This Is Not Gonna Be Fun

[Verse 1]
YEAH, let me tell you 'bout a love that turned to shattered glass
Had me thinking it was forever, now it's fading in the past
You wore that smile like armor while your heart was checking out
I was blind to all the signs, now I'm drowning in my doubt
Propped me up like some hero while you planned your escape
Called me "rock," called me "steady" - was it all just FAKE?
Now I'm replaying every moment, every laugh, every tear
Trying to pinpoint the moment when you started disappearing

[Hook]
You can't put all this weight on me
When you hid behind that mask I couldn't see
Love of my life just slipped away (DAMN!)
Now I'm left here with the price to pay

[Verse 2]
Listen! You painted pretty pictures of a perfect life
While underneath you were holding onto silent strife
Yeah, I ain't perfect - stubborn, quiet, dress like I don't care
But I loved you with a fire that was always there!
You wanna blame me for not reading what you never wrote?
For not hearing all the words that you never spoke?
Fuck that narrative, that ain't how love works
Can't expect me to see through all the pain you lurked

[Hook]
You can't put all this weight on me
When you hid behind that mask I couldn't see
Love of my life just slipped away (DAMN!)
Now I'm left here with the price to pay

[Verse 3]
AYO! The pain is real, got me questioning everything
Every memory's a dagger, every photo's got a sting
You say I should've known better, should've seen it coming
But you played your role so perfect, kept the facade running
Now I'm sitting in these ruins of what we built
Carrying a mountain of undeserved guilt
YEAH, I'll own my part in how we fell apart
But you can't blame me for the secrets in your heart!

[Bridge]
They say! (THEY SAY!)
Men should know! (SHOULD KNOW!)
But how the hell were we supposed to go
What you kept locked away so tight?
Now we're both losing sleep at night!

[Final Verse]
This ain't no victim story, this ain't about revenge
This is about the truth that you refused to send
The love of my life walked away without a fight
Left me carrying blame that just don't feel right
I'm spitting these bars 'cause the pain's still fresh
'Cause loving you was real, yeah, I still attest
But don't you dare put all this weight on me
When you're the one who chose not to let me see!

[Outro]
(Intense delivery)
Love lost... trust broken...
All these unspoken words...
Now we're both paying the price...
For the silence you chose...
And the signs I missed...
DAMN!

Shattered Glass

Monster

Take Me Back

Mock Me, Scoff Me

Evil Little Sinners

I Boast In The Blood

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Mixing in the Stu alone working on my craft 
No Purple Heart from service, I still got one on my sache 
We gon get it rocking like a white water raft 
If you get complacent you gon fuck around and crash 

My bullets hit ya ass, giving you a diaper rash
Me and my brothers dancing on ya body, Monster Mash 
My gas is getting low but I still push it to the max 
That’s a fact 
So keep on dickriding, you a fag 

Inebriated caffeinated, never mind that 
Don’t need stimuli, a motherfucker tryna scrap 
I’m back 
Know it’s me, J 3s and the tats 
Don’t forget the Mac, in the back of the Cadillac 

Sleeping on me you must got cataracts 
Wake up tied to New Jersey transit train tracks 
Motherfuckers got an issue, bet, say that
We riding through your city just to let some brains splat 

And I remember way way back 
Didnt know what surprises daybreak had 
I’d grab the 4 fifth and my slate grey hat 
Bust a cap where you shop, that’s my Safeway gat 

Real rap 

So tell me who could say they bad
It’s Peezy in this bitch, know I stay way mad
With a bad bitch named KK, dag 
That’s my gameday bitch, she stay trad 

That’s traditional
This pack I’m smoking on is that California medicinal 
I’m applying pressure I cannot give you no wiggle room 
Listen to this shit, you wonder why nobody feeling you?

Please
I been gone a minute, I still got it up my sleeve
Bless me when I sneeze, you better say it on your knees 
Worry bout a threat you must not know about the Peez
Drop the tinted windows on your street to feel the breeze 

I handle you myself, no need for the police 
Stomp you with a yutta leave ya body full of trees 
A R 15, F R T squeeze 
Anyone coming for my son or my niece 

I said fuck a hook or a chorus 
My balls hanging off me take a look, they’re enormous 
Walking horizontal cause they wider than the door is 
Dinosaurus is my synonym in a thesaurus 

Give me a couple 40s leave ya family looking porous 
I’m going hunting in all black, not in orange 
Take your wallet but I ain’t bothered what the score is 
Just need your name so I know what to tell the florist

Pressure

IV. Ghosts In Our Eyes

Full throttle

You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on

The beat don’t lie
So try another cry
Tell me why you sigh a hundred words
Is it really so neat
In your head meat
Is paradise just the wind that holds the birds
Why you want to lose me?
Why do you need me here… alone?

You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on

Truth
Lies

Running 
Hiding
Running, hiding
In there

Running 
Hiding
Running, hiding
In there

You call me fat
You fuck a pig inside your twat
And think the touch makes you whole
Think it means it all
But beside bedside you lay
The mirror tells the truth at the end of the day/
Me I try to grow and reflect
But you do not accept

You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on
You gotta take me on
You gotta twist the knife
You gotta take me on
To validate your life

Take Me Back

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