I didn’t sleep I just paused the noise
Every thought’s got a voice, and it don’t sound like mine
I don’t scream I just spit to stay awake
One more line keeps the dark away


Snap when the rhythm don’t land in the chest
Breath too short and the world’s compressed
Click-clack beat like a pulse I fake
Rap too fast just to block the ache
No crowd, no light, no “you got this” talk
Just me and a track when the nerves all lock
Hands don’t shake when I match that pace
But I fall through silence like dead air space


She’s gone but her silence still burns
Every song I write just twists and turns


I breathe through noise ‘cause the still ain’t safe
Write too hard, like I’m dodging fate
Say I’m fine with a mic in hand
But the pain leaks through like a kicked-in stand
No fix, no rest, just keep that tone
She left, and I broke like a feedback drone
If I stop this verse, I don’t survive
Music don’t heal it just keeps me alive


Can’t fake joy, so I rap like math
Stack each bar like a therapy path
Lines get sharp when the hands won’t lift
Still trace her name when the beat goes stiff
Buried my son in a verse I hid
Still play his laugh in a kick and skit
The grief don’t stop, it just shifts and loops
So I rhyme like blood with a reverb boost


She said “You never came back from that”
I said “This pen’s all I got to react”


I breathe through rhythm I don’t pray
This mic holds more than I can say
Love won’t land where the beat won’t break
So I stay where the silence aches


Mind don’t rest, just spins in shards
Chop these thoughts into rhythm cards
Snap that breath like a snare in chains
Every step’s got teeth in the phantom pain
Too fast to feel, too sharp to fake
Write like the world got hands on my face
Bleed in lines ‘cause the pulse don’t show
Still here ‘cause the beat said go


It ain’t therapy it’s triage
Every bar I write is gauze
I’m not strong I’m just too wired
To let go before the beat expires


She holds me close I barely move
Still wired to the ones I lose


I breathe through verses I stall, not speak
Hope don’t rise it sinks in deep
Can’t hold joy it leaks in sound
I wrap my truth in a feedback crown


Don’t save me
Just press play
Still here for now


Take Me Back

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