Right before he died he said he realized that life was just all a big joke. He was trying to help me out when someone wanted to rob us and he got shot and killed in front of my house. Rest In Peace cuzzin. Ilya Yurchenkov. You didnt hsve to prove nuthen to me. I always new u had my back. It wasnt worth it. It was meant for me.

Life is a Joke (R.I.P Ilya)

No Rehearsal

Arrogance

I have this problem with the way i conversate with ppl. I constantly interpret everything ppl say to me as a double entendre. I attribute a double meaning to everything said and i respond in kind, subliminally. Theres a surface meaning and a hidden meaning behind that. The problem is, the hidden meaning i interpret is usually something negative. Its a constant manifestation of my guilty conscience, from things i attributed blame to myself for, or things im self concious about. Its a constant reminder of my guilt, insecurrities, and fears. I try to prove to myself that the innuendos are unintentional on the other persons behalf by responding with "double talk" but its a bizarre phenomenon that always seems to correspond with any subliminal response i give, causing me to go deeper into the delusion. Then my fears and feelings of being unworthy of life manifest as delusions that people are plotting against me or trying to kill me. 

Im cursed
Multiple perspectives vested in every verse
My temporary cure effecting long term symptoms worse
Releiving my starvation just be increasing the thirst
Accept it as a gift cuz i cant get rid of

My Curse.

My Curse

Senorita

Old skool USS. Throwback from 2007. D
Fall Down by Lucky star featuring S2theD, J-Dirty, Kaliym Shabazz. Produced by S2theD.

Fall Down (Remix)

One of my first productions. Horrible mix but i like to reminisce.
This one features lucky star (houston) on the hook, finesse (atl) on the first verse me SD (frisco) on the second verse, j dirty (atl) on the 3rd verse and Menace (houston) on the last verse. 

One interesting fact about this song, i never met any of the artists on this track in person. This collaboration was organized over the internet. Ha ha. 

Cant Take It (clean)

From the "Undaground Surround Sound: Afterlife Afterparty" mixtape/album.
Produced by S2theD featuring DH (first verse), R.O.B (hook and second verse), and SD on the 3rd verse. Also has a sample from an earlier S2theD Production featuring MC Thunder.

Keeping It Real

Retaliate

Deception

My name is Ess Dee and this is basically a compilation of my works spanning from 2006-presen