurt.
He wanted more, and more of me: 
But I needed atmosphere to breathe.
Subconsciously, 
I held onto the remnants of my galaxy.
Which made him cosmically angry.

And when he broke me, 
My world imploded like a star.
Lost and lonely,
In the flashes of bright and dark.
Alone in vast and empty space without a home; 
I awoke shaken, 
In a constellation. 
Held so tightly,
By those who loved me,
And promised they would never let me go.

Although,
I didn't know how,
To rebuild myself, 
After he tore me down. 
Until I felt the sound of the spheres, 
Are part of me still here?
Broken down for safe keeping, 
Loving and leaving. 

Because I loved him, 
I will never be the same.
Nightmares and solar flares, 
Full of true love and true pain. 
But I saw so many miracles, 
I know I'll make it on my own; 
And now I know how vast the Universe can be. 
Through great and bad,
I'm so glad, 
I found me.

His Love Hurt

I like to write music, and i'm finally trying to get my voice back. 
Thanks to all of my friends, family, mentors, and members of my support group for helping me feel safe and making me happier than i've ever been.

Special thanks to all the mentors who taught and continued my love of music over the years: Jan Maelica, Mr. Allen, Margaret Hadley, and Mr. Olsen. And Reven, for explaining some of their music know how to me.

Amazing profile drawn by Mako!! Find them at http://mako-art.tumblr.com/

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