This is my original Christmas song called Thinking About Christmas, a live version (you can find the video at on my Youtube channel :)

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lyrics
It used to be some presents under the tree
Spending time with the family
But they're gone, this Christmas Eve

It used to be I had some money to blow
Some easy thrills with folks I used to know
But they're gone, this Christmas Eve

Because I'm thinking About Christmas
And all the things it should be
And I'm thinking about Christmas
And what it used to be
And I'm thinking about Christmas
And it's meaning to me

I was out late walking and I don't know why
I saw a steeple shooting straight to the sky
and t called out to me,
A lonely man such as I

Now I know I'm not the religious type,
But I had nowhere else to be tonight
And the church door was open,
It was warm by the candlelight

And now I just feel this quiet shame,
Nothing to give and I have nowhere to stay,
And this Christmas,
Am I someone to blame?

So I started to pray,
So I started to pray

And I'm thinking about Christmas
And all the things it should be,
Not all these things I can't live up to,
All these things I just can't be
Because the meaning of Christmas
Is deeper than what we can see,
Lord don't you lie about Christmas to me
Don't lie about Christmas
And it's meaning to me

Thinking about, thinking about Christmas...
Thinking about, thinking about Christmas...
Thinking about, thinking about Christmas...
Thinking about, thinking about Christmas...

Thinking About Christmas (Live Version)

Verse:
She calls on the phone
Asks if I’m home, third degree 
But what does she care 
She says she’s happy
With an angry tone
Almost hung up the phone
Right there 

New body new man
It’s all gone to plan,
Parted ways 
But it wasn’t goodbye
She said she’d always
Want to be in my life
She wasn’t the spiteful kind

Pre-Chorus:
Yeah she drove away
She found a new place
She’s picking fights
Still keeping score
If it’s not in good faith
There’s no time to waste
Old energy gotta cut cords

Chorus:
Yeah with ex-lovers
You shouldn’t roll the dice
It’s only over 
When you cut them from your life

Pretend to stay friends
But they’re not playing nice
Want to hold you 
Control you 
You’ve got to break up twice

Verse:
Rolls her eyes and she says
I don’t want revenge
I'm just not that kind of person
Meant no more than a fling
Admits she was bad
But I just saw her worst version

Pre-Chorus:
Yeah she drove away
Found a new place
She’s picking fights
Still keeping score
If it’s not in good faith
There’s no time to waste
Old energy gotta cut cords
Chorus:
Yeah with ex-lovers
You shouldn’t roll the dice
It’s only over 
When you cut them from your life
Pretend to stay friends
But they’re not playing nice
Want to hold you 
Control you 
You’ve got to break up twice

You got no option 
Gotta freeze them out like ice 
Thought it was over
So why do we still fight
New levels same devils
You always pay a price
It’s like you’re still together
You’ve got to break up twice. 

Bridge:
Hope for a place I can see
Clearly, not blind in your vice
She says we’re friends now, 
But why does it seem
That we’re really breaking up twice?

Chorus:
Yeah with ex-lovers
You shouldn’t roll the dice
It’s only over 
When you cut them from your life
Pretend to stay friends
But they’re not playing nice
Want to hold you 
Control you 

You’ve got to break up twice
Back and forth and crazy
And you’re crying on the phone
It isn’t over ‘till you’re sitting all alone
New levels same devils
You always pay the price
It’s like you’re still together
You’ve got to break up twice

Written and performed by Eric Contractor, produced by Matt Pelosi and mixed and mastered by Tyler Braddock.

Break Up Twice

With just a look at her 
I knew we'd be together 
And then I'd swear it's true
I've known her face forever

And in that moment she was mine
Haunts my soul, my days, my time
And in my sleep she calls my name
Kisses me in rhythms with the rain

Well if I had her, 
I wouldn't take her for granted
No, no, no
I wouldn't be afraid to hold you tight
Wouldn't have this cold disenchantment
No, no, no

And still I hope to feel
Her near me through the day
With the rising of the sun, 
When dreams begin to fade

When she's not mine to hold and keep
I feel this cold fire burning deep
Hey she's mine can't you see
And that's the way that it's supposed to be

Well if I had her, 
I wouldn't take her for granted
No, no, no
I wouldn't be afraid to hold you tight
Wouldn't have this cold disenchantment
No, no, no

No one treats her better
Loves her forever 
Makes me feel like I do
Fills her hunger
Feel the thunder
Fill my days with wonder
If I had her 

You and I should never fade
This I know but I can't explain
And if you should come with me
I'll kiss your eyes for what will surely be

I am the thunder you the rain
I am the thunder you the rain
Scattered across the sky
In our sunset kingdom by and by

Well if I had her, 
I wouldn't take her for granted
No, no, no
I wouldn't be afraid to hold you tight
Wouldn't have this cold disenchantment
No, no, no

No one treats you better
Loves you forever 
Makes me feel like you do
Fill your hunger
Feel the thunder
Fill my days with wonder
If I had her
If I had her
If I had her

If I Had Her

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Lyrics:

Verse:
It used to be some presents
Under the tree
Spending time with the family
But they're gone
This Christmas Eve

It used to be 
I had some money to blow
Some easy thrills
with folks I used to know
But they're gone
This Christmas Eve

Chorus:
'Cause I'm thinkin' about Christmas
And all the things it should be
And I'm thinkin' about Christmas
And what it used to be
'Cause I'm thinking about Christmas
And it's meaning to me

Verse:
I was out late walking
And I don't know why
I saw a steeple shooting
Straight to the sky 
And it called out to me
A lonely man such as I 

Now I know I'm not the religious type
But I had nowhere else
to be tonight
And the church door was open
It was warm by the candlelight

And now I just feel 
this quiet shame
Nothing to give 
And I have nowhere to stay 
And this Christmas
Am I someone to blame?

So I started to pray
So I started to pray

Chorus:
'Cause I'm thinking about Christmas
And all those things it should be
Not all these things I can't live up to 
All these things I just can't be

'Cause the meaning of Christmas
Is deeper than what we can 
Lord don't lie about Christmas to me
Don't you lie about Christmas
And it's meaning to me.

Produced by Eric Contractor
Mixed and mastered by Matt Pelosi

Thinking About Christmas

Lyrics:


Verse:
Open eyes cannot see, 
All the lights knocked out of me, 
Siren-voiced, Bunny screams
Throws herself on top of me
Are you ok, they got away, 
It hurts to see you live this way, 
Lust and lies and fights and blow
Leave me here, you’re free to go

Verse:
No, no, no I’ll take you home, 
I just can’t leave you alone
At any time, a certain face
Flashbacks come, my heart will race,
Raised to fight when I was young, 
But I survived, his favorite son
Bunny I’m so hard to love, 
I fight through life, 
And they call me Grudge. 

Chorus:
Grudge, Grudge. 
So happy to show you, true love
We found a star that we’d call on our knees
Racing our cars ‘till we’re pure in the breeze

Grudge, Grudge,
My softness will save you
I found your heart and I gave it a squeeze, 
Loved you so hard, like I had a disease

Verse:
Bunny won’t you stay with me? 
I’ll tell you all the things I see
Memories running through my mind
Your skin is soft, your words are kind
Growing up my shirts had holes
His eyes were black without a soul
Late one night, I was wide awake
I snuck out, I made my break







Verse:
Bunny will I be ok?
Not sure why you came my way, 
Thought I didn’t care no more, 
Your touch is all I’m hoping for
You and I will get away
Make a life in better days
Your face made up with without a smudge
I’ll keep you pure,
though they call me Grudge

Chorus:
Grudge, Grudge. 
So happy to show you, true love
We found a star that we’d call on our knees
Racing our cars ‘till we’re pure in the breeze

Grudge, Grudge,
My softness will save you
I found your heart and I gave it a squeeze, 
Loved you so hard, like I had a disease

Bridge: 
Oh Santeria, 
Do you see an altar of oils, 
bringing us home?
Oh candlelight, 
So bright, yearning for the love,
That you’ve (we’ve) never known?

Oh nighttime, in headlights
Our kisses, so dusty and low. 
Oh angel lights so bright,
You’re in my sights, wherever you go

Chorus:
Grudge, Grudge. 
So happy to show you, true love
We found a star that we’d call on our knees
Racing our cars ‘till we’re pure in the breeze

Grudge, Grudge,
My softness will save you
I found your heart and I gave it a squeeze, 
Loved you so hard, like I had a disease

Bunny & Grudge (feat. Sylvana Joyce)

In the Shadows (Lyrics)

Verse: 
Never spoke up
Love was a list of what was wrong with me 
And you drank it up 
All my insecurities

Programmed with your touch
I was in too deep
And now that you’re gone
It’s so clear to see 

Pre-Chorus: 
The more that i try to forget you, the more that I cling to you
So help me remember, so maybe I’ll really get over you 

Chorus:
You’re still lurking in the shadows
The ghost of you, 
The ghost of me,
And the only way to let you go,
Is to shine a light on everything,
I used to point fingers
But that lets you linger
In what’s lying underneath
In the shadows, shadows
A light is all I need

Verse:
All I’ve got 
Afraid to say the wrong thing
When I’m not
I’m guilty just to breathe

Pre-Chorus: 
The more that i try to forget you, the more that I cling to you
So help me remember, so maybe I’ll really get over you 

Chorus:
You’re still lurking in the shadows
The ghost of you, 
The ghost of me,
And the only way to let you go,
Is to shine a light on everything,
I used to point fingers
But that lets you linger
In what’s lying underneath
In the shadows, shadows
A light is all I need

Bridge:
Won’t you leave me here in peace
You’re just a shadow memory
And no longer mine to keep 

Chorus:
You’re still lurking in the shadows
The ghost of you, 
The ghost of me,
And the only way to let you go,
Is to shine a light on everything,
I used to point fingers
But that lets you linger
In what’s lying underneath
In the shadows , shadows
A light is all I need

In the Shadows

Water World

Verse:
Back then we’d swim 
In the water 
All summer you were by my side
I thought you’d always be my friend
Not seeing our differences
Just blind to who was ahead
Or behind me 

Pre-Chorus:
But now it’s like
Oh I don’t remember you
I got things to do
Moving on, looking strong
Is better than what you came from

Chorus:
And we said we’d win together
All boats rise with the tide
Chasing faster richer smarter
Left so many behind

If we’re drowning underwater
And the oceans will rise
In a waterworld will you save me, 
Look in my eyes

In a waterworld nothing matters 
But you and I

Verse:
Just a drop can poison the water
If you thirst for fame, 
Power, money, and lies 
You gained the world do you feel alone
I felt your pain, and are we close?
We float this tiny marble in the cosmos





Pre-Chorus:
You climb mountains high
Fly the sun, 
You went blind
Rivers pull you back to me
Floating back home on our old street

Chorus:
And we said we’d win together
All boats rise with the tide
Chasing faster richer smarter
Left so many behind

If we’re drowning underwater
And the oceans will rise
In a waterworld will you save me, 
Look in my eyes


In a waterworld nothing matters 
But you and I

Bridge:
Waterworld
Skip a stone and we hope to survive
Waterworld

Chorus:
And we said we’d win together
All boats rise with the tide
Chasing faster richer smarter
Left so many behind

If we’re drowning underwater
And the oceans will rise
In a waterworld will you save me, 
Look in my eyes


In a waterworld nothing matters 
But you and I

Waterworld

Eric is a dream-pop artist with tunes centered around his baritone vox, poetic lyrics, and nocturnal, moody themes.

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