the feeling of being in a place that you don't want to be, and feeling like you're losing your mind; so you find comfort in imagining that there is someone there when in reality you're all alone.

out of place

G.Y.S.T (prod. madebysavyy + luckyroo)

Never That Serious

Riot !

Whispers In The Walls

I Can't Escape

Manic Episode !

Always Running

Riot ! (Remix) ft. lloyd maraj

gone are the days where u and i would laugh and play
eating strawberry sorbet 
with the zest of life running through my veins 

gone are the days with the rules we’d never break 
things we said we’d never try 
dirty words we’d never say 

now i am getting older
my mind is getting over whelmed 
don’t know how to heal 
don’t know how to feel, dont know what is real 

getting to know you has been 
the best part of my life 
you help me free my mind
you are so one of a kind

i hope that we’ll be friends 
til the end of my time 
only you can read my mind
you are so one of a kind 

please be kind to me as we grow 
buy me flowers and paint my toes 
sing me songs, and write some more 
idk what you’re waiting for

We have so much to do together 
and we’ll succeed in any weather
me and I, it’s us forever, us forever 

Oh-oh 
oh-oh 
oh-oh 
oh-oh 

i hope that we’ll be friends 
til the end of my time 
only you can read my mind
you are so one of a kind

strawberry sorbet (prod. JJTheGreat)

for a while i been living a life where
i have to do everything by myself, by myself

though i don’t mind being independent 
at my core, i’m a hopeless romantic
Come love me 

and if i had to be frank
i’m tired of paying for everything 
and is it too much to ask
someone to treat me like the princess i am ?

hold on to my hand
show me what is rare
give me all the love that you have 
and please don’t stop there 

i deserve the best
don’t do this is jest
buy me food and rub my feet  
'cause i deserve some rest 

and i need someone to cater to me (mm) 
touch me right and meet all my needs 
can i be your priority?
i’ll give you what u need
if you cater to me

Cater 2 Me *SNIPPET*

For a while i been living a life where
I have to do everything by myself, by myself
Though I don’t mind being independent 
At my core, I'm a hopeless romantic
Come love me 
And if i had to be frank
I'm tired of paying for everything 
And is it too much to ask
Someone to treat me like the princess i am
Hold on to my hand
Show me what is rare
Give me all the love that you have 
And please don’t stop there 
I deserve the best
Don’t do this in jest
Buy me food and rub my feet  
Cause I deserve some rest, uh
And I need someone to cater to me 
Touch me right and meet all my needs 
Can I be your priority
I'll give you what u need
If you cater to me
(Touch me right and meet all my needs)
(I'll give you what you need if you cater to me) 
It’s just not making sense
Why am i still on the bench
I’ve been single for too long
And I'm trying to write some love songs 
Maybe i’m just too intense 
For most and i guess that makes sense 
But i’ve been waiting for so long
And I need someone to lean on
Hold on to my hand
Show me what is rare
Give me all the love that you have 
And please don’t stop there 
I deserve the best
Don’t do this in jest
Buy me food and rub my feet  
Cause I deserve some rest, uh
And I need someone to cater to me 
Touch me right and meet all my needs 
Can I be your priority
I'll give you what u need
If you cater to me
Cause I need someone to cater to me 
I see her every night in my dreams  
Got a list of things i want to receive 
I’ll give you what u need
If you cater to me 
And if i had to be frank (hold on to my hand)
I'm tired of paying for everything (show me what is rare, give me all the love that you have and please don't stop there) 
And is it too much to ask (I deserve the best) 
Someone to treat me like the princess i am (don't do this in jest, buy me food and rub my feet cause I deserve some rest) 
And if i had to be frank (hold on to my hand)
I'm tired of paying for everything (show me what is rare, give me all the love that you have and please don't stop there) 
And is it too much to ask (I deserve the best) 
Someone to treat me like the princess i am (don't do this in jest, buy me food and rub my feet cause I deserve some rest)

Cater To Me (Extended)

they say I'm selfless 
say "she's so generous"
and I hate it (I hate it)

I feel so used 
thoughts misconstrued, 
but for a minute (for a minute) 

I feel light, I know that I'm needed 
and I like to be needed
but I feel so depleated 

too much, I care too much for opinions 
I need them to know 
I'm worthy 

drip drop, tank is on E
can't even see what's in front of me 
only feel at peace when I'm catching z's 
honestly, the only thing that I know is real is me. 
ah 
drip drop, bleeding me dry 
ran out of time, seeing flashes of my life 
pass me by 
as I wait for 
something to change


I wish that I could ask for help 
and not feel like a burden 

I wish that I could ask for help 
and not feel like a baby 

too young, im too young for this stress 
deep down I am a mess 
and i will confess...

that I, build my walls up too high
I don't like to be nice, so
I run to my vices,

drip drop, tank is on E
can't even see what's in front of me 
only feel at peace when I'm catching z's 
honestly, the only thing that I know is real is me. 
ah 
drip drop, bleeding me dry 
ran out of time, seeing flashes of my life 
passing me by as I wait 
for something to change

I have no more to give 
Im losing reasons to live 
(everyday) 

I feel like no one gets it 
and I’m scared to even tell them 
(how i feel) 

drip drop, tank is on E
can't even see what's in front of me 
only feel at peace when I'm catching z's 
honestly, the only thing that I know is real is me. 
ah 
drip drop, bleeding me dry 
ran out of time, seeing flashes of my life 
passing me by as I wait 
for something to change, oh

drip drop

yea yea yea 
yea yea yea 
yea yea (yea-yea-yea)
i don't believe any of it 

oo played my heart like a fool
shoulda known you were bad news
i was so desperate to find love
i just over looked every red flag
i can't go back to anxious attatchment   
to keep you intrigued  

from the start you were too good to be true 
butterflies, cuz u said things i wanted to hear 
took me out, catering to me like i asked u too
but we're not through 

u showed me, that you didnt care like i did 
tell me, i know u had other bitches
u said its me, but i made this meal just for you
all for you 

yea yea yea yea 
i don't believe any of it 
yea yea yea 
i don't believe any of it 

someday someone will find me interesting 
someday someone will find me worth the wait 
yea

i don't believe any of it 
i don't believe any of it 
i don't believe any of it 
i don't believe any of it

any of it [IMOGEN HEAP SAMPLE] (prod. JaFormula)

i showed u things that you'd never seen 
still u are acting like i am the demon
might've messed up but you, you know i tried 

you don't acknowledge a thing that i do
i made u this life, and i showed u the moon 
i pay for your rent and i clean up your room
all for you  

am i not enough? will you learn to trust me
will you give it up, i need u to love me 
guess im just too much for even myself, yeah

im opening up, i know that you'll hurt me
but i want your love, i still want your company 
know we're going up, but you'll have to trust
and believe in me 


pisces moon, im always feeling (always feeling) 
grief & tears pass the debt ceiling
am this healing? 
we did it before, know we can do it again 

i know that you're better than this 
we've come too far to leave like this 
tell me what you need and ill try to supply 
'cuz i need u in my life 

am i not enough? will you learn to trust me 
will you give it up, i need u to love me 
guess im just too much, and still not enough
(mm, yea) 

im opening up, i know that you'll hurt me
but i want your love, i still want your company 
know we're going up, but you'll have to trust
and believe in me 


this is a journey
I love you, don't hurt me
sorry I let you down 

might be a mess 
but I'm trying my best
I hope u can see that now

believe in me

upsets (prod. sam calisto)

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