GONNA MAKE A SPLIT ALBUM WITH METLAST OF ALL MY SONGS WITH HIM BECAUSE GOD DAMN WE COOK.

look at yourself in the mirror that you smashed
bloodied face, bloody tissues all around its a mess
sorry i didnt wanna leave you like that
its hard to see you hurtin when the knife is in your back
imma have a heart attack way i take it gettin stacks
gettin all that paper i think imma call you later
in a brand new whip and perhaps a greater
fucking will to live in this world no i cant  see one

living my dreams but are they dreams if you be one?
inhale exhale smoking now im settin sail
didnt fuck wit me then, dont fuck wit me now

take a deep breath in 
and look at me now
how you fuck wit him
when im shinin out
how you lovin him
when im around
i cant bare to 
see you happy
i cant fuckin bare to
see you happy

CANT BARE TO (SEE YOU HAPPY) P.METLAST

TheDateISetMyFuneral (p.greaf)

Moonlit Shore Interlude

one of my all time favorite songs I’ve ever written

lyrics://
part of my being died when i left you
but i push through a thousand mountains just to do
what i was born to do follow my dreams i must pursue
whether with or without you, imma rock out i got to
with all the lost time i should practice some self love
cuz i think i lost myself in all the time i thought i wasnt enough
you hold me down, keep me grounded, and the way you lift me up
i keep gettin lost in your eyes and god dammit i still blush
so in love its like i fell down a wishing well
she cut all contact dont know why but i wish her well
he fw both my cars and he like my gucci belt
my fallen angel i think imma die in hell
my fallen angel i think imma die in hell

WITH EVERY DAY GOIN BY DONT KNOW WHY I FUCKING TRY
I WATCH THE PENDULUM SWAY I HIT MY PEN AND I PRAY
I DONT DIE THIS TIME NO WAY I GOTTA HIT 20 SOMEDAY
I GOTTA HIT 20 SOMEDAY
I GOTTA HIT 20 SOMEDAY
I GRIP THE BLADE AND IN ITS COLD REFLECTION I CAN SEE YOUR FACE
SLIT FOR ALL MY SINS I CUT MYSELF FOR EVERY MISTAKE
PRETTY BODY MY FLESH IS TENDER RIGHT AROUND THE WAIST
IM A SEWER PERSON LIVING IN THE HOLE THAT I CREATE 

i curate a safe place for the piece of me you tore off
im tryna give myself a loving home and move along
but its hard to move on with all of you still in my room
i box you up and then i burn it and i see my flowers bloom
its so pretty this spring and i hope that youre doing well
ive been getting better im still here in this citadel
but no hard feelings since you seem kinda bitter i can tell
my fallen angel baby youre my raphael
my fallen angel i think imma die in hell (x2)

WITH EVERY DAY GOIN BY NOW I DONT WANT TO DIE
PEACEFULLY I REST MY BODY AND I SLOWLY CLOSE MY EYES
I CAN BARELY COUNT SHEEP NOW I CAN FINALLY SAY
I WANT TO HIT 20 SOMEDAY
I WANT TO HIT 20 SOMEDAY
I DROP THE BLADE AND IN ITS COLD REFLECTION I CAN SEE MY FACE
I GOTTA STOP THIS HATE AND GROW SOME NEW LOVE IN ITS PLACE
PRETTY BODY MY FLESH IS TENDER RIGHT AROUND THE WAIST 
IM A SEWER PERSON LIVING IN THE HOLE THAT I CREATE

MY F4LL3N 4NG3L (P.SECRE X HEYRICK)

REALLY LIVIN P.METLAST

ALT+R (TO A NEW LIFE) P.LILSPOOK

TELL ME IF I REALLY MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU AT ALL
I WOULD DO ANYTHING JUST TO GET A FUCKING CALL
I MIGHT GET ADMITTED IF I DONT GET MYSELF IN CHECK
I MIGHT NEED A BISHOP WAY MY DEMONS MAKE ME A WRECK

going hit for hit on the bong how im smokin wit the squad
you can make me bleed and i would still not offer you up
i will never narc thats not who i am at all
but tell me if i really mean something to you at all.

im alr goin ghost like im simon riley so please politely
fuck off rightfully and imma chase my dreams like it was meant to be
got enough anxiety so i often wonder if youre meant for me
constant pressure in my head windows+r go to bed

MeanSomethingToYouAtAll (p.wayside)

i know its gonna hurt its gonna sting and you won’t like it
but its just a little prick, a thorn upon your rosen title
I swear I’ll protect you, I’ll keep your picture in my locket
I will search for you to the ends of the earth if i gotta

please just take my hand we can recuperate to safety 
I had never planned for such adversaries to have taken
Place but never take my place i fucking love where im at
I would never erase the pretty look upon your face and that’s that

sting (prod by graydawn)

credit to graydawn for this beautiful beat

if only it were easy just to let all of it go
i only wanted to know  how you were, just goes to show
that nothings ever as simple as it once was
remember last summer just gettin high and havin fun
we couldnt smoke for shit now im smokin past my limits
now im told that im not shit n i really start to think it
all a sudden im not blinkin, i got so high im just percievin
but maybe theres a way far away from my demons.

chorus:
all goes to shit without your touch i need it now
i can sense your presence but i couldnt tell you how
i just need you closer i cant see you in this crowd
i just fucking love you i need to hold you for a while.
for if i dont feel you my body will freeze under this snow
and my hands will start to rot from the seeds that i have sewn
and my eyes will fall back from all the drugs that i had downed
all my senses will be shot and all my feeling will be gone.

with my last breath ill cry out your name
everything without you has never quite felt the same
as my life once was, fleeting memories to go
as they always fuckin do, ill forget December's snow
but the feelin of my self-hatred is something that ive always known
the coldness of myself is something that i know ill always hold
so then why does the sensation of your touch never get old?
these winter nights n happy memories will forever be untold.

HoldYouForAWhile (prod by Graydawn)

the esc yeat era
lyrics:
mind's overloading... smoking til im faded
fuck my tolerance... imma smoke so im not jaded
i said you were heaven sent im sorry i was wasted
you gon hit me up again when i fuckin make it

ill give her a chance but fuck if she blow it
ill fuck then nut on her stomach keep goin
say what you want, dont give a fuck what you doin
got so fuckin high that im movin slow motion
i smoke my bros up with the purp that im blowin
i ghost it then ghost every1 she following
when i make bands im wearin only rick owens
i got such an aura since im always glowin

im wakin n bakin in my own domain
fuck what you sayin bitch we not the same
im on cloud nine im high every day
surpassin the limits of what i can make
i gather my feelings repurpose the hate
cuz ive felt so lost last couple of days
if i find a way would you say it to my face
did you ever love me or was it all fake?

and if you did ask no you cant have me back
ive suffered too much to risk any attack
but still my soul it remains so black
for the pieces of myself ive yet to reattach

wasted (prod. branwen)

trying to branch out and im lowkey obsessed w this song
//
i cant ever try to forget
the voice behind those parting lips
or the creaking of your vocal chords
then the teardrop that fell down towards
the very floor that i stood there on
you hugged me last and then you were gone
now imma mess and i cant go on
even my friends say im more withdrawn

you used to be my only want
but i more so wanted a real response
we used to have such a fucking bond
which you broke so i cant be nonchalant

withdrawn (prod. may3ke)

newer acoustic song, this was the best demo. freestyled most the lyrics
//
And I really wish I didn’t fucking complain
I wish I was okay with all the shit that happens to me
But that’s really never how it occurs to be
It always takes some time or fantasy
To get you through this thing that we call life
I don’t really know so sometimes I pick up a knife
And I know that it’s not healthy and it’s not right
But I’m learning to right my wrongs every night

It’s a never ending battle with myself
It’s a never ending battle 
I try so hard to be someone
That I know I don’t see

I’m worried I’m perceived as weak
By people whom I’ll never meet
I know perception isn’t reality
So why’s it seem so real to me?

I toss and turn these thoughts consume
Tear at me til I’m one with my room
Gaze at the moon, with my eyes strained 
I hate how I’ve turned out this way
And I wish I didn’t complain 
And I wish I didn’t fucking complain

Never Ending Battle

made this back in 2024 for a scrapped album, polished it a little but never posted til now. overproduced af cant decide if i love it or hate it

lyrics//
i was in the morgue at the late night
we was smokin trees under the street light
but i could see underneath your lies
i jus got to stare into your eyes
swear i could anticipate my demise
so i cut it off right here
van gogh my fuckin ear
van gogh my fuckin ear

i been surrounded by darkness i feel like i am a black hole
absorbing all of this dark shit, i feel like i am a devil
666 on my star shit, pentagrams linin my bedroom
i was always a darkin, dark kid, on the quiet side how i
went through shit
dont make a sound 
maybe you can hear my gun reloading
im sick of it this whole world and all of its inhabitants
are fucking full of shit
dont hit up my line til youre done wit it

x2

MORGUE (PROD.SWITCHINGFACESAGAIN)

one of my favorite songs I’ve ever written, all the way back in nov 2020, no mixing. trying to clear out my backlog of songs.

lyrics//
i just wanna go to sleep
i've been up for way too long
so i had to let the blood creep
down my skin and into my bedsheets 

on my arms
or down my thigh
i'll grow some horns
or maybe a third eye, oh

cause god knows i'm a monster
inside
crawl under my skin to feel
alright
i just wanna talk to u
for one night
only god knows i'm a monster
inside

Monster

very happy with how this came out :) 

lyrics//
ver1:
dead end street off the blvd of b&a
i never saw you straight but you left so much pain in your place
nowadays i welcome the hate and let it run its course
tho I believe you’re incapable I hope you feel remorse

i'm not saying i'm perfect, but im leagues better than you
never catch me stuck in that same cycle of abuse
i'd break my heart again to rewind time if i could choose
too many scars from that old house, i nearly tied the noose

hook:
i didn't expect that from you
but i wasn't there so i never fucking knew
the extent of the pain you caused our family you're a joke
i hope you never reconnect with the people you love most
i'll play it off all fine cuz i'm conflict avoidant 
spending all your time on shit thats not important
you're moving on again from the family you destroyed and
i'm losing my head tryna wrap it all around this

ver2:
but i'm better now, besides the few drugs i misuse
the best that i can do is cope with the music i produce
i'm staying up all night lettin creativity come through
like you never fucking did, damn i wish i fuckin' knew
always got some excuse but it was all a petty ruse
i'll stay haunted by what you did, man your screws been gettin' loose
something mustve happened to fuck up your worldview (so much)
just admit that you got problems and try to pay your dues

sins of the father (prod. graydawn)

written a while ago but had some fun producing + finally finishing it.

lyrics//
you’re anything but blameless so will you please just make it quick
i don’t do well with all the damage i assess then decide this
whatever place you held inside my mind will no longer exist
instead ill pour all my time and love into some place i hope is it
a safe haven so i can know i didn’t really deserve this shit
just little things i tell myself to keep the bad parts in a grip
and im never gonna let go until i know im safe to freely live 
as a person i can look at and be proud of what he fucking did

you know ive learned so many things from you 
in your absence
months i miss dearly now forever stuck
in the past tense
used to cherish all the times when you 
left me breathless
but i think i more so liked your hands 
as my necklace

so i take this piece of my life where you once hid
as a lesson not to bargain when your mentals blown to bits
and to let go of what’s behind to continue towards bliss
lately ive found more and more reasons to be grateful for my sins

grateful4mysins (prod. pyctur)

More acoustic stuff it’s been fun to write

lyrics//
I look back to the kid I was
I feel bad only because
I blamed it all on myself
Oh I blamed it all on myself

So self centered yet I had no idea
Of the person I was yet meant to be
Social interaction made me feel like a creature
Like an alien, far from reality

I never knew it wasn’t my fault
When I wanted to end it all
Confusion clouded my mind rapidly
Constantly creating yet never happily
Married to the ideas I was meant to have
Too caught up in what ifs and anxiety, I had
No line between my thoughts and being
20 years down the line now I’m finally seeing

Nothing came out to be the way I thought
Nothing came out the way I thought
x2

I’d lay in bed and rot and rot
Thinking is this it?
For months on end but I never forgot
The feeling my mind only seldom crossed:
My being is one of a selfless lot

I had the bottle in my hand.
But the thought of you was stuck in my head.
I put it down and tried to reflect.
That wasn’t my ending and I knew that.

Nothing Came Out the Way I Thought

this one was fun to make

lyrics//
i bet you think of me a lot
i bet you think back and regret 
all the words that werent said
then the looks of such anguish
upon revelation, its a fact
you never truly gave a shit
but i looked past all of that
and upon your cheek i placed a kiss

i really fell so deep in love
i really thought you had my back
everything was goin good
so whyd it end just like that?

you mask yourself too well
i hit this blunt then im castin spells
someway you've created quite the shell
all to peel away after your farewell
id call you an angel but you fell
so far down ill see you in hell
call me the sequel cuz i never sell
never bad timing bitch i do not dwell
doing the most, why my name maxwell
this thc goin straight to my cells
i no longer see any parallels 
between who i was and who i am now, yeah

behind your eyelids am i there?
do i haunt your dreams at night?
did you really think it was fair?
you left yet never was it right

you left yet NEVER was it right
you left yet NEVER was it right
you left yet NEVER was it right
x2

never was it right (prod. branwen)

cover of the boreal crossing by Caramel. really loved the lyricism and i dont normally do covers so here's the first.

his lyrics//
oh my god, i can see it in the snow
fucking blood, i been shot and left to die here alone
i wander lost, in the boreal forests of my home
i've been taught to just take the fucking punches to my face

i see god, oh i know that i'm not safe
fucking demons in the snow they're tracking my scent
what the fuck could i do to make it out
i don't know i guess i'll give up here and rot

we should talk this out, we can fix this
we should stay right here and try to stay warm
baby we could do a lot if we cooperate
it's too damn cold tonight for me to stay safe
you should try to hear me out
i've got a lot to say
girl you're always freaking out
when it's just nothing babe
i'm not gonna leave for clout
i'm fucking here to stay
even if my music pops
i'm gonna stay here

even when i'm dead n gone my soul remains here
sometimes i'm too scared to talk when you're upset with me
i just get too tired at times so i just let it be
even when i'm dead n gone i'll wait up here

the boreal crossing cover (prod. secre x babieyummo)

enjoy my most personal work yet. throats sore but we ball. heavily inspired by scruffpuppie’s song glass museum

lyrics://
When I look at you
All I see is my fate
Staring back at me
Until the thread breaks

When I think of you
I think of all the things 
I’d like to change
I’d like to erase

Regrets as huge as the space
The boxes held in your room
I wish I never stayed
I couldn’t fucking move

So I thought of all the reasons
That I could possibly surmise
To punch your face with my empty eyes
Ever since your touch broke me 
inside.

I remember the darkness lit
Only by the cartoons on the television
I never asked for it
But you didn’t give a shit

All I got is this stain
That I’d like to erase (x2)

Erase

obsessed w/this beat, been loving everything im making lately

lyrics://
right on top the bloodstained tile
inside of my black journal
somewhere within there was the time i was last suicidal
notes of mine read not by
people i had once called mine
feelings that i quite despised
i dont know how i got by

toward me you harbor this grievance
i see it on your obsidian necklace
i once thought myself as fearless
before you fucked up i couldnt of seen it  
towards you i harbor my weakness
i harness it and surpass my ceiling
within my heart ive found it beating
within lost love i couldnt of seen it (not at all)

ive been so sad for a while
i pull out my black n milds
i dont wanna face my problems
so im lighting up old school style
whatever way i figure it out
im not sure if i can make it 
so im rolling up some more 
smoke some gas til i am faded
im faded past myself
j's the only shit that i am facin
my problems only grow
they the last thing from fuckin basic
do my best to manage
with this mj damn theres no replacement
no replacin your love 
so ill smoke some gas til i am faded

faded (mj) [prod. 16kibo]

2good

lyrics://
hook:
she my bow r9 yea i kinda like her kit
do you wanna rock maybe i could rock with this
i cannot believe id fall so quickly for it
cant let you break my heart just like he did

so i give you distance like i know you need
not tryna talk bout love cuz i know itll feed
off of what you bite but the bark's not for me
so imma stay prepared like i always seem

ver1:
for the crash out i hate when youre crashin out
always in the worst way i cant even blame you
he did you so dirty so you gotta be strong now
dont fold just like the laundry i know you dont do
just recover from the damage that ensued

its not worth it to commit, its not worth the lost dues
on the shit i coulda said, the fight--had you not lose
i would do anything to prevent that case
you could burn me to ashes and i still wont lose face

kit++ distance (prod. may3ke)

sweet summer romance brings the fall over again
autumn leaves match with the same color of his skin
not even for a second did i think that this was it
teardrop on the same floor our clothes had once lived

no need for more carnage past the cardiac damage
but now that im all alone i havent found it hard to manage
no stressors in my life nobody tellin me im past this
i could live another life and id still be making music
as a bard or a knight i dont mind whatever role fits
but this time my steel plating it really got done in
these cuts on my abdomen, the wounds werent closin
he stabbed me with such force that the knife is still stuck in

i stabilize what i can, no pullin it out, just gotta tank it
on my reinhardt shit, ill shatter earth before the weed hits
i wanna know everything about her like how she feelin?
i wanna know what happened like how are you dealin?
i wanna know where you go when your ghosts are on your shoulder
n they feed off your depression n they make you so much colder

as a person, i wish you could see the you that i do
i would do whatever i could to trade eyes n see the light through

this tunnel bears a trecherous path but i promise its so worth it
i jus wanna see you happy outta anyone, you truly deserve it
i know you tried your best to see it through but i can tell your hurtin
heal from what you can n i promise ill pick up all the pieces

i want to know everything about her (prod. s0ftskeletons)

i dont got space for no new hoes 
cant settle for nuthin less
only got time for my bros
yeah since they know me da best
finally happy like im so stoked
I think ill live for the rest
walk in this bitch like I’m the goat
i got here on my own two legs
got here on my own two legs
here on my —here on my
nuthin less
im the best-est

i feel as if i somehow grew my wings back
Morningstar lifestyle, Lucifer throwback
‘24 was my worst year and my music really shows that
But I bounce back and rebound, call me my ex
Bitch im in my lagunas blue miata yeah with the top black
Ask me what im on ill tell you always on that weed pack
No time for no love my heart been crushed na I don’t need that
No time for no love my heart been crushed na I don’t need that

notime4nolove (prod. may3ke)

i feel like im outta my mind
way i been happy all the time
high then low like the tide
i cant change na my hands tied
homegrown pack until im fried
i could never fuckin cry
over a whore and that’s on my
love i store, passion my crime
talk your shit bitch you can try
talk your shit bitch you can—

you would never really get it
i wont pry ill jus forget it
i can tell jus from your grimace
care too much about your image
used to pain and so you seek it

all these sins that i inhibit
got cracks formin in my spirit
ash the blunt yea i jus dead it
got me, fucked up, in a minute
where you at? it’s been a minute
this life I really live it
ride with my bro in the civic
clear my mind when my hearts breakin

i just wanna heal from the damage that you caused
baby whats the deal why you actin so alarmed
if only i could steal, your one and only heart
but the damage is too far, your too far gone
2 far gone you’re
2 far gone
x4

2fargone (prod. may3ke)

you tempted me with love that tasted of an apple
i gave into desire but never understood the half of you
i spoiled you with compliments but all was futile
i guess my lifestyle been catchin up for some while

thc just to silence the pain
perhaps ill feel it later today
i rationalize, say as long as it’s safe
but im too paranoid to take a break
crack the blinds fucking everyday 
Im drifting away from my baseline state
I double check the locks just in case
fuck, how did i end up this way?

so ill rot from the inside out and make
an s.o.s of my own remains
with my weakness out on full display
i leave to find a home to stay

promise to create a place in my wake
to honor those ive killed and the creatures ive slayed
to embolden their legacy, keep mine replaced
chisel their names in stone, keep the dates

stay (prod. may3ke)

lyrics://

You were half a bottle down
I bear witness through my windshield
Never came around
When I told you to be careful 
Now you’re spinning out
In the middle of the road
Back of the trunk 
Had hit the telephone pole

I reserved my doubt
As if it’s not your fault
And I tried to talk you down
But your tears never stopped
Rain-soaked asphalt now stained with the tears
Even Heaven had cried over you that year

I wipe my brow and go to drive the kids home
When did I grow up and stop being so cold?
Feel the warmth coat my body from the ac
Barely stop myself from sayin “don’t you see,
I fuckin told you” 
but it’s all a distant memory
Life’s like a dream when you don’t live it fully
Then when my humanity is all but taken from me
I’ll tell you, no one in the world knows the right way to be

So just know this, 
man I hope you coped
At least well enough to stay off the dope
And alcohol and whatever else 
You take cuz you think you’re in hell
Too naïve, you always think you’re right
So I hope the crash haunts your dreams tonight

the crash (prod. wraithontheporch)

remastered this song for this EP

lyrics://

bitch you could pick me apart and break my bones
im still never gon fold on you
im jus tryna see what to do
when im not there, holdin you
got this bowl packed baby take a hit
killin ourselves thats what i call a rip
purp in my lungs when im tryna get lit
white monster drink imma take a sip

i was always there when you were depressed 
and im still never gon go nowhere
but i do wonder what you do
when hes not there, holdin you
got this bowl packed baby take a hit
killin ourselves thats what i call a rip
purp in my lungs when im tryna get lit
white monster drink imma take a sip like

do you even care?
when youre all alone,
am i in your head?
was i ever your home?
do you ever stare? 
will you think of me when im--

bitch im ascending, never defendin cuz i stay on the attack
he broke your mental so bad but id never do you like that
eyes all red like an uchiha spittin fire on the track
after 3 years never thought hed stab you in the back, fuck

but were you ever there?
id always compliment you down to your fuckin hair
you got so many scars n they line up your arms
i got all the time I’d need but I’d never cause alarm

hit my nic stick cuz I don’t need no patch
i’m that exploit that nobody could catch
i’ll kraber yo ass from across the map
then fuck on a bitch so I don’t relapse
if you are the Light then bitch I am the match
we don’t take Ls, our crimes live in our head
white monster my drink before I crash
white monster my drink before I crash

white monster (prod. may3ke)

lyrics://
im tryna be the greatest
but these people they be prayin
on my downfall i aint sayin
i aint been up na they all fakin
pray to god bout your problems cuz im not your fuckin leader
drink away all your problems cuz im not your fuckin tito's
lmk how much you got til your numb and cannot feel it
you been lying to everyone bout the drugs that you been takin
i been tryna earn your trust since your heart stay breakin
i wish it was different but do i truly want that statement?

you told me that with me you feel this different kinda safety
that you dont feel with him so i wonder why you gave the maybe
we couldve fuckin thrived but you dont need me by your side
so i stay distant and detach im too mentally fortified
chamber of reflections you needa do some damn reflectin
i could give less bout my image you stay worried bout the message
i stay cashin in my checks you stay bashin in your head
against the walls that you hate now you gotta separate
ill paint a picture of this person, they wake up everyday
no thought of anything except the pain that they themselves create
you gotta go on your own journey own trials own pain
to even begin to think about whiting out your own mistakes



reflections (prod. panchos)

lyrics://
love is givin them the choice of destruction n trusting them not to
i would give an arm n leg to help you not lose your mental
you got the power to overcome im betting, aint no fan duel
plenty attention to give, now its from a new angle
chose the love you thought you deserved
after he left, you turned to the handle
told you all the things that needed to be heard
knew the come down would be bad, damage substantial
jus tryna do my best im goin up I can’t cancel
base all your thoughts around evidence that’s all circumstantial 

i knew i had feelings moment i opened up the app
for no apparent reason i was just scrollin on the gram
then i seen your texts im like “wtf was that”
tellin me how much you love me when you drunk off of your ass?

all i want is you but i know that i can’t have you
put up my walls again like ive trained myself to do
all i want is you but i know it’ll hurt to my core
it’s crazy how my own feelings don’t excite me no more

I would give you my heart if you promised not to crush it
I would heal my old wounds if by the fire you would dress em
I would give you so much more if I knew that you could trust it
i hate that you need to heal from when you had to settle

im way hyper-vigilante i read into all your texts 
then come up with some answer on what you’ll say next
and i run with the same conclusions i jumped to about my ex
i get betrayed again and again yet still crawl my way back

hurt2mycore (prod. may3ke)

lyrics://
my illnesses comorbid bitch I know I’m too dead
im the illest on the beat i eat it up like my ramen
crying bout your hoe when I could give less of a shit
you’re trauma bonded bro aint no two ways about it

playing with his mind like my name’s eleven 
make em bleed arterial til he 10-67
ill never be no snake let me teach this boy a lesson
now I’m chillin at my crib smokin so my pain lessens

I’m a top tier addict
Smoke the roaches from the ash tray
Give no fucks about who Ashed it
grab my lighter then I flash it
Spark it up before the sun hits
Far enough until I’m faded
fuck no hoes with bad actin
How I lived for fucking years bitch

never fuck a whore if she say she got traction
imma run up on her man’s give myself a fuckin fraction
hyperventilation give him an anxiety reaction
i tried to tell her off but her intellect was lackin
fuck him up so good he got bad capillary action
always ensure i make the most of every interaction
maybe it’s the attraction 
the allure or pure fashion
but i love to look good yea i love the satisfaction
maybe it’s the weed
the drugs or the nicotine
but i love the feelin i get when i can’t feel my feet

bout 4 raws in til im greenin out fast
i never buy shit if i cannot make it last
imma fuckin vampire like i gotta stone mask
make him look both ways don’t get hit by the blast
say i turn a new leaf but just lookin at my past
my leaf been wilted but my growth not unsurpassed
sayin that you’ll change but it’s always half assed
can’t get enough of me bitch i know you down bad
in every fuckin way you stay gettin outclassed
you so untouchable you turnt the whole system caste
counting up this green both the weed and the cash
i stay makin hella heat yea this no overcast
writin lines all week every song a contrast 
with my versatility my fan base stay amassed
im murderin mfs im the nightmare on elm street 
Michael myers stalk his ass, whore or not im still hitting
imma run opps fade out in somers university 
y’all can say your shit but uon really know me
blade in my pocket make him look like voorhees 
i return from it the victor that’s the final scene
running 2 mans like Billy n Stu make her scream 
there’s a devil in my dna call me rosemarys baby

y’all can talk your talk but my life really a movie
x4

ramen (prod. dfaultx)

lyrics://

give it all up, 
no i could never
except for love,
but i cant settle

take my love,
wrote you a letter
will you read it
or let it tether

to your heart,
broken parted
i wanted to mend it but the hurt already started
it alr started

ver1:
i cant tend my injuries when yours are near morbid
i feel so fuckin disregarded n emotionally bombarded
so tired of playin games hows your cognizance so distorted
yet you feel so unsupported aint got no one in your corner
except for me but my helps thwarted
nun your problems ever sorted
so you stay ever guarded
smell the roses pick the orchids
keep the memories deserted
and im not bein sordid
just thinkin of what couldve been
thinkin of the times we spent

(chorus)

ver2:
holed up in my own enclosure
i thought i could not get closer
i said never would i fold here   
fuck your feelings that you hold here

im lost inside the ideas of what used to be us 
trapped within a labrynth of times we were happier

locatin a way towards your heart was a bad idea
i never knew what could happen til it raptured clear

 
FUCK IT UP x3 (what happened here?)
TIL ITS BROKEN 

TAKE MY LOVE x3 (all clear thought disappeared)
I NEED YOU CLOSER 

toyourheart,brokenparted (prod. jolst x garasu)

lyrics://
im arrogant
is that what you think of me?
bitch im hell sent
now im talkin biblically
this sin of wrath inside me it takes over me
and any feelings from my past no longer hold me

too self centered? well let me try to put this lightly:
why would i give a shit about a bitch lower than me?
i will only ever go as far as the plan is letting
but the time for talk got me as far as im gettin
try to run up on me first choice youll be regretting
never care about a hoe that i could be upsetting
im next up, bitch i know im trendsettin
north the only direction that ill ever be headin
i stay ballin out while youre warmin up the benches
throwin up them hands like you tryna send a message
only thing to understand is my fist from how your steppin
this the era of the king, from this cocoon im sheddin
a monarch i become to the home im wreckin


arrogant monarch (prod. michael harrison)

song for my inner child
lyrics://

THOSE 4 WALLS I CALLED MY HOME
NEVER REALLY FELT LIKE ONE AT ALL
STRAIGHT CUTTING IN MY ROOM
WAITING FOR A FUCKING CALL
BUT NO ONE EVER ANSWERED
I WAS SCREAMING TO MY DOLLS

I DONT PLEAD TO HIGHER ORDER I DO MY BEST WITH 
WHAT IVE GOT
FOREVER TRAPPED THESE MEMORIES I WOULD'VE
LIKE TO HAVE FORGOT
IN THIS GLASS HOUSE I FEARED THEM
BUT I WAS STARING IN THE MIRROR	

SHATTERED PIECES I CONDEMNED BUT IT WAS ALL FOR NAUGHT
IF I COULD TELL MY OLD SELF ANYTHING ID SAY ONE THING
DONT EVER TAKE FOR GRANTED THE LIGHT THAT YOU BRING

lightbringer
take all my pain away
lightbringer
i wont criticize a thing
lightbringer
you can make of me
lightbringer
whatever deemed necessary
x2


lightbringer (prod. michael harrison)

nvrchanging (prod. green season)

lyrics://
grabbed him by the throat
not that it was ever asked for
perpetrator stabbed him hell never know
how long the pain will be lastin 
he prayed for it go to
far away so he chose to mask it
to this day he won’t go
down the road where it all happened

he said he was in a relationship
but the perp didn’t care, still tried to tap in
an experience he cannot forget
he thought the pain would be everlasting

the artist was  naïve
yet thought my growth was so stagnant
couldnt catch a time to breathe
i cried til his voice wouldn’t stop cracking 

chokin on his tears he held the pain of his heart n crafted
the best art he’s ever seen yet never felt to the eye attractive
he cannot believe hed blame himself for something so drastic
closed his eyes, chose not to perceive
but certain sounds still make him panic

breathing through the fear, he went back to the place you found him
took him on a long drive until all the memories vanished
forget this life for a while so that he can maybe manage
but the feelings still linger with his mind left just as damaged

the artist (prod. michael harrison)

quality goin up, just a concept/new attempt here

maliketh (prod. green season)

escape | 🦇🏳️‍⚧️ | emo rap and whatever else i feel like making

inspired by sewerperson, lil peep, nine inch nails, xxxtentacion, yeat, bones, n many others

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