not estella:
your voice is my favorite sound
it's hard to say out loud
cuz all i do is think of u
and idk if u think of me 2
read it back when ur not around
so can u tell me now
if im crazy 4 thinkin bout u
can u tell me if ur thinkin it too

@ugly
oh no what im gon do
u leave me stranded bby
n i dont feel some kinda way
but if u leave im holdin it down
and idk if u wanna b around
so ig i could wait n see
what u wanna be
wohqoahowhohoahowhoahoa

am i crazy uh @ugly

i stare at the wall
i think ima fall
there's nothing above me
and there's nothing at all
and something just tells me
that i should leave it all 
i had so much energy
you depleted it all
i stare at the wall
i think ima fall
there's nothing above me
and there's nothing at all
and something just tells me
that i should leave it all 
i had so much energy
you depleted it all
im losing my mind
2 thoughts at a time
can't worry about yours
cuz im too worried bout mine 
i wanna stay young
i hate when i pass the time
just doing some dumb shit
i can't read through the lines
i see all ur lies
i see all ur lies
i see all ur lies
i see all ur lies

rid me of my emotions

i can't help you
but i still care
and i want you
to know im there
and there's no point
if you wont share
i cant think now
nothing stays clear

nothing stays, you want to go
and you think that i dont know
so i just think when im alone
and i can't seem to get these thoughts away

gon end it all like bombs away
just to go get these thoughts away
end it all like bombs away
just to go get these thoughts away

may 2024 i guess

song 1 - https://soundcloud.com/holdmetillicry/u-did-this-2-me
song 2 - https://soundcloud.com/younguglydude/im-lowk-feelin-like-sayori-ah
song 3 - princess by estella (unreleased)
song 4 - https://soundcloud.com/omaaaaaa/this-song-is-not-about
song 5 - https://soundcloud.com/holdmetillicry/i-sped-this-up-cuz-i-hate-my-voice
song 6 - what it feels like to have 85 followers on soundcloud by estella (deleted)

i<3myfriends

[Verse 1]
I don't wanna go nowhere
'Cause you're home to me
You are everywhere
And all I breathe is you
And I only care about us
Two peas in a pod, that's what we are
It's me and you

[Chorus]
You are everything
You are everything

[Verse 2]
I don't care what they have to say
They have no clues to say
It's miscommunicated by the fools who just
Like to hide away behind a screen
With lies that they give away

[Chorus]
It makes me scream
It makеs me scream

cover of no punctuation song by beabadoobee

you don't seem to care
about what i have done wrong
tell me, would you sing along if i made this shit?
i lost my damn spirit
don't think i can take this shit
you tell me where i belong
lalalala
how do you forgive
all that i did to you ?

you don't seem to care.

mixed by @holdmetillicry

i keep on gettin dis mf bread
dgaf what a bitch nga said
talkin on me n im breakin his neck, neck, neck
leavin em dead
i took his ho but i did jus 2 flex
dat ho so ugly she say im da bestt
stomp on his grave idc what it says
bitch im w @holdmetillicry and we vibin correct
bitch im w @claorie1 and we vibin correct
shoot thru da kurtain im live & direct (not a diss)
half of these ngas b loud n wrong
when i talk on the mic i be loud n correct
bitch
u wont kill me dassa bet bet bet bet
bet bet bet bet bet

ato:
I do not see where I’m going ya
These drugs in me too potent ya 
She wan da Molly it’s all for me 
I give her hardly she on her knees 
If we not fucking you better den leave
Broke bitch I do not need her she hoping
I do not want her she coping
Don’t need no coping hoe nor beggar bitch
Ion hear no begging bitch 
You sucked my dick I was down bad 
I left yo ass on read lil bitch 
Top floor and I’m blessing bitch
Yk I pull up wit da clique 
When I’m fucking on you lil bitch 
I wonder if yo man wanna see this shit BITTTCCHHHHH 

LOUD N CORRECT W/ ATO

these songs r complete ass btw compared to what ima post on main soon ion even consider these me anymore

track 1: u were right there demo
check for your text on my phone
its okay youre probably busy to me you can do no wrong
when we talked next to each other did you think i'd make a song?
cosmo wanda u did spells to me -me and her were on the cosmo and wanda ride together at nick-
you invoke just the best in me
my friends say that im cooking really i dont know the recipe
just talkin to you and your friend's enough to break a sweat for me
it's so hard to get it out my brain you were sitting next to me
you were sitting next to me
next to me especially
i wake up and i check my phone
one swipe to check if youre there
you probably think that im awkward when im really really really scared
thanking all my friends because they knew why i was really there
i could write for hours cuz a minute isn't really fair
i put my time aside to watch things that you recommend me
and im asking you for help cuz conversations always end me
and you helped me with my hair wish there was time that you could spend with me
my friends say that im cooking really i dont know the recipe
my friends say that im cooking really i dont know the recipe
i blocked a buncha girls because youd always be the best to me
i dont think i need help because your text to me is therapy
and you were sitting next to me
next to me especially
i wake up and i check my phone
one swipe to check if youre there
you probably think that im awkward when im really really really scared
thanking all my friends because they knew why i was really there
i could write for hours cuz a minute isn't really fair

track 2: just sum thoughts demo
mixed by @holdmetillicry
we both swear that it's nothing
but something that's deep inside me
besides me just tells me like something
is guiding, hiding from feelings i got
maybe it's real and we not
you got me blushin and running home
is that feelings or not
that date ill swear i forgot
my friends get away with it scott free
you smilin when you see me but you frown when it's not me
them two classes on my schedule are when im at peace 
but when i walk up to you suddenly i can't speak or breathe, leave, i got to
all up on ya conscious like pokemon, ive caught you
i ain finna lie, you on mine, i want you
sometimes when we talkin online, i stalk you (just a little bit.)

and just a little bit
but sometimes i get sick of it
and sometimes i just wanna fucking tell you how i feel and shit
and kill this shit
i been waitin to go on some villain shi
and you can be the excuse i need
to fuckin kill and shit (cry)

stories about retired talking stage

ecstasy (SONGWARS)

this song is 5 months old (change my name so you won't see it again)

i just met a little crab
and his name was gerald
he went back into the bath
that he calls his home

im not really one to laugh
but with you i can't not
if i hold you, hold you tight
you won't leave

b/c if the world is gonna end
i wanna be with you
if the world is gonna end
i wanna be with you

he came back, and he had a hat!
off to work he said he was at!
wife and kids at home workin for!
wear america on his back!

then we found out his wife's a whore
she's at home with another crab!
hide the evidence oh crap!
children hush now, don't make a pap!

if the world was gonna end, i'd wanna kill you
if the world was gonna end, i'd wanna kill you

he knows this is his final act
chop his leg but he chopped hers
now he's crawling to her on the floor
yelling profanities, she's a whore
he thinks he'll have the last laugh
but in my pocket i got mustard gas
sorry gerald i defend whores
i watch him die all on the floor

if the world was gonna end, i'd wanna be
almost any fuckin place that doesn't have you
i swear! all you do! is be a bitch
it's fuckin true

i don't know if i can condone
acting like a king on a throne!
but i do it everyday
life in my hands, but ill still say

if the world was gonna end, i wanna be w/ you
if the world was gonna end, i wanna kill you



gerald is a metaphor for me, the story is that i killed myself to stop myself from killing my cheating wife

therefore, the title phrase "i defend whores" is alluding to the fact that my suicide was an act of defense.

sorry gerald i defend whores

if you want my attention
you know how to get it
you know what you're doing

girl you love to start problems
but don't wanna solve em
don't think im forgettin

i do nothing wrong
you tell me that im so wrong
girl im stayin strong
but you just do me so wrong
don't know what to do
been goin on for so long
im like the bottom of your shoe, baby
i get no love

if you want my attention
you know how to get it
i know you been trippin bout that shit oh baby

i know you love to argue
you love what you missin
but im not gon give it to you just yet baby

i got problems i don't know how to solve
you think i figured it out
but i don't have the resolve i swear

i think it's cancer everytime that i cough
you got me paranoid
and there's no filling the void down there

i know that you don't care
i know you think im scared
but i love it when you're not there
it's something that you can't bare

attention slut

love & math

Comets (Perjurer)

coffee !

aint shit to sing about

i dont actually kill or stalk u caught me @holdmetilicry mix

ur a walking ghost :p @holdmetilicry

79! W/ IMAR

mentally ill @holdmetillicry

imokiguesshbu

1. dumb whore :p

3. IT SUX BEING ALIVE ^_^

through it all .

4. what'll you do? :/

2. procrastination >.<

5. keep listening c:

6. in september, you killed me :( (W/ UGLY)

sample is bedroom community by glass beach, amazing song

here it is again
a heart of excitement in the form of a girl who hates her life
as she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom
waiting for answers, wasting time

here it is again
i wish he had substance
wish that you'd notice right from wrong
that does not concern me
im just a lil kid
playing in the snow, having fun

i hope he'll be okay, 'kay
even if you don't notice
but everybody knows he hates his life
that does not concern anyone, it's so sad
they would only care if he takes his life

and as he comes back from school its like a lock on his heart
he's trapped in these walls
he's here for an eternity
then he drops his fucking bag beside him
nobody greets him
he's just standing stupidly
run into his room and the door is locked and shut, not open, nobody ever calls him back
so he'll never leave his bedroom in this bedroom community

a girl who hates her life

he sits on the floor and asks what happened
she begs for more of the drugs they make her happy
what happened

it takes so long for her to realize
he is gone, no longer alive
hold his hand, she holds it so tight
what she did, she knows is not right
go to the witch that started it all
if he's not back by night then ill fall
but it's too late, she risked it all
and now he's gone
for her fun

what happened

he sits on the floor and asks what happened
she begs for more of the drugs they make her happy
what happened

rachel

let me live please (songwars) lmk if yall want this on all plats

baby let me show you life
with me
come get it

don't worry bout other guys
just me
im different

bae if we stop right now
you'll leave me so so sad
you know i want your love
i want it so so bad

baby can you come with me tonight?
just stop
think about it for meee

bae keep me on your mind
lemme love you
baby dont waste no time
never hurt you
girl i would rather die
girl lemme tell u my love suicide
bae i just need you as my ride or die
i need you willing to die
i try my best not to tell any lies
tonight ima shower you in lies
bae i don't know if you do realize
you lookin at a mfkn star
baby gotta look where we are
we at the summit at the top
and these niggas at the bottom
they dont know how to climb that far
baby you the wheels and the engine and the model of my life when you finna let me drive that car
baby lemme do push start
baby lemme get to the bottom of your heart like damn

baby let me show you life
with me
come get it

don't worry bout other guys
just me
im different

bae if we stop right now
you'll leave me so so sad
you know i want your love
i want it so so bad

baby can you come with me tonight?
just stop
think about it for meee

idk wtf this nga beige was sayin jus lock in type shi 

baby let me show you life
with me
come get it

don't worry bout other guys
just me
im different

bae if we stop right now
you'll leave me so so sad
you know i want your love
i want it so so bad

baby can you come with me tonight?
just stop
think about it for meee

COME WITH ME W/ BEIGE PROD STELLA

PRESAVE KEEP HOLDING ON - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/estella10/keep-holding-on-please
<3

get another christmas feat
crayon feat
stupid leech
bitch
jus for a stupid lil "skel clone" to still do the same numbers goddamn that's rich
better call camp on me cuz you know you can't rly do shit without them, bitch
nigga keep moanin on all them tracks n try to talk on me go hop on twitch
nigga better do that shi
without camp you'd lose that shit
you can't show no face round here
kiheir? i'd shoot that bitch
go call yo big bro on me
talk shit and i still ain flinch
keep sayin im worse than u
guess the numbers lie like shit

u can keep talkin dat shi it don matter cuz ain nobody scared of u nigga
how the fuck you get bitched by a nigga name stella and ain nobody there for you nigga
you ain een self prod you can't say you make music cuz don nobody care bout it nigga
if i was kiheir i'd kill myself and nobody'd care bout it nigga

i might have to kill him
teach his ass a lesson
you ain grown a bit in a year u steady stressin
u wannabe keys so damn bad you such a peasant
you should overdose off of your antidepressants

https://988lifeline.org/?utm_source=google&utm_medium=web&utm_campaign=onebox

starsteppastella

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