I...L0$t..My...S0ul..In..2023😮‍💨

'87 Benz
I just sit back, I hit the gas
Ride through the wasteland broken down buildings and piles of trash
I moved as far away as I could to get away from the past
I'm just a scavenger looking for copper and metal to scrap
And I don't wanna be that, but I don't wanna be that
Pack up my bags like don't worry I'ma be back
Can't find no home I can't find anywhere that I wanna be at
Home's where the heart is but I'm fucking heartless so that don't mean jack
Kill my throat from all this nicotine and vapor I inhale
I never used to but this stress got me not doing well
Work so much but this self motivation it can be hell
I roll my mary and I just put myself up in a spell
My weak brittle bones, I need phosphorus
I just need some love but I can't foster it
And i do what I love but I just lost the bliss
They only show the love when it’s posthumous
Tell me it means
Tell me it means
Tell me your train of thought when you shut yourself off from me
Save it please don't talk to me
Please don't talk to me
I don't know what it was but something's been off with me
And I don't wanna be that, but I don't wanna be that
Pack up my bags like don't worry I'ma be back
Can't find no home I can't find anywhere that I wanna be at
Home's where the heart is but I'm fucking heartless so that don't mean jack

phosphorus (with brody)

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

comfort

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & 2001
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
and I really have to do this for myself;
growing up, and facing fears, and learning i cant dissapear	
its one thing after another
study hard, and dont blow your cover
learn all the lessons you lost
cause school was tough, and inside youre soft
you loved your dad, cause he was all that you had
to pat your back on the way, and say its okay
you loved your mom, (I love you) cause she was your home
(my home) and your only friend or anything that made you feel a little bit less messed up  
cause a little means alot ;/
and now i got almost everything that i want
but im stil trying for what i- dont have,,
"dont look back" is what they told me,
so ill keep on living till the, old me dies
dies (What a-)
dies
dies
until-
until he dies.

I'm on my way

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & Ally Holloway
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶

don't worry, you'll be fine.
don't worry, you'll be fine..

and I dont know how serious it really is
I dont know what i want

and it echoes thru these halls again
and the ghost you left still wanders around
(it still wanders)
woah

silence speaks more than sound
I've been lost and found

Lost and found

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
white shinobi: @white-shinobi
gin$eng: @ginsengxx

they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i think our scene would be alot better without them
do you think we need them?
i dont think we need them?
cause we have nick and we have miles
you know exactly who the fuck im talking about.
they're clones 
and they barely try cause 
they get cosigned and 
they already have fans before they start
maybe i shouldnt talk about it at all
but im just being honest
im just being honest
you cant look me in the face and tell me that it looks fine to you
cause we work our ass off and we get nowhere
i think we all secretly know this is not very fun
cause itd be alot funner if people gave a fuck.
or if we could live off of this, but right now we could die from this
im not tryna be a pessimist, but you know music's more than this
i dont think i wanna stick around to see how it goes,
cause how fucking far can you make it in here?
they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i tried to tell you once but you didnt listen
"we're nothing special, we're just a follower."
im not tryna make you sad at all
please dont give up
i just want you to know
they're not what you thought they were.

bonessss/clonessss (white shinobi x gin$eng)

0000

headphones on my head like every night
i dont have friends ive got me to fight
welcome to my life, ill help you see them, see them
i have a strange feeling that its the end, the end.

im addicted to my death and im addicted to this pattern
i realized every choice boils down to the same kind of people
and same kind of morals
and same kind of morals, so what do you believe in?
do you really think that this life has a meaning?
did you really think that id let you off easily?
oh hell fucking no ill come down on you like you did in my dreams
i know hes confused but i dont think i care
night time comes and once again you are a disgrace baby
you look entirely defaced lets rewind baby
to first base
when your place wasnt my place
ive always had shit to say but now im fucking say it 
cause ive spent too long putting up with it 
woah
 woah
  yeah i bet you got a death wish
see me in my room tied up by my necklace
you scandalously walk thru all my halls for an answer
but theres no answer
i float thru these walls as a ghost 
i see you in my grasp, getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know..
what i did to you, cause i always kept my mouth closed
like you should have done about me 
keep it quiet and i wont ever fuck you up
dont worry bout it man the season calls for it
dont worry bout my plan youll know when it hits
this shit is really how i feel and theres only one
person that i wouldnt lie to
its my microphone
dont call your home
your soul will always be bound to my tomb
our stories in stone 
you took over my throne 
and now were just bones 
drink poison and enjoy it
basically my point is 
our puny love was disjointed
by you
by you
i float thru these walls as a ghost
i see you in my grasp getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know 
what i did to you cause i always kept my mouth close
this is a story about all my demons 
welcome to my head, ill help you see them
when i hit 19 might as well be the end
i dont wanna die but im really not living
so stay a little longer just to make it funner
when i go under, please dont suffer

white lies lead to murder (domesticsoul)

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you
ill make it better for you
ill find a way to change hue
i feel like alien
and i just want to relate
got me going

bad memories run thru my head
i dont wanna talk about what i said
i dont wanna talk around all the important shit
i dont wanna fight cus baby we are more than this
i see ghosts in my room
and they look almost like you

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

if we're talking about time i wanna cut it down
if its gonna make the wait longer then fuck it all
you're in my mind right now
and i just wanna get to you so i can shut the fuck up
got me going
dont fall down
SINGING EVERYTHING FROM MY HEAD!
its generic
but im simple
when you speak to me you make my legs tremble
i see ghosts in my room
i see ghosts in my room

how am i gonna do what i really need to? i dont know
and how do you expect me to be fine with my circumstances?
i see ghosts in my room
and they almost look like you
black and white is all i see if its not love its anarchy
you could say like anything i promise i wont leave you
i use to go MIA for like two weeks and i still do
but atleast the reason why i do now's cause i love you

its less than a month till i leave my home
its one year over due so its time to get gone
im so fucking sick of waiting for my life
im accepting the fact nothing happens over night

GHOSTS (Scottysplash)

@lilskeleskrrt
@prodjpjp

// geist
don’t look at me and tell me no hard feelings
blood was lost, it’s dripping through the ceiling
i saw this coming from a mile away
the knife was left in my chest for a reason
but i wish you the best forever, you win
i don’t want to fall in love with hate

i just wanted to dance
when your hand’s in my hand i feel my heart is racing
lost in a trance
but now i’m alone and i rot in this basement
there’s blood on my hands
and i paint the walls red when given a chance
oh don’t give me that glance
your eyes tell me secrets my heart cannot stand

oh
the knife was left for a reason :/
oh
wish you the best forever you win...

// skele
cut me right thru
baby you don’t need a panic
watch it pour out
darling isn’t it romantic
it’s like paradise
fading out
only you and i
somebody call the surgeon
tell him that it’s urgent
on the table stained red
i told you
i think that it was worth it
this is perfect
if you hold me as i go
i’ll wait up there for certain

and you
are
the reason
that i lay awake
staying up
i’ve been stuck here for days
hold my heart
in ur hand till breaks

don’t keep telling me to let go
screaming out
i stop to listen to the echo
not enough
fucking tearing up my throat
i’ll keep going
till the blood
makes me choke
what you know
baby tell me where you go at night
empty out this bed
i’m still not feeling right
staring at my meds
i’m on the borderline
walk along the edge
i don’t feel alive

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paradise w/ skele [jpjp]

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
impractical use of your head
you kept up your walls, blocking out all your friends
eta; some hours
i'll probably be sober
to realize i still hate myself and grown colder
distain
(exhausted and jaded)
your headspace
(show no relation)
stained gray and faceless

refraining from the actions
that'll probably f*ck me further
i miss not pertaining all this weight
and worrying bout the future
but don't get me wrong,
i love all my friends
i hardly reach out, but they know how it is
just a burnt out soul in a tie-dyed kid
when the colors all fade, then the bl**d dries thin
got chilled-out wind in my lungs
winter has pa**ed, but i can't see the sun
waving away to the ones that i love
that difficulty ain't apparent at all
so inconsiderate, i need a light
so f*cking tired of wasting my time
put their heart inside of mine
(inside of mine)
(i'm out of time)
(f*ck)
(out of time..)
(tiedyed.)

autumndropsdead - tiedyed (nate2timez)

Sourface

CATARINA (prod. h4yden x ezz x rio)

[Verse]
I asked the moon it stayed so quiet
Stars just blinked in their silver riot
The wind laughed low through the trees tonight

[Prechorus]
But you
You hold the word I need
The only key

[Chorus]
Give me the word
Give me the spark
Give me a reason to light up the dark
Dai dai dai dai dai dai dai
The word to let me love
To let me love again
Dai dai dai dai dai dai dai

[Verse 2]
The clocks spin backward the rivers dry
Every moment's frozen in your eyes
Say it once let it multiply

[Chorus]
Give me the word
Give me the spark
Give me a reason to light up the dark
Dai dai dai dai dai dai dai
The word to let me love
To let me love again
Dai dai dai dai dai dai dai

[Bridge]
Your silence is loud it shakes my ground
I’m falling up but I can't come down
One word one sound set me free
Say it loud say it back to me
30 августа 2025 г. в 12:50


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