Sorry for the airy effects, I decided to do a cover with my electricfan. hahaaa! I'm no singer so please excuse my voice. Please check my blog at enzovalenciagool.blogspot.com. Thank you!

teenage Dream

It took me sometime before I realized your worth. I was blinded by my own thoughts thinking that you don't love me as much as I love you, that you're never willing to make the same sacrifices that I did for you, and I know I am selfish. Now that you're gone I don't know how much I can keep up this kind of life without you. We've built dreams, we said our promises to stay till forever, even dreamed of having a family with you. 

It may sound bull but seems like every time I do something, even the smallest thing like eating or even just brushing my teeth reminds me of you. I tell you this, I was mad at you for leaving me without giving me a chance to explain certain things. But as weeks and months passed by, I realized I can not stay mad at you for too long. I'm in love with you and I will never stop loving you.  It was my fault. And I know there is no other way to win you back but I just want to tell you that I have never loved anyone as much as I have loved you, and I still love you. 

I never flirted with anyone while we were together because I want to prove myself to you that I am worthy of your trust again.I'm sorry if my actions wasn't enough. For almost three years that we've spent together, I want you to know that you are the best person that I know of. You've given me numerous chances, stayed even though you're hurting, accepted my countless failures, and most of all, you have loved me for what I am. 

You've once said that "if there is love, there is hope". But I'm giving up now, knowing that you can never love me again for all the mess I've made. This may sound selfish but it hurts to see that you're happy now, what hurts the most tho is that I'm not responsible for that happiness. And I don't think I can ever make you smile or laugh again. Don't get me wrong, i want you to be happy. I want you to have a life that I should've given you years before. 

This is good bye. Iloveyou. Thankyou for giving me a chance to feel what love really feels like. I will hold on to our memories forever. 

Enzonggo