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Bellum

       -Momma Couldn't Save Em-

Verse #1

Same story's been told 
But this is something different /
Never wanted the game
Never wanted to enter it/
kept his head in the books
Never look twice /
Never thought about fresh clothes 
And how they look nice :
Never thought by twelve years old 
He'd be book twice/
thought about the good life/
Get up out the hood right/
Take momma out the trap
For good (yeah)
it sounded good right/
But momma couldn't save 'em 
Momma got sick/
Momma had a problem 
That momma couldn't fix/
He was too  young to 
understand the meaning of rip/
R.I.P. but when it sank in 
thats when he had flip/
With  nothing left to faze him/
His momma no longer raise  'em /
His adolescence was hazy/
older brother went crazy /
His lil' brother was gone/
older sister was grown /
So he just left on her own/
His house...no longer home/
Put himself in a zone/
From there he was all alone /

Verse #2

In and out the system/
An orphan with mal intentions /
Didn't care about much
From sleeping on park benches /
To holding cells in the district/
Didn't give fuck
It really didn't make a difference /
Cuz death could come in a instant/
And we not promise tomorrow /
Them quarters he had to borrow /
To get the strip jumping/
It's slow and still pumping /
He knows it ain't nothing /
But shit it's still something /
In time the flip will grow/
And in time this shit will blow/
And if he keeps bringing 
back that hard
He'll triple dough/
But in the mean time /
He need more cash
He's on that green time/
So he grab a gun and mask
And does what seem right/
Stick ups just to get more coke
Raising the beam line/
Now he pushing 40 a shift 
Living his dream life/
Only 16 and he eating 
His whole team right /
But greed takes over soul
He need more cash/
One gun,one blast,one flash /
(blaaah!) and then it's gone fast/

Verse #3

Cold nights in a cell/
A life shatter to hell/
Just imagine a Mac splatter
And an extra ladder can kill/
He knows that's been a minute/
His story is still unfinished /
He knows he got problems
And all the drama he been in /
He's done with a life of bad /
He commits to a pen and pad/
He writes about the struggle
The tribulations he's had /
To overcome on his path /
He thinks about it laughs/
Ain't funny but yet he glad/
It didn't end in a bag /
Or on a table with a toe tag /
It could be over
He knows that/
Though his story is so sad /
When he was young he was so mad/
No momma and no dad/
But he's grown...into man/
And he can't... live in the past /
When the future comes so fast /
His kids is all he has /
His own...fam'ly at last /
He try's...to raise them both
As they raise him to be a dad/
(See) the streets,
they couldn't take em/
The prisons,they couldn't break em/
His momma, she couldn't save em/
His story is so amazing!!!


Momma Couldn't Save 'Em  beat: D.B. Koopa

Chorus
 
Sometimes you got to let it go
Can't hold it in/
At times you gotta let it flow
Can't hold the wind/
Them tears 
just a relic of where you have been/
So when the rain comes down
Don't be holding them in

Verse 1

They say a man ain't suppose to cry
Why??? He suppose to ride
Why??? He just holdin pride
I... I've been told them lies
What do you do when your
Homie's kid's an orphan (ahs)! 
What do you say
When they look at you
With them open eyes
Asking "where daddy at?
If he ever coming back?"
How can you keep ya eyes
Dry when it come to that
Or "when you see mommy
Show her what I drew for her...
Me and mommy
Together forever
Just the two of us!"
Damn...my eyes water
At the thought of it
Trying explain the meaning of death 
Is the hardest shit
And to explain to a child
The worsted part of it
You haven't accepted
The fact they gone
That's some harder shit
(The worst)
But fuck it, they gotta know
And their fear already shows
It appears they already know
And it's tearing ya very soul
They stare making you fold
So them tears You let em go!
So them tears You let em go!

<Chorus>

Verse 2

They say that women are suppose to cry
Why??? Cuz they weak inside
Why??? They don't need to hide
I ...I've been told them lies
How you react when ya daughter
Tell you she wanna dies?
What can tell her when she decided to end her life
You read her diary 
Things get clearer
She writes how she disgusted
When she looks in the mirror
And as you flip thru the pages
You feeling ya heart racing
As you read about how
Uncle (scratch) he use to rape her
Now how the fuck
You deal with that?
You can't conceal the fact
That you knew the truth
And the truth is
You wanna kill these cat
Gotta get it together (huh)
Gotta get her to tell ya (huh)
Everything that happened 
And listen without snapping
She tells you...it's been a awhile
She tells you... that's she's with child
And it's a product of rape
It's too late take it out
Wow...how do you deal
Now that shit is real
This is pain that doesn't heal
So the rain, you let it spill!

<Chorus>


"Let It Go"  by: EsKae

verse 1:

We done weathered the storm/
Cold nights we stayed warm/
Cuz we struggled together/
So we hussle together/
And if we  keep it together/
Then we can get thru whatever/
We stronger then ever/
We argue... whatever/
But then we back at it/
And fucking like jack rabbits/
I'm use to your bad habits/
I know that your asthmatic/
That's why I blow the weed
In ya face
And laugh at it/
Cuz you get maddd
And I'm glad that you do/
Cuz when you angry
It brings out the sexiest you/
You know it's true/
That's why you do/
The little shit that you do/
To see my eyes turn read/
The type of things that you've said/
Girl if it wasn't for the bed/
You'd probably end up dead/
And that excites you/
Set me on fire
just to ignite you/
I liked you/
Since day one
Knew that you was the type to/
Hold a brother down/
You'd never go fuck around/
Though you like to make me jealous
You know I don't fuck around/
I stay with a four pound/
I stay with a few crowns/
I stay with a couple of goons that love to throw rounds/
Ahhhhhhh!!!
You got me hype already/
I don't want to fight already/
I got the Dutche, twisted up
Give me the light already!

Chorus: 
Chill smoke smoke chill
then we chill smoke smoke chill
 chill smoke smoke chill
then we chill smoke smoke chill
sometimes we argue and fight
but we fucking that same night (2xs)

Verse 2:

You love me at my worst
So of course i give you my best/
Something like that purple Exoctic
Feel in my chest/
<Cough>
I need to hit it for the stress/
Not to compare to rest/
But you the best /
From the sex /
To the touch of your flesh/
I feel bless/
And ya ex /
Never really put it down like this/
I put the Christian Grey on you/
The ropes and the chains on you/
I let you play ya games
Then tighten the reigns on you/
Yeah
I get to pushing
You get to pulling
It's on now/
I get the dro
You grab the wood
So it's going down/
Owww
And we do it like animals/
She chew me up
I eat her out
We something like cannibals/
Bite marks scratches
I'm choking on her wind pipe/
A lion vs a tigress
This what it look like/
Incredible/
The taste of your body
Everything edible/
Toss ya to the side
When I'm finished
Look at the work I did/
She rubbing her belly
Smiling bcuz I murdered it/
She be like "fuck you bae
That shit hurteded!"

<Chorus>






Chill-Smoke by: ESKAE beat by: D.B.KOOPA

You's a  bad muthafucka/
Ummmm
You got me rock steady/
Pop Belvy/
Bring it in closer
we gettin hot and heavy/
It's never boring/
You send me to bed yawning/
You Wake me up with the head
Now that's the top of the morning/
I finish 6ing ya 9/
I give you piece of my mind/
The taste is something divine/
This love is one of a kind.

I know she want me/
She taunt me/
Until I take that/
And she the best I ever had
Talking straight facts/
We get to fucking and sucking/
I gots to eat that/
Treat that/
Beat that thing
Until the sheets wet.

<chorus>

verse 2

I'm falling deeper/
This one is different
I'm trying keep her/
She get me angry/
she can't stand me/
I can't leave her/
I need it every day/
Switch positions, every way/
No jurisdiction
We getting it in...in anyway/
We in the bathroom
We in the kitchen
We everywhere/
Ain't no restrictions
I'm feeling ya love anywhere.

I almost missed it:
She viscous/
She got me turnt out/
Got a nigga doing the dishes/
I guess I'm burnt out/
Messing with all of
them lesser bitches
I termed out/
I'm grown
and she showing me things
I never lever learnt about.

<chorus>

Verse3

One and million
We chill-smoke on
That bomb shit/
Ahhh shit/
I feel I'm bout
make her my lone chic/
No bullshitting
No side bitches
Some grown shit/
The throne sits/
Awaiting the queen
She know she own this/
Long dick/
Ain't nothing better
then when she moan yes.

You's a  bad muthafucka/
Ummmm
You got me rock steady/
Pop Belvy/
Bring it in closer
we gettin hot and heavy/
It's never boring/
You send me to bed yawning/
You Wake me up with the head
Now that's the top of the morning/ 
whoah!!!

1 In A Million - EsKae  Beat by: JuicedUp Beats

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