a compilation of every single release i have done, ever.

discography

@existortunes

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Bandcamp

Existor - Aftermarket (feat. enesai)

gave up on caring. not music, but opinions about mine. enjoy.

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you are

reminiscing gave me butterflies.

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---
A song came on my phone tonight
That reminded me of you
I guess I had more tears to cry
But I swore that they were through

The devil plays his tricks on me
When I stay up at night
The memories just stick to me
Like glue covers my mind

And it's stuck in place
The memories will never erase

And it's stuck in place
The memories will never erase

Thought of you (stuck in place)

we all experience low points in the scheme of life, but with God’s guidance, we come out of the darkness with beauty and victory.

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I got lost the other day
Cuz I didn’t know my destination
So I sat and prayed
And I thanked the Lord for all my blessings
Cuz I got another day
And at that moment the tears just kept rolling down my face

An overwhelming realization of how much I took this life for granted set upon me
Cuz I didn’t need to exist upon this planet but He chose me
To be the one who was born into my family
And sometimes I feel like I let down my family

Cuz I do not take advantage of all that life can be
I get caught up in my thoughts yeah they just keep on rambling
It’s hard for me to focus on the future when my past keep on constantly reminding me of the moments that I was once a better me

I pray that one day my mind won’t be my enemy
Cuz if the battles continue then my mind will be the death of me
Sometimes I wish that I didn’t understand the knowledge of good and evil
And sometimes I wish that God had never even created people

But this life is beautiful, even through all the suffering and the pain
Cuz if all I knew was good then there would be nothing to gain
You could have it all and one day God could take it all away
You could feel the worst in your life and God could take away all the pain

I been through shit, all I wanted to see was a brighter day
I didn’t know my destination so I sat my ass down and prayed 
I went through some shit and all I wanted to see was a brighter day
I didn’t know my destination so I sat and I prayed

Azimuth

stream/dl

Destination w/ enesai

To the girl who changed my whole world, I know the angels in heaven sing for you💞

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Happy Birthday Lucy

▶️ Listen to Gouldian Finch 4
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✧ Lyrics
I woke up to the sky
My face turned towards the sun
I thought that I could fly
But I could barely run
 
I woke up to the sky
Facing all the stars
If you were really here
Then tell me where you are
 
Tell me where you are
Cause I just wanna fly
 
So tell me where you are
Yeah
 
Cause I just wanna fly
Yeah
 
But I’m too scared to fly
Cause I’m afraid of heights
The courage in the strength
To have you by my side
 
I keep all that in mind
Next time that I try
The height from up there
Is bringing my demise
 
And it makes me hurt inside
To see you hurting for a guy
To leave us stranded all to die
It makes me wanna cry
 
To see you sitting there at night
With nothing left besides your mind
And all it tells are lies
To keep you satisfied
 
Keep you satisfied
To keep you satisfied
To fly
Fly
I just wanna fly
____

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Gouldian Finch 4

to change perspectives

✨Stream/Buy ✨

bonjr & enesai - to change perspectives

the past is a lesson for future successes.

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---
You never said goodbye
All you told were lies
I don't have to think twice
I don't need you by my side
No
I wish that I could feel alive
But my mind's already dry
Cuz you take up all my thoughts and my time
Yeah I hope you're doing fine

Cuz I'm going down a dark road
And I don't know where the road goes now
It feels like my life's in slow-mo
And I don't know where the time goes now
I wish that I could just show you, I wish I told you
That I loved you one more time
I wish that I could just hold you, in your cold room
Then everything would be alright
Then everything would be alright
Then everything would be alright

I wish that I could feel alive
You never said goodbye
I wish that I could feel alive
You never said goodbye

You never said goodbye
All you told were lies
I don't have to think twice
I don't need you by my side
No
I wish that I could feel alive
But my mind's already dry
Cuz you take up all my thoughts and my time
Yeah I hope you're doing fine

Cuz I'm going down a dark road
And I don't know where the road goes now
It feels like my life's in slow-mo
And I don't know where the time goes now
I wish that I could just show you, I wish I told you
That I loved you one more time
I wish that I could just hold you, in your cold room
Then everything would be alright
Then everything would be alright
Then everything would be alright
Then everything would be alright
Then everything would be alright

listen elsewhere <3

enesai & Bvrd - everything would be alright

i gotta trust you.

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---
I don't know how to feel
I'm stuck between a hard place
In a dark state of mind
So tell me, what's the deal?
I'm trapped inside my headspace
In a dark state of mind
So show me how you feel
I'm sick of all the lies
If you wanna love I better see it with my eyes
Cuz my heart needs to heal
And I can't even lie
I cannot trust a soul cuz my heart broke too many times

But I trust you
I hope you trust me
Cuz I want you and I hope you want me
Cuz you the only thing in life that make me feel like myself
Besides all of the music that I make by myself
I try to make the most out of the cards I've been dealt
I got here by myself I bet you know how that felt
Makin' steady moves while I build up my wealth
Stressin' all the time I swear it's bad for my health

So all of my trust goes into the Father
I can't live without God no I won't bother
I knew she was gifted as soon as I saw her
So I put my trust in you girl, don't break it
Cuz I have been praying that our love makes it
You tell me you love me well please do not fake it

Cuz I don't know how to feel
I'm stuck between a hard place
In a dark state of mind
So tell me, what's the deal?
I'm trapped inside my headspace
In a dark state of mind
So show me how you feel
I'm sick of all the lies
If you wanna love I better see it with my eyes
Cuz my heart needs to heal
And I can't even lie
I cannot trust a soul cuz my heart broke too many times

I gotta trust you girl
I gotta trust you girl
Can you trust me too?
Can you trust me too?
I gotta trust you girl
I gotta trust you girl, yeah

trust

these black spirits can numb my pain, for a moment.

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---
Maybe
Maybe life is like a 
Like a journey and
And uh
Maybe
Maybe
In a future life

The night drags on
The thoughts don't stop
As I take this road alone
The headlights on
The rains they wash
The bloodstains on my clothes
The red lights stop 
They pause my thoughts
The color shines too bright in the nighttime
The green lights glow
It's time to go
The winds pick up to blow away
The hurt
The shame 
I take the blame
My soul can't change
But these black spirits can numb my pain
For a moment
I can't see where I'm going
Cuz the fog keeps putting me out of focus
So now I hate the shame
So I take the blame
Cuz my soul can't change 
But these black spirits can numb my pain
For a moment
I can't see where I'm going

I gotta move on
Seek out
My future
Lately (I can't keep holding onto false hopes like that)
Sorry you went through that
It didn't work out (no)

divine devotion

black spirits (w/ ezshi)

gimme some time now, just have faith.

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---
I haven’t heard your voice
In a minute
I thought I had my life figured out but I didn’t
I’m always on the low
Staying hidden
I try to stay true to myself but I’m sinning
A synonym to that means that I’m doing bad things I came up from nothing
Cuz I got God on my team
If you tryna pull up on me then I’ll make a crime scene
But I don’t wanna do that I’m tryna keep the peace
Keep the pieces of my heart intact
So I been getting bankroll yeah that’s a fact
But I swear this money doing nothing it’s a shame
Cuz everyday I’m drowning in my tears I make it rain
They say you gotta truly believe to be saved
So give me a couple minutes I’m looking for some faith
Wake me up from this dream 
I’ve been having nightmares losing sleep
So when I dream I pray the Lord my soul to keep

Same shit
Different day
Only clothes and weather
Seems to change
Gotta believe
To be saved
Gimme some time now
Just have faith
Same shit
Different day
Only clothes and weather
Seems to change
Gotta believe 
To be saved

voice (w/ ezshi)

I just gotta couple questions for you God.

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---
Everything falls apart
It shatters
Into pieces

Everything falls apart
It shatters
Into pieces
Everything falls apart
It must be
For a reason (reason)

I just gotta couple questions for you God
Why does everything gotta fall apart?
Are we not worthy of forever Lord?
Cuz I just wanna live inside a world
Where this love just lasts forever
Cuz I just found this girl who brings me sunny weather
And I don’t ever want the rain again
I never want this love to end
So tell me, why does everything in this world decay?
It hurts my heart, it messes with my brain
How am I supposed to give you all my trust?
When all my trust slowly fades away
Do you see the trust that I have in you?
Is it enough? Tell me, is it true?
I’m tryna kill the fake bring out the realness in me
So when I sin will you please forgive me?
Cuz I just wanna fly high in your holy presence
Cuz every essence of your being is perfection
I just wanna go up straight to you, straight to heaven
But are the gates wide enough for me to come in?
Cuz the path is narrow filled with destruction
And evils so close, that I could touch it
So God please can you tell me something?
Am I really worthy or am I really nothing?

everything falls apart (w/ ezshi)

you make me fall, in love.

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---
Fall
You make me fall
You make me fall
Fall, fall, fall, fall
Oh, You make me fall
You make me fall
Oh, you make me fall
You make me fall
Fall
You make me fall
You make me fall
You make me fall
Fall, fall, fall, fall
Oh, you make me fall
You make me fall
Oh, you make me fall
You make me fall
Fall

You make me fall
You make me fall
Fall, fall, fall, fall
Oh, you make me fall
You make me fall
Oh, you make me fall
You make me fall

You
Make me fall
Into love
Love
You
Make me fall
In love
Love
Fall
Fall
Fall
Fall
Fall
Fall

Fall
Fall
Fall
Yeah

fall (w/ ezshi)

home

i dream of the days when i call out your name and you answer.

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---
there's nothing that i can do
to keep me from falling from you
i try to keep from the dark
but somehow to comforts me

i want to be somewhere else
whenever i lose myself
i dream of the days
when i call out your name
and you answer

but sometimes it feels like you don't
when i need you the most
and i don't know how long i can float
'till the waves capsize my boat

i break and i fail
then the wind rips my sail
until i am utterly lost and turned around
so i'll wait till i'm found

utterly lost

you're far away, between time and space.

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---
i wish that i could go to space to get away from you
the emptiness makes me feel at peace you can feel it too
never back down
never come down
never fall down back to you
never back down
never come down
never fall down back to you

never back down
never come down
never fall down back to you
never back down
never come down
never fall down back to you

i wish i had you right now
but you're far away
between time and space
i wish i had you right now
but you're far away
between time and space
if i see you again
with our hands together it's like time never ends
but i only feel dead if i can't feel your breath
with our hands together it's like time never ends
ends
ends

open, space
open, space
open, space, back to you
atmos, phere
atmos, phere
atmos, phere, back to you

to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you
to you

open space
open, space
open, space, back to you
atmos, phere
atmos, phere
atmos, phere, back to you

open, space
open, space
open, space, back to you
atmos, phere
atmos, phere
atmos, phere, back to you

Scare Lewis - ATMOS (enesai Remix)

when life stretches you to new places, grow with it.

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i have an album coming out soon, much like this music. stay tuned <3

stretch

full freestyle, made in 3 hours.

listen on apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/vodka-freestyle-single/1523778648

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vodka freestyle

i thought it would be over. and now it is over.

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you take me off the ground

i made this song for you tonight, i'm here to stay.

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---
lyrics:
i know, the way you're feeling right now
and i'm just tryna find out
how to fix the pieces of your heart
and i know, you're searching for a way out
high up don't wanna come down
i would try but don't know where to start

you got your dreams and i know that i got mine
but mine is less important if you are not by my side
i know it seems like i do not care at all
but when i'm on my phone you're the only girl i call

yes it's true, i know you know it too, yes you do
but you're worried 'bout the future and i'm worried bout it too
but i do not want a future if my future isn't with you
and i hate this feeling cuz you got me feeling oh so blue

late night's when i thrive
in the whip i drive
get you off my mind
one step at a time
the only time i'm fine
is when the music's high
and when you're by my side
this is not a lie
the weather's getting colder
and i'm getting older
gave me the cold shoulder
after what i told her
now you move away
but i'm here to stay
yeah i'm gonna wait

i know, the way you're feeling right now
and i'm just tryna find out
how to fix the pieces of your heart
and i know, you're searching for a way out
high up don't wanna come down
i would try but don't know where to start

here to stay

a song created tonight in an attempt to cure an incurable stagnation. full project coming soon. i love you all.

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a song for incurable stagnation (w/ ezshi)

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