lyrics vvv

"he believed that, that if you could do good things for other people, you had a moral obligation to do those things,
thats whats at stake here
not choice, responsibility.
thats nice.. thats great.. its all well and good, so where is he?
what?
where is he
wheres my dad?
he didn't think it was his responsibility to be here and tell me this himself? 
oh c'mon, how dare you?
how dare i? how dare you!"
------
how dare you fucking leave like that
i never really thought that id miss my dad
you use to take me places
and now im just sitting faceless
and now its just too late
cause you never cared
and if you did
i was never aware
no i cant talk to you bout a damn thing
cause you wont understand
cause you wont understand
yeah i miss him..
yeah i miss him..
but he dont know..
cause he ignores everything..
yeah i miss him..
yeah i miss him..
but he dont know..
cause he ignores everything..

i miss my dad (skellington)

lyrics vvv

(wow! you're turning into a skeleton!)

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
babe i love you, but i want outta my my my head....

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could

accepting my feelings, and moving on (skellington)

:) yeehaw
lyrics vvv

yeah ur dead to me
yeah ur dead to me
u aint ever mf been there for me
dead wanted dead wanted
so if i dont respond just
know what happened
know what happened
im on my dead line
dead line 
slipping thru the grapevine
sippin on this great wine
this great wine yeah
i bet chu wanna fuck it all up
but i aint finna let u
cus i got it too clutch
gettin too high
so i cant focus on the views
and i cant think of anything
when im surrounded by u
swimmin in a big ole body of water of sharks
this shits so dark
jumping off of bridges 
hopin that i fuckin make it
hopin that i land so safely yeah
but in the back of my mind 
i really hope that my bones go left and right
and up and down.
yeah ur dead to me.

dead wanted (splashgvng x ayoley)

lyrics vvv

bring the pain and the memories back
remind me how i didnt really mean it like that
so were moving like that? yeah
got it from the past
and if im ever gonna be okay
im not having it my way
at this point i dont wanna know
if im worth more than gold
worth more than gold
at this point i dont wanna know
if my hearts turned to stone
youre so perfect
dont let a soul change that
you dont gotta change anything abt yourself
just do you
just do you
even if ur better
and ur doing way better than me
doing way better than me..
but its okay if you leave me behind
i expected it from the first night i died with you..
with you.
with you.
with you...

golden heart (jolst)

lyrics vvv

my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
i wrote a note 
but i burned it so u wont find out
stayed up all night
all night..
my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..
my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..

yeah i found out where im from
ion like it so i gotta run
yeah i gotta gun
might just use it for fun
might just fuck up my lungs
flipping a bird to the sun
bitch its zero to one, yeah

stayed up all night..

my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..
my lifes in my hands
but i just cant figure it out
figure it out, no
figure it out..

yeah i found out where im from
ion like it so i gotta run
yeah i gotta gun
might just use it for fun
might just fuck up my lungs
flipping a bird to the sun
bitch its zero to one, yeah


im not coming home.

figure it out.. (skellington x cherry)

your soft breaths remind me that i still love you.

lyrics vvv
yeah
money, materialism 
got the whole world corrupt
the state we live in
the shit we give in
its only profiting them
shit here we go again..

money, materialism 
got the whole world corrupt
the state we live in
the shit we give in
its only profiting them
shit here we go again..

its a cycle that i cant break
but i love it when u call me ur girl
its sad to say but i think ive lost my memories
but you still mean so much to me..
im sorry that its hard..
i think im in love, yeah
sleepless nights and adderall
miss you more than i think i ever have
your soft breaths remind me that i still love you

materialism (wisssery x lavendertxwn)

i dont know if ill make it.
[cover art drawn by autumn, post processing done by me <3]
autumn > https://soundcloud.com/skullergamez
lyrics vvv
yeah i know that its hard
i know you dont have no guidance
you dont have a heart
i know you been trapped 
and you been lost inside the dark
you dont have no where to start
youre a lost star
i know that its hard
i know you dont have no guidance
you dont have a heart
i know you been trapped 
and you been lost inside the dark
you dont have no where to start
youre a lost star

get out of my face
you dont know what to say
anyway
anyway..
i might have to fake it
fake it, yeah
but i wont 
let it end me..
no, no..
i wont let her go..
i wont let her go...

yeah i know that its hard
i know you dont have no guidance
you dont have a heart
i know you been trapped 
and you been lost inside the dark
you dont have no where to start
youre a lost star
i know that its hard
i know you dont have no guidance
you dont have a heart
i know you been trapped 
and you been lost inside the dark
you dont have no where to start
youre a lost star

eviscerated (grayskies)

i hate it here, but if u support me i love u sm.
v v v
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away 
emptychest <3
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
(needa get a job but i..)
(always hit my line for me..)
(ur fine for me..)
well i dont..
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth..
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away..


it hurts so much to be here <3

what ive become (noxiousnights x jolst)

mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you.
autumn: https://soundcloud.com/skullergamez
v v v
[emptychest]
talk talk 
thats all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending every day getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dream steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning 
have u reached the ceiling yet?
spoke ur feelings yet?
gonna be okay, or are you gonna end up dead baby..?
lemme know if u simply need some rest baby
ill be the shelter when the hails pouring real heavy
but im boutta go to war and ion know if imma come back
hug me while im here so if i die you wont get flashbacks
keep that pretty lil face posted up beside my nightstand
rewind to the days when u were cradled in my right hand
now im stationed up, boutta ship off
my hands are shaking and im scared but ion got no option
you can always text me if your awake and u miss me
mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you..

[autumndropsdead]
yeah i’m anxious to hit a wall
hoping you carry on
do you care at all?
you don’t care at all

oh to be a little taller
look a little better
ally once said to die whenever; 
it’s the weather 
self encouragement is something 
i need to endeavor
girl i never meant the bond between us 
to be severed 

now fuck i’m sitting here alone
i ain’t got a message at the tone
the light in my heart that once shone
is dimmer than i’ve ever known 

swearing that i know 
i’ve been a bitch baby 
ion wanna talk abt shit i wanna live maybe whatever i’m feeling got caught up in a wind is he all you ever wanted could you count it as a win baby yeah yeah yeah

[emptychest & autumn]
yuh!
talk talk
its all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot 
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear 
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending everyday getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dreams steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning.

im stationed up
boutta ship off
my hands are shaking 
and im scared
but ion got no option
you can always text me 
if your awake and you miss me
mommas boutta go to war
if ion come back,
i love you..

war w/ autumndropsdead (jabarionthebeat x deephartt)

pls pls pls pls show love to casperrr. sweetest fuckin guy, and a hell of a artist <3 https://soundcloud.com/casperprpcw (casperrr)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

(emptychest)
that the wind blows
it makes it always cold
and i will never know
never know, where the fuck to go
been reaping what i sow, i think its time to float
(i think about it like everyday)
away.
i think about it like everyday
stay in my brain while you stay in your lane
they say that it gets better but i dont think i believe them
smoking hella potent, think this shits gonna free me soon
that the wind blows
i really wanna stay
but i think ill go

i really wanna stay.
(casperrr + emptychest)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

i really wanna stay w/casperrr (wisssery)

produced by tsurreal x jkei 

i rock my at2020 like all night
i got bags on my eyes but I'm alright
and my wrist baby you know its all ice
yeah i could make 100 songs
but would they sound good?
no they wouldn't
my recordings aint consistent like my woods is
roll it back
make a new friend everyday, what love is that?
you say you aint got friends, baby thats a-
go to an event with 200 people
and you always go places
man you're really fuckin gifted
yeah you're gifted, your parents gives you gifts, and-
yet you always sit around and complain about the small things
woah woah woah
just hit that shit one more time
you're addicted anyway
your health is going down the
going, going
down the drain
theres not much left to say
i guess you got your way
are you ever gonna realize
the weight
of your actions?
are you happy now..?
are you happy now..
are you happy now..?
tell me
tell me.

u got ur way

<3 
lyrics vvv
[empty]
i needa
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
took ten steps back 
just to realize i was gone baby
every single night that i been writing
i been zoned baby
every single time that ive been dead
you were right besides me inside my head
think a little, think a little
i know that shit hurts
but you gotta be aware
if i really want everything,
ill prove it.
yeah ill prove it..

[casperrr]
i know you are loyal i know you're by my side
but my head keeps on telling lies
i'll keep my thoughts out of ur sight
i'm just trying to do what i think is right 
sorry didn't mean to cry 
dunno if this is love dunno if there's a why
hurting and bleeding baby u're like blade
if i hold you tighter i'll feel more pain
blood keeps on leaking from my veins 
blood on my shirt it's full of stains
i can't fucking think i'm killing what's left of my brain 
don't want all of my efforts to be in vain

[empty]
i needa
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..

formula. w/ casperrr (splashgvng)

i love you so much, and thank you.. <3

-ally

earth to you

peel the paint

i find it kinda fucked up
how you fucked two guys and called it bad luck
(called it bad luck)
im never, okay
i haven't been the same since 2018
and what a shame that is
it really coulda been nice 
but you marked my heart 
and tore it out with a knife
and no i dont think its fair
you put me on life support
and now you're pulling the cord,
baby, why so short?
yeah, why so short?
you cut me off the leash
and now you're never gonna get me back
(why dont they want me?)
yeah my nose is running
and my heart is hurting
i dont wanna do it now
i dont wanna go outside
i been falling

i find it kinda fucked up
how you fucked two guys and called it bad luck
(called it bad luck)
im never, okay
i haven't been the same since 2018
and what a shame that is
it really coulda been nice 
but you marked my heart 
and tore it out with a knife
and no i dont think its fair
you put me on life support
and now you're pulling the cord,
baby, why so short?
yeah, why so short?
you cut me off the leash
and now you're never gonna get me back
(why dont they want me?)
yeah my nose is running
and my heart is hurting
i dont wanna live if its not with you
i dont wanna be someone you knew
i guess it was fun while it lasted, now im dead
only 17 but im lying in my bed.

bad luck (boyfifty)

you said you didnt want no one
now youre boo'd up and im still fucking stuck alone
i said ill never talk to anyone again
but thats a lie and we both know what i meant
we both know what i meant, it was honorific 
we both know what you meant when you said that
im tired of dealing with this shit
i always fucking loved you even after every hit
i was fucking bad, now im worse
atleast when i was bad i had someone to text first
i guess we had fun but thats it
i still have your note on my wall and it hurts my heart
yeah it hurts my heart
yeah you hurt my heart
yeah you hurt my heart
yeah it hurts my heart
i dont have nothing going for me
maybe music, but thats not gonna heal me
im screaming out and i want someone to hear me
i think its impossible to find someone who feels me
i dont ask for much.
just to be hugged, just to be loved for once
i dont ask for much, just to be loved, fucked for once
i dont ask for much, just to feel someone touch on my skin
i dont ask for much, i just wanna experience love like everyone does
i dont ask for much, i just wanna feel safe in somebodys arms
someone to keep me outta dodge
someone who can keep me alive in the dark
someone i can rely on
someone who wont leave me for a boy thats -
wrong.
im only here cause i love you
i met you for a reason now i need you
i dont wanna get attached
but i love you

you said you didnt want no one
now youre boo'd up and im still fucking stuck alone
i said ill never talk to anyone again
but thats a lie and we both know what i meant
we both know what i meant, it was honorific 
we both know what you meant when you said that
im tired of dealing with your shit
i always fucking loved you even after every hit.
i was fucking bad, now im worse
atleast when i was bad i had someone to text first
i guess we had fun but thats it
i still have your note on my wall and it hurts my heart
yeah it hurts my heart
yeah you hurt my heart
yeah you hurt my heart
yeah it hurts my heart
yeah it hurts my heart
yeah you hurt my heart
yeah you hurt my heart
yeah you own my heart..

alive in the dark (afterlife x pekarot)

im sorry if i seem distracted
im really tryna live but im distracted
i know i said it twice atleast im aware
i always say things twice cause i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not there
i know im not
ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart
my life has never been in my hands 
and now i gotta pay the price
and fucking change it right
before i fuckin die
i wanna live
i wanna see what the world has to give
to me 
i gotta have hope
and i gotta be me 
i gotta see the brighter side
sweep me off my feet :(
am i gone today?
will i be okay?
i dont got no one asking me if ill be okay
aye aye
im tryna find the one for me
maybe lookin's not good for me
but i know if ion try imma never be alright
damn.

ay my ghost has seen these trees all the time
and it'll see em baby, one more time
ay i cannot heal from this
oh 
god 
no
its like a family that had planned out
but it never worked out 
i would try a thousand years
i would cry a thousand tears
its like a girl that gave you her heart
but you tore it apart.

i would try a thousand times..
i would stay a thousand nights..
you were gone but i was here..
i would never disappear.. 

im gone but aint disappear <3

sweep me off my feet (wisssery x jolst)

tell me where it ends 
tell me where we end 
tell me when I gotta give it back 
lemme like you 
but tell me my cue 
tell me when I gotta stop 
I love you.
I gotta make do.
gotta make do,
I love you.
I gotta make do..
I'm playing it safe cause I don't know what ur intentions are, will you make it go far?
you seem nice 
you seem nice 
I appreciate you for caring 
caring
I appreciate you for caring  
caring.
I love you but I don't wanna hurt you, hurt you
I love this but Imma enjoy it while I can, can

intentions (skellington)

..
what do you expect me 2 say when i fall again?
i know that i took a risk
why do you give a shit about me?
or what im doing
i thought you said ur moving
i guess im not as fluent
as i thought i was.
aye, dark cabin sunken deep in this april fog
i write my wrongs and all these songs in this soggy cot
wendigo love aint real
kept me staring at my phone at night
fuckin, dead.
you like to fuck my head
feels like you broke my bed
wish it was me instead
none of it will happen if i feel alright
i love you, can we meet again?
meet again.
MARKED ON THEIR ARM FOR SLAUGHTER
I LOVE HOW THE WINTER BOTHERS ME
THATS MY DOWN TIMES
THATS MY DARK TIMES
YOURE MY LIFELINE
FUCK IT, HES MY NIGHT LIGHT
I GOT REDEYES
CAN YOU PLEASE STAY THE NIGHT?
"S" FOR SUICIDE
NOT NOW MAYBE ANOTHER TIME
i write all my victories in blood stain
all that petty guilt from the past remains
i never really know what to say.

red_eyes

blood_stains (emptychest)

im scared.. </3
...
theres some things that i cant learn
and loving me is one of them
i aint afraid
i cant change at all
but do i even want to? 
thats the question
im still tryna learn my lesson
oh..
i back up when i really shouldnt
when the going gets hard
i get scared
im scared
they learned how to love me
so i loved em back
i didnt think i would
but i learned from that
but im hot
im cold
and i dont know who i am
im just tryna learn to love who i am
im a pretty girl trapped in someones body
i was tryna be someone and im sorry
this cold weather always overwhelms my body
its really hard to get a meal in my body

the storm (2001 x sor)

produced by Furyl@EVOMUSIC

mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..
☆
yeah..
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
to be alright
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
thanks for asking, i guess
but i dont wanna digest
the food heals my stomach
but the music heals my soul
ill just keep it quiet 
cause i dont want them to know
be alright..
☆
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
(i need to!)
(i need to..)
(i need to, yeah)
(i need to </3)
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking

i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..

how to love again

produced by nevrfall, artwork by @punimonnn on instagram

ive been grinding too long and im tired of waiting
on me
its all about who you know, and nothing else
i dont wanna spend the time to see where im headed
imma quit this shit because i dont like the setting
"you got a new fan", thats what they said, i appreciate it, but,
i..
ill never see the better side
this is a goodbye letter
it was fun, but i gotta get better
and you should know that i cant get it like this
so imma get it somehow else, i swear
its not what i wanted to do, but i have to
lifes pale like blue
youre someone i knew.

a goodbye letter.

[emptychest]
cold green eyes
yeh
yeh
pop out
i said pop out
FTP when this shit goes to rot down
yeh
yeh
hot now 
im on now
aint nothin i aint seen but my god now
fell in love but im right back at home now
scared to call, wont survive if i dont now

cold green eyes
hypnotize her soul
whats outside..?
they let them know

[LOVENude]
ok like top me now
your in my fucking town
i do not want to talk to you baby i need u now 
youve been so lost inside my head i really get it now
i had to sought around i drive away to crash it out

and i take drugs baby
and i just like to numb the pain because im so crazy
and i do not just like to talk to you so crazy
you are just like a stranger 
get in danger
i just need to the pain im movin thru 

pain in my sanity it never goes away 
im lost lost ion like to talk im movin to another day
she been in my head she like a stranger not another day
illucidated ive been so damn crazy need a fucking place to stay

but im so upset
i cannot loose you
and i dont want to walk alone

so baby hold my hand
were almost there
i keep on talking to you your a stanger in advanced
we hop inside the ride and ride away so we can dance
i wanna find a place with u and
die slowy with you

but i dont know what to do
ive been gone i found the truth 
shes fucking with another guy oh man what a suprise

scared2call +LOVENude [p. lxst ghxul]

u cannot tell me 
different at all
im livin a cycle
i js wanna ball
i dnt wanna fall 
so im tryna crawl
away
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so
☆
yeh yeh
even more so
hows it feels to have pills in ur torso?
really bad.
when im out of my room doin tours n shit
i rly need my god damn milli back
im use to havin snakes in my friends list
if they hold me close 
imma hold em closer
godspeed
i dont want that to be likely
but if a bitch try me one more time 
they gon have to fuckin fight me
☆
im growing up
unlike u 
ur throwing up
gang signs 
n throwin bands
even tho they fake as hell
u just doing this for the clout
no one even likes u 
but ill shut my mouth
ur a sore to be around
i dont love u.
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so.
☆

sampled comfort chain by instupendo
this song is entirely non profit on Spotify and soundcloud 

thank you

im trying everything possible.

prod. caves

i've been stalking you
can i be somebody new?
waiting on a text from you
but you would never get it thru your head
and my head, 
is killing me right now
while you were chilling with your friends
and you'd never fuck around
who do i trust?
probably you, but
i dont love
no 
not since kyra, and
not since kai
not since the boy across the world
world
the first one was a test run
and the second one he wanted none
if you want me you should've kept me
and i dont know why i didnt respond to you
and now i feel fucked up
i think i fucked up.
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up

if not, then rot.

produced by caves.

metallic taste in my mouth
bloodshot eyes and im out
i dont know my route
i dont know my route
i dont know my route..
live, endeavor
☆
old news that i already know
pissed off and i cant get old
what do i have to say?
(could i ever?)
(could i ever?)
(one missed call)
(two missed calls)
☆
and who am i right now..?
MY BODYS TELLING ME 
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
RIGHT NOW
"I NEED TO GET OUT, NEED TO GET AWAY"
to find contrast
in my life
or all this will be nothing
(nothing)
yeah, it'll be nothing.
☆
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
FOR ALL MY LIFE
I SCRAPE ANY HOPE
OFF MY BEDROOM FLOOR
and if i cannot find it,
I'LL LEAVE ANYWAY
☆
a hurricanes coming thru and
it kinda reminds me of you
kinda reminds me of you..
have you ever, have you ever,
been alone like that?
and all this time i finally need to matter

live, endeavor.

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

cover by @northshoremusic / me

when the clouds break down youll see me shining bright up in the sky
i dont mean to hurt you but i think i might have to disguise
but ill always be your friend, no matter what you do ill always be there in the end
now its raining more than it ever has 
looks like the road is broken but i just dont seem to mind
cause as long as i got you i just dont give a shit
judgement day could be coming but i still think we'd be fine
in my mind its just growing up
so why are we so afraid of this?
theres so much shit to think about and im overwhelmed 
but ive always wanted this so i gotta do it right now
december bound im coming for you
to start a life brand new
i swear 
it doesnt 
take that much
it just takes some time and a little bit of love
i know we got it rough but we just gotta learn to change
all the pain into brighter shades of black and white and darker greys to see the brighter side
say what all you want about me but im still me
and even on the brighter nights i still hate me 
the love was still there but i couldnt see it 
i was still there but he wasnt breathing

it dont seem like much but its gon add up soon
packing my bags to get you to the moon im gon see what i can do to make it better for you
yuh i waited all night i guess this my life
december bound im coming for you
to start a life a brand new
i swear it  doesnt take that much
it just take some time and a little bit of love
you been there for four years youve seen me grow up
and i dont wanna go back then so hold me up right now baby
popped off at the table he said i was cheating bitch
im really not cheating bitch im just a demon bitch and ill
take the energy out yo life to fuel mine
cause i dont got a source of power to call mine
but blast off, im bouta be out of here
i got a girl in my mind 
she helped me out of fear  
i lived in my room since forever
and if i dont change i will never
and if you dont stay i will wither
and if you dont stay i will wither

DECEMBER BOUND (Kosfinger)

i love u both.

what will i do when theyre gone?
i credit all my love to them
all my love to them and if i was ever afraid they were there
they were there thru everything and every night i tried to stay alive
but i still dealt with it on my own
cause i didnt want you to know
i wasnt doing fine
all you should know is that you tried and it was enough
and im still here learning everyday what i do and dont fear
and im still trying
are you proud of me?
i hope youre proud of me
(and i love you)
(mom)
(dad)
and i dont know what im gonna do when i call home and it dial tones
(means no ones there)
and i dont know what i wanna believe 
i really liked you showing you all that i percieved,
momma.
momma, please dont out live me
i wanna see you when im fine
i wanna see you when youre fine
and father, im really sorry we couldnt bond.
but i would've if i was happy 
(I WOULD IF YOU WERE HAPPY)
and i would've if you were here

cause i didnt want you to know
i wasnt doing fine
all you should know is that you tried and it was enough
and im still here learning everyday what i do and dont fear
and im still trying
are you proud of me?
i hope youre proud of me

i hope youre proud of me 
i hope there comes a day when you will both finally have what you need
cause you deserve it more than anyone else
in the world.

what am i suppose to do when my parents die?

follow pekarot

what am i suppose to do? (sor x pekarot)

alone (nilowh)

Dont wry bout a thing rn
My bro gon hit u up if I get shot down
Yeh yeh
You think you slick hoe
Nah u just a kid bro
If I rly said run it one day would u do that
Would u do anything in ur power to make it up to them
Take a step back everything is real I promise
The people around u arent monsters
Its alright if u go
But I dont want u 2
Ur embrace is so far
I rememeber ur car
I remember everything pretty vividly
U never said a word in spite of healing me
I guess thats nice of u but idk
What ur standards were, I lost my goal
I dont know how else
(u wont find me around here forever more)
How else im supposed to
See clear when my visions growing up
Im trying, just trying to be
The best I can be 
If this it all amounts to
Then tell me why would I choose u

forever more

follow branwen

forever more ‧͙⁺*☾branwen

cause all the memories are clouded to me
can you just talk to me i really wanna hear your voice rn
i just got sick of getting sick of life
if you with me i gotta make it right
i made it off the rocks
got no luck but i guess you by my side
i know youre staying up tonight so please just call me and,
give me some company
i just need you to comfort me
got three grams and its not enough
i think i need more from my plug

cause all the memories are clouded to me
can you just talk to me i really wanna hear your voice rn
i just got sick of getting sick of life
if you with me i gotta make it right
i made it out of there
nobody knows what i went thru
i went thru alot cus i loved him
i went thru alot cus i loved him
give me some company
i just need you to comfort me
got three grams and its not enough
i think i need more from my plug
i dont talk enough 
but frankly im just simply running it up
frankly im just simply counting the bucks
but frankly im just giving zero fucks
ive too been isolated in my bedroom
with nobody to talk to you
i suffocated in my own room

cause all the memories are clouded to me
can you just talk to me i really wanna hear your voice rn
i just got sick of getting sick of life
if you with me i gotta make it right
i made it off the rocks
got no luck but i guess you by my side

3g and its not enough (caves)

im not doing better than i was last night
i still count on myself when times get hard
i dont mean to alarm you but everything's falling apart
but i think we'll be alright

ive been flying sideways
off track, sun burnt my face
i dont remember what you said
blacked out imma go
they think imma ghost
they dont wanna see my face when i comatose
many problems in my head undiagnosed
packed a ounce and i think its getting kinda close to running out
im half way dead
theres a stain on my dress and it makes me depressed
woah scroll thru the messages sent
woah so i can reminisce about a dumb bitch 
ive been flying sideways
off track, sun burnt my face
i dont remember what you said

drift that going sideways
gremlin burn the highway
its me or simply no way
whiskey melt my whole face
girl you are my home base
make me feel safe at last
50k on every song thats what i really gotta have

ive been flying sideways
off track, sun burnt my face
i dont remember what you said
blacked out imma go
they think imma ghost
they dont wanna see my face
im not doing better than i was last night
i still count on myself when times get rough
(im half way dead)
i dont mean to alarm you, but everythings falling apart
but i think,
we'll be alright.

undiagnosed

follow caves

undiagnosed (caves)

i thought life could never change
but it did and now I've changed too
are you still the same as i remember?
you were the last thing i remembered
its so cold
its not fair
you left home
and i stared
dwelling in the doubt that i made
living in a body full of sulfate
spirit trash 
walking gut rot
no one understands how somebody's soul could rot
in less than a day
it only takes pain
it only takes some time to realize you're insane

sulfate

follow neverforever

sulfate (neverforever)

its all for nothing, dont let it tempt you
you've got a new day to make it up to yourself
paranoid thoughts cloud my mind
i heard the phone call, but i didn't
i see them, and i hope they're friendly like i am
and i hope i fit in enough
and i wanna be cool, i promise im not a fucking fool
and im so obsessed over what i want
most days i feel so far away
im trying my best to stay focused.

friendly bad thoughts

friendly bad thoughts (neverforever)

i try to be someone im not and
it feels wrong but im locked in
im just noxious on the rocks and
ill keep saying im doing fine

i cant even think
lights are on, i cant sleep
hiding under my sheets
to get away from my dreams
x2

dont get overwhelmed
dont feel what you felt
your faculties are breaking down
and you dont know how to help
yourself, yourself get out 
youre old, youre stuck in the route you made
i play games that no ones heard about
cant invite me to a public lobby 
cause i get scared and i dont talk for hours
i dont know how you talk so easily
fuck
thats all i can say
ive ran out of pain
i guess thats good for me
(pain)

i was the most popular ive ever been
when i was sad as fuck 
and i didnt know how to fucking vent
but now ive learned how to live 
and i grew up a little bit
so get out of my mind if youre not gonna profit it
yh.

i (prod. caves x wisssery)

maybe im dumb
im out of luck
can you just 
can you just 
be there
x2
be there when i fall back down
down
im
fade
im fading away
my mind dont feel the same no
i dont need to do what i been doing just to feel alive
can you walk me thru all the bullshit
i dont wanna fight it
and i dont wanna fight it
i dont wanna fight it let the process just go thru ur veins
im not impressive im just depressive
im fading away
my mind dont feel the same no
i dont need to do what i been doing just to feel alive
can you walk me thru all the bullshit
can you just 
can you just 
be there

ＤＥＰＲＥＳＳ

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ＤＥＰＲＥＳＳ （ＰＲＯＤ．ＣＨＲＯＮＹＣ）

trapped in a world where we
dont know what we're doing
we're REALLY fucking clueless
vices on my desk, contraband in my head :/
its fine to us,,
i got party in my dna ^-^
i cant even brace , or hurt
cause i cant feel my face, uh.
rum and everythings fine 
i do what i want

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh...'

i still hurt sometimes

nothing makes sense :(
another bro got jaded >:(
i think they laced him >;(
TELL ME WHAT THE PAY IS
i got real bones ache and they sure ache
i cant even stand to see my own face.

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