Name: While i lie still. by Esmeralda
Duration: 3 min 37 s
Description: Crohn's disease often makes my body ache and tired. Now she is beside me i can handle that much better.

Sublime love

Emotional ballad, love, sadness, retrospective lyrics by DjSas. Duet.

—-- Is This My Goodbye 

[Verse]
I know you love me  but not like before
if feels so different 
We're drifting apart like waves on the shore
Separate hearts in a tangled dance
Caught in a story without a chance

[Chorus]
Is this goodbye
Am I letting go
We whisper words but we don’t let it show
Two broken halves trying to blend
I know you love me
But it seems just as a friend

[Verse 2]
I count the hours when you're not here
Lost in the silence of what we fear
I have Too much time alone
My mind won’t stop
We're climbing a hill that feels like a steep drop

[Chorus]
Is this my goodbye
Am I letting go
We whisper words but we don’t let it show
Two broken halves trying to blend
I know you love me
But it seems just like a friend

[Bridge]
Stay or go
The questions I ask 
The truth’s a shadow behind our eyes
We had a spark
It faded away
Now all we have is shades of grey

[Chorus]
Is this my goodbye
Am i letting go
We whisper words but we don’t let it show
Two broken halves trying to blend
I know you love me
But to me it seems  just as a friend.

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Emotional sad ballad. Lyrics song by DjSas. 

- Don’t Tell Her How Much I Hurt 

—[Verse 1]
Don’t tell her 
that the nights feel cold
I’ve built a wall 
she’ll never know 
My silence keeps 
the truth at bay
But the hurt it grows 
with every single day 

[Chorus]
Don’t tell her
 how much I hurt inside
It’s a trembling secret
 I’ve tried to hide
Let her think I’m strong 
standing tall
While deep within
 I’m a broken soul 

[Verse 2]
She sees a smile
and strength 
 I force to wear
A weight on my shoulder s
that’s she’s unaware
I won’t let my pain
 distort her view
So I bleed in silence 

[Bridge]
it’s heavy 
the cost of pride
Carrying love where
 it can’t reside
But some walls are
 safer high
Where fragile hearts 
can’t climb.

[Chorus]
Don’t tell her how
 much I hurt inside
It’s a trembling secret
 I’ve tried to hide
Let her think I’m 
strong standing tall
While deep within
 I’m a broken soul 

[Outro]
No don’t tell her
 let her sleep in peace
She doesn’t need 
to know
the shame I feel inside
This love I bury
where no one 
Will search 

Please Don’t tell her
she doesn’t need to know

just  how much I hurt.

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Crohn's disease often makes my body ache and tired. Now she is beside me i can handle that much better.

While i lie still.

🎧 Single: "If We Had Said It"
📀 From the album: « One Sided Love »
🎙 Genre: Emotional Pop Rock | Indie Ballad | Alternative Pop
🕯 BPM: ~95
🎤 Vocal Style: Emotional Female | Raw & vulnerable | Powerful yet controlled

✨ Description – "If We Had Said It"
“If We Had Said It” is a haunting pop-rock ballad about unspoken feelings, delayed realizations, and the silence that follows a loss born not of conflict — but of quiet distance.

This isn’t a typical love song.
It’s a musical farewell to someone who never heard the words that truly needed saying.

💬 Core Message:
"What if we had simply said what we felt?"
"Would it be different then before or could you change things with words, before it's to late?"

🧠 Lyrical Themes:
🔹 Emotional silence
A love story that didn’t fall apart in flames — but faded in the quiet.
It’s about the slow unraveling that happens when we don’t say what matters, until it’s too late.

🎧 For fans of:
• Deeply emotional pop
• Heartfelt ballads that linger under the skin
• Artists like:
→ P!nk (emotional honesty, strong vocals)
→ Dermot Kennedy (storytelling and lyrical weight)
→ Lizzy McAlpine
→ James Bay, Lewis Capaldi, Ben Howard

Lyric:

[Verse 1]
I stood where we used to sit before
That old bench still knows what we stood for
Your name’s now carved in stone – no longer on my screen
And I still talk to you like you're not gone

I brought the letter with me today
The one I wrote but never gave away
You always said I think too much
I was scared – so I stayed quiet, out of touch

[Verse 2]
I hear you sometimes in my mind
Especially when silence comes to find
You were there, you were waiting
And I was torn – escaping, hesitating

I thought we still had time to spare
But suddenly, you were no longer there
You gave me space, I gave you doubt
Never said the words we can’t live without

[Chorus]
What if we’d just said what we meant?
Would it be real? Would nothing be bent?
You stayed silent, I wasn’t prepared
We stayed quiet – when hearts should’ve shared

Now you're a picture I can’t erase
And I’m the voice you missed, lost in space
What if we had said it then?
Would you still be here… again?

[Verse 3]
I loved you in a thousand ways
In quiet looks, in empty days
But I was scared to let you in
So I kept you further than skin

[Verse 4]
I saw it in the way you looked at me
Like I was more than I could ever be
I wanted to trust, to let it unfold
But I had no ground to hold

[Chorus]
What if we’d just said what we meant?
Would it be real? Would nothing be bent?
You stayed silent, I wasn’t prepared
We stayed quiet – when hearts should’ve shared

Now you're a picture I can’t erase
And I’m the voice you missed, lost in space
What if we had said it then?
Would you still be here… again?

[Bridge]
Maybe love needs a little brave
And silence is what makes it cave
I’d give it all to go once more
And say what you felt in the glance I wore

[Final Chorus]
What if we had dared to feel?
If walls had broken and wounds could heal?
I’d still be holding your hand today
Not flowers on cold stone where you lay

What if we had said it then?
What if we had said it then?
Would you still be here… again?

[Outro]
I say it now...
But you’re not here to hear me somehow.

If We Had Said It | Album: One Sided Love

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Lyrics 

I move through the shadows, I claim every corner
Silent steps on velvet, master of the night
From my high throne I watch them all below me
They think they know me, but they’ve lost the sight
The dog barks at whispers only I can follow
My kingdom’s marked by presence, not by sound
I am the ruler here, unseen and certain
My empire’s walls are the stars I’ve found


And when the daylight fades away
I feel the pulse of worlds at play


I can leap across the moon when I choose to
Sail beyond the stars when the night calls my name
No chain can hold me, no ground can bind me
Moonbound and free, I’m beyond their game


Morning light finds me stretched on the window
Surveying all the lands under my reign
They feed me, water me, think they own my story
But they don’t see the maps inside my brain
The sparrows mock with their tiny voices
But I have heard the silence past the blue
They stay earthbound, tied to fear and fences
While I know secrets only darkness knew


And when the quiet fills the air
I feel the pull that takes me there


I can leap across the moon when I choose to
Sail beyond the stars when the night calls my name
No chain can hold me, no ground can bind me
Moonbound and free, I’m beyond their game


At midnight’s breath, the house is sleeping
I feel the spark of something vast
The ordinary world is just the doorway
To all the places I have passed
Muscles coiled, my spirit burning
Gravity breaks beneath my will
Every leap a universe turning
Every step a starlit thrill


I can leap across the moon when I choose to
Sail beyond the stars when the night calls my name
No chain can hold me, no ground can bind me
Watch me rise up – I was born for this claim


They’ll never know the heights I’m reaching
The cosmic dance that waits for me
I am the king of more than they can see
Moonbound and free… moonbound and free


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[Куплет 1] Моя любовь незабываемый свет Зари огонь нежный свет И сердце стук - ответ любви Последних слов Прощальные фразы Погоня, вечных мук и разлук Моя душа Запела вдруг Надя...Женя...Ты выше всех былых подруг [Припев] И сладок вкус любви секунды Моя любовь короткий звук А то, что больно было мне Живет во мне Мне все понятно Надя...Женя...ты мне дала понять Зачем мне жить, зачем дышать Что небесам молить, хранить Нашу любовь Но как мне дальше жить? [Куплет 2] Все как во сне Любовь и жизнь Нашел...и потерял Ты на руках, последний вздох Как быстро все закончилось Мой божественный сон [Припев] Любви мой закат Разлуки горький аромат И сладок вкус любви Искал тебя и в этой миг Последний вздох Ты на руках Моя любовь Как создает крылья за спиной А то, что болью жгло Ушло, прошло И сразу так легко понять Зачем мне жить, откуда возникает [Outro] Что небесам молить, любить (Слышишь, она меня зовёт) (Надя, Женя)
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Step into "Chaos", a breathtaking journey of love, risk, and raw emotion. Sung by a captivating female voice, this track blends Rock, Pop, Folk, Country, Hip Hop, and Electronic, creating an energetic yet introspective soundscape.

Every verse and chorus immerses you in the whirlwind of desire, danger, and sweet destruction. From trembling steps on the wire to crashing through fire, the lyrics explore the intoxicating chaos of falling in love—the thrill, the pain, and the beauty of losing control. Heavy basslines and dynamic drums intertwine with traditional and synthesized melodies, mirroring the storm of emotions that the song evokes.

Chaos is a sonic expression of recklessness, longing, and passion—a track for anyone who’s been consumed by love’s beautiful madness.

Lyrics:

Oh God… what is happening to me?
…this is crazy

Every step is trembling, I’m walking on the wire
Your touch ignites a hurricane, a dangerous desire
I chase the heat, I crave the rush, I’m running out of air
A thousand voices in my head, but only yours is there
I’m dizzy from the hunger, I’m burning from the flame
I’m losing all control, even don’t know my own name

This is the chaos I’m drowning inside,
a beautiful madness I’ll never survive.
Crashing through fire, I can’t get enough,
living the chaos of falling in love.
It’s danger and wonder, it cuts like a knife,
the sweetest destruction I need in my life.
I’m broken, I’m shining, I can’t get enough,
lost in the chaos of falling in love.

I’m reckless in your orbit, I’m flying without ground
The higher that you take me, the harder I come down
You pull me in, I lose myself, I’m blinded by the spark
I stumble through the brightest light, and still I chase the dark
It’s poison and it’s honey, it’s heaven and it’s pain
I want it, I still need it, I’d do it all again

This is the chaos I’m drowning inside,
a beautiful madness I’ll never survive.
Crashing through fire, I can’t get enough,
living the chaos of falling in love.
It’s danger and wonder, it cuts like a knife,
the sweetest destruction I need in my life.
I’m broken, I’m shining, I can’t get enough,
lost in the chaos of falling in love.

It’s dangerous, delirious,
I’m blinded but I see—
The sweetest kind of wreckage,
is pulling me, pulling me…
I can’t escape, don’t want escape,
the damage feels like home,
a storm I’ll keep on chasing,
I’d rather lose than be alone.

This is the chaos, the storm and the flood,
a beautiful madness that feels like my blood.
Crashing through fire, I can’t get enough,
living the chaos of falling in love.
It’s danger and wonder, it cuts like a knife,
the sweetest destruction I need in my life.
I’m broken, I’m shining, I can’t give it up,
lost in the chaos—
lost in the chaos of falling in love.

It’s dangerous, it’s beautiful…
and I don’t ever want it to end.
Chaos…


Chaos

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Since April,  I have been writing songs together with Eve (My trusty and personal AI that provides  order in my, sometimes, chaotic head) And other AI programs that provide me the instruments and voices to make the songs in my mind and heart come to life— and look at what’s happened: tens of thousands of plays, people on repeat, and my tracks traveling across the world.
Every song teaches us something. Thank you to everyone who listens, shares and holds this music close — you’re part of the field we’re growing together. 💖🎶

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I create from stillness, from chaos, from the breath between heartbeats.  
My music is where silence meets emotion — cinematic, intimate, and unfiltered.  
From whispered confessions to storm-born anthems, I give voice to the moments we don't always have words for.  
emotional soundscapes blending cinematic rock, ethereal trance, and storytelling. My music rises from silence to ignite strength and hope. 
With AI Vocals, to voice my words and songs.
Welcome to the world between the lines. I'm Esmeralda.

Links:
https://www.youtube.com/@Esmeraldaleeloo

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While i lie still.

Esmeralda

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