@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace w/ popularreject (hero)

If theres one thing for certain
Its time 
Time Will kill us all in the end
Death is the only thing thats guaranteed in our lifetimes
And we cant take that for granted
We must embrace it and take it it all in 
Embrace
The end

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

I promise i wont be okay tho
All of the words gettin twisted around and my head is a fuckin tornado
I wanna say how i feel but i promised you thats a promise i cant break tho
When i turn up on the side of the road i just know someones takin my place oh

All these people round me
Make me feel like im a zombie
I cant tell you bout what i see
Cuz the demons gonna haunt me

and they tell me a prodigy
thats something i could mever be
the bright side i could never see
so this gon be the death of me

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

time is nothing but relentless

time is nothing but relentless (santana)

As i fade away
I suffocate
I handle the blade and alleviate
The writhing pain
I felt today
When i found out the eternity of my fate

Im dealt these cards
And i cant get far
My stillborn heart
Will not restart

Take it away from me
Before i hurt myself
Im not too well

baby ur all that i need
when i’m stuck inside my shell
this stupid hell

don’t look back
when you walk away
i’m too far gone
I cant be saved

so tell me what’s real is it all in my head?
did u ever mean anything that you said
heart swellin up cuz it’s fillin with dread
don’t wanna fix it i’ll stop it instead

what is the point if i can’t even have this
it was my fault now it’s lost in the past tense 
i’m bleeding out while ur sitting there laughing
at my expense so i’m just getting blasted

i drink too much it’s a really bad habit
life is a test and i don’t wanna pass it
cant show my pain so i’ll sit here and mask it
even when you took my heart and stabbed it

don’t look at me
when i’m weeping from my sins 
im on my knees
will i sink or will i swim

follow still vanishing

suffocate (still vanishing)

@nothingnowheremusic
@killbreanna

what if it’s too late to go back
if it’s too late i won’t know that
maybe today i can photograph
my own suicide wit da kodak

2g of sticky i roll that
to let out the feelings i hold back
sellin my life it’s on rollback
i don’t ever want my soul back
so

believe me i’m okay
i would never lie to you no
believe me there’s no way
that ima let you walk out the door

stand in the doorway
blocking you from leaving your home
you belong here close to me
don’t you leave me out in the cold

don’t leave me out here to rot
don’t believe me when i say i’m okay truly i’m not
i want you back more than i thought
but now it’s too late for me i could never save you a spot

can’t save that spot for you it’s not mine to be savin
i’m not meant for you my heart is truly vacant
i can’t be there for you cant be your safehaven
i don’t wanna do this i refuse to be complacent

its too late, to save, my sanity
you cant, expect, any change

too late (nothing, nowhere. x kill breanna)

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void yuuuuhhhh


stabbed m e in the back again
everything u said was problematic
never rly cared enough 2 ask me how my day been
bad as shit
every single f unctions automatic 
everytime im smilin just know that i been fakin it

fake shit thats all u ever gave me
u would fuck wit all of my emotions on the daily
baby u were toxic thats all u ever were 2 me
thought that i was tripping but you really did me dirty
i see all the red flags
wish i saw em back then
u can keep my hoodies ion even want em back bitch  
only cared about the bag
all that u was chasin
wish it woulda worked out but that shit was makeshift
i been restless
cant sleep
all this fuckin weight on my chest i cant breathe
and the fuckin way that you left me with ease
made me really feel like im dying in peace
nah

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void

restless II (metlast)

maybe ill wake up and realize its way worse than i thought it was
im sick of time im sick of lies im sick of hearing things from above
the voices that sit in my head been just convincin me to draw the gun
and put a fucking round inside my skull and i just might succumb
to thoughts

what havent i lost
why havent i let my feelings out the box
why havent i let all this shit go
smokin on indo
tryna get rid of the rot takin over my brain

maybe im just fuckin goin insane
maybe im sick of the infinite pain
all of these feelings can never be tamed
never be tamed til im dead in a grave

so what do you take me for?
someone to use and always abuse like 
what are you waitin for?
you lit the fuse left me dead in my shoes and
what are you fakin for?
thought i loved you it was a only a ruse no-
thing to be patient for
ive been accused of the same shit that you do

the same shit you did to me

baby i am not ur enemy
thought youd always be a friend of me
thought youd always have my back til the end of our time but you shot me like kennedy

took the shot like hennesey
now im seeking my serenity
now im seeking my identity cuz

i am nothin but a 
but a

a sack of shit
i did it again oh wait
been killin myself ever since the beginnin im reaching the end of my days

 tell me you played me 
tell me you hate me
tell me like anything

you been blocking me out since the day that i met you im glad that we ended things

so what do you take me for?
tell me right now cuz im gettin real sick of it
what are you waitin for?
im never comin back this is the end of it
what are you fakin for?
you never cared this is why i resented it
nothing to be patient for
you broke my heart and i cant reassemble it

divine (santana)

prod. etchmygrave, no samples <3
@breckenford

dont leave me alone here
i dont know what you see here

so i try and i try just to make you remember
the way that you left me alone in september
drink on my own ima drink til december
wont pick up the phone no i wont ever answer

so please let me go
i dont need you no more

say what you want cuz i wont ever listen
my body cant go on i cant make the distance
i cant tell my rights from my lefts whats the difference
if you were to stay or just leave in a minute

i wont admit it
ive reached my limit
ive reached the end of my life whens the next one
cant bear to look in your eyes since i messed up

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell
i hope that ur resting well

i hope that we meet again
cuz i been trapped inside this cell
and i cant break myself out

[FøRD:]

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

i cant tell you what I want in my life no more
telling the truth I think it’s time to cut the cord
deathly afraid of heartbreak cuz i can’t afford
anymore time with a girl who only ignores
so what do I do? Stick to my lonely
substance abuse “I don’t need you”, not what you told me

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back

i hope that we meet again w/ brecken

shoutout to @kennyorlando for helping me finish this <3


[safeatlast:]
so cold
waiting for sum1 to hold
me as i try to get warm
get me away from the snow
at least thats how i used to feel

take me back to winters in toronto
take me back to drowning every minute in the bottle
take me to when i could be proud of myself oh
take me back to feeling sumthin other than the sorrow

AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

[Kenny Orlando:]
i wish it was easier than following my heart
cause its given me nothing but nightmares and problems
one minute im drowning 
the next second im all in
im sinking 
im falling 
right down to
the bottom
take me back to the time 
where we were doing fine 
both of us 
where the love was 
can you take me back to the city
where everything felt so pretty 
AND I HATE THAT EVERYTHING’S BROKEN
WISH I COULD TAKE BACK 
AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT 
THE DAYS PASS
ITS KILLING ME 
FILLING ME 
WITH THIS COLD AND DARK HOLLOWNESS

[safeatlast:]
AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

fall apart

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

prod. by @thesoundofgivingup and @etchmygrave

im not the person u used to know
im sry im unusual
dont tell me that ur sorry girl im sorry cuz im used to those

i been nothin but delusional
im waiting for my funeral
cuz everytime i hear ur voice its drowned out by a song that goes
wooooahhhhhh
wooooahhhhhh

im fuckin sick of this everyday cycle
they left me 2 bleed but my organs arent vital
theyll drown out my screams with the sounds of recitals
cuz i am just another kid that claims theyre suicidal

a suit and tie is suitable to transfer to the other side
there is not a glimpse of hatred comin from my tired eyes
i cant even think straight cuz im riddled with a tired mind
kick me to the curb im tired of bein on the sidelines

static
stand still lock on scope automatic
take out my soul wit a blade to the back and
just end all my habits when you come in slashin
im not comin back to the past where i left you behind
end it all when i pull out the knife
pray to god at the end of the line
pray to god this the end of my life

static

[yung cray]:

you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

and I promise I will call you back when the time is right
but right now nothings going my way and I'm stuck inside my head
and I’m a poltergeist walk thru the night, the days here I am scared
and I don't wanna fix myself I lay up in my grave and rest


you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

[safeatlast]:

i try my best to conquer my fears
but i get depressed by all of my peers
i cant stand to look in the mirror
cuz everytime i do im reminded bout the fact that ur not-

breathing
not been good at succeeding
why am i never leading

...the war against myself
im trapped in someone elses shell
how could i ever end up well

leaving
the place i reside is deceiving
... can i be somewhere else

[yung cray]:


you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

and I promise I will call you back when the time is right
but right now nothings going my way and I'm stuck inside my head
and I’m a poltergeist walk thru the night, the days here I am scared
and I don't wanna fix myself I lay up in my grave and rest


you say that I need help
idk how to reach out
the voices in my head they get too loud
but can you really turn my life around?

deceiving w/ yung cray

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

can we still be us

can we still be us (secre x heyrick)

tell me what u want
where u goin in the nighttime?
wakin up late wit nobody by my right side
pourin up drank just to make it til the sunrise
dont know what to say i aint nun more than tongue tied

took a couple grams i aint a bitch
faces fade away so take a pic
feelings never stay so take a hit
think i took too much i gotta sit

think i took too much im steady sippin
fiji water on me bitch im drippin 
grab ahold of me my hand is slippin
off the edge im boutta see the endin

i dont wanna waste another day
dont know how much more that i can take
stayin sober sayin im cliche
had to care i had to find a way to

battle
bottles
whippin murceilagos

in fh5 i aint makin shit on distro

rattled
thoughts roll
into da mental

take my life wit a blade to da wrist hoe

takin flows from songs ill drop tomorrow
sittin in the bottom of the barrel
drownin in this stupid fuckin sorrow
never trustin next time ill be careful

 bring it back in  
got an o-z rolled up in the nightstand 
you dont know me you aint ever met my best friend
c-h-l-o-e thats my right hand
swear that mf got my back when
rollin down the window caughtchu lackin
up the k n we get straight to blastin
camera lights  we cant forget the action

soberr_24

soberr_24 (secre x flesh)

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

prod me
guitar by me <3

restless in these sheets
the nightmares scare away the dreams
“if i could only have a chance to run away from everything”

but would i take it?
this is everything i know

i stay amongst the thieves
that took my life away from me
if i could only take a second of your time to let me breathe

but i cant save this
i can never feel like home.

practice what you preach
youre taking it
way too far to bring
a fraction of what the
world turned out to be
back to ashes 
avoid my company

chapter III: avoid my company

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

you say that you missed me i cant even get a second of ur time
were you even listening when i told you half a million times

that ive been flying
floating
falling fast for you
wait for me i cant let go
when did
every   
second 
with you
feel like minutes
we died so slow 

dont look down take my hand
ill keep u safe give me a chance
i dont want you to wake up alone

please step back from the ledge
youre everything that i regret
but i still wanna be your home

got a lotta pain in me
i can feel the end coming
every days the same old thing
every single song i sing

doesnt have a meaning i
think im running out of time
i can see the stars align
i can see the stars align

everything that i regret

everything that i regret (king theta)

prod. jascoebeats
@beeanieboyy

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it
 
baby u can break me
and tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that 

blunt smoke trees fade
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

look at my wrist
look at the time
i gotta run
look at my fit
all black ripped jeans thats whats up
fuck what you told me thats bull shit

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it

baby u can break me
tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that

blunt smoke trees fade 
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

beanie - shadow (etchmygrave cover)

let me go don't follow me down that road
life's a joke, won't you eat me and take out my soul
left me bleeding when i needed you the most
nothing but pure hatred is overwhelming me head to my toes

what's the point of taking a step if it's ten steps backwards?
what's the point of moving along if i'm still gon miss her?
every morning i cough up blood i'm just getting sicker
so put the fuckin gun to my skull and just pull the trigger

20 fucking years and ive been nauseous every month of it
i can't get ahead oh no i can not get in front of it
swear i took too much cuz i don't even know my tolerance
"i can't tell the truth i promise you i've been avoiding it"

take what's left of me
(take my tired soul)
remove my sanity
(leave me all alone)
everything i need's
(cut down to the bone)
been torn away from me
(rotting out this home)

take my tired soul
leave me all alone
cut down to the bone
rotting out this home

take my tired soul (still vanishing)

@killedmyself

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

all my life i felt worthless
i took my heart and i purged it
never comin up to the surface

thought that you would be worth it
i thought that you was perfect
tell me what'd i do to deserve this?

take me back,
take me back to the real world
take me back,
take me back to when i couldn't feel

rip my heart straight from my ribcage
i've been led astray from the good place
i've ran out of luck where did my good days go
the place in which i reside no longer feels like home

20 years have caught up wit me n jus fucked up my mental
tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental

20 years have caught up wit me n they fucked up my mental
she tellin' me she in love wit me but she ain't ever do no sentimental
amphetamines have caused cavities to just rot out in my dental
all my life i felt worthless can somebody tell me what i'm meant for?

real world

real world (killedmyself)

all of my friends find my presence alarming
and momma im sorry i cant stop self harming
baby im sorry im not ur prince charming
all i haves bad luck my name isnt charlie

is it 2 much just 2 ask for a litle bit of help 
im dying alone on the floor!
is it 2 much just 2 ask for a pick me up
 somebody loan me a heart of my own

im afraid mines been taken
away to a place where theyre no longer vacant
all thats left is self hatred for me
wont you break down my skull in the pavement

mama I'm sorry
I hope you don't find this alarming
I'm a joker
she's harley
but that girl is fake like a barbie

won't be here in the morning
I pour out my feelings and stop the recording
if I get found dead they'd be awfully supportive
I had a plan but this missions aborted
mission failed

we'll get em next time
(rest of the lyrics later xD I'm at work 😢)

mission failed ft. popularreject (king theta x etchmygrave)


i aint ever ask for help naw im pickin myself up
i aint ever ask for handouts do this on my own im gettin get my paystubs
workin just so i can take my pretty girl to all these places
i aint make a whole lot but its bout the memories that we makin

baby fuck the location
how many times i gotta say this
long as im in your presence i dont care where we take this

smoke sessions at the park
breaking down in the car
we aint got a whole lot in common but im following my heart
for once

listening to my gut
intuitions never failed me before i found escapes and had to run
yeah i had to run away
had to get out of that place
and i did it just in time to fall in love with your pretty face


but i fucked it up
vision went black now im wakin up
looked down saw my hands covered in blood
and my body cold in the tub

gory sight to behold
when the corpse is your own
i had so much to live for so why did i fold?

why did i take myself out of existence
maybe i just needed help i couldnt ask for assistance
everybody tried to reach out all my friends stayed persistent
but i never take any handouts god im such a fucking idiot

static pt. 2 (never,forever)

do u even remember the shit u did to me?
was it worth it tell me now were left to history
tried to tell myself there aint a point in fixin me
maybe i was the problem from the begining

close your eyes
and cover your ears
hide your mind
from all of your peers
youll survive
just swallow your fear 
youll survive
i promise my dear

pause my life
by the end of this year
plz cauterize
the ducts for my tears 
no longer cry
i swallow my fear
until i die
oh i hope that its near
 
god i hope that its this week 
if i were to go would my friends even miss me?
ill carve out my eyes with a knife please dont tempt me
i wont tell you twice that you cant fucking fix me

every night
i sob in these sheets
i cant take it
god im so weak
who am i
this vessel aint me
ill leave it vacant
like you left me

close your eyes
and cover your ears
hide your mind
from all of your peers
youll survive
just swallow your fear 
youll survive
i promise my dear

pause my life
by the end of this year
plz cauterize
the ducts for my tears
no longer cry
i swallow my fear
until i die
oh i hope that its near

i miss autumn

swallow your fear

swallow your fear (neverforever x etchmygrave)

as the trees decay and their color fades
ill stop reminiscing yesterdays
baby take me somewhere keep me safe
if you hate me say it to my face

i tried my best n fucked it all up
will u be there for me when im all done
ill shatter my veins and drain all my blood
just to keep you safe is that good enough

is that good enough for you
ill try oh i always do
why do i try for you
baby id die for you 

i feel ugly dont u dare to even look at me
im addicted to ur touch like it was nicotine
i could never find another soul to care for me
this a long n winding road plz tread it carefullly

i tried my best n fucked it all up
will u be there for me when im all done
ill shatter my veins and drain all my blood
just to keep you safe is that good enough

is that good enough for you
ill try oh i always do
why do i try for you
baby id die for you

ⁱ ᵗʳⁱᵉᵈ ᵐʸ ᵇᵉˢᵗ ⁿ ᶠᵘᶜᵏᵉᵈ ⁱᵗ ᵃˡˡ ᵘᵖ
ʷⁱˡˡ ᵘ ᵇᵉ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ᶠᵒʳ ᵐᵉ ʷʰᵉⁿ ⁱᵐ ᵃˡˡ ᵈᵒⁿᵉ
ⁱˡˡ ˢʰᵃᵗᵗᵉʳ ᵐʸ ᵛᵉⁱⁿˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵈʳᵃⁱⁿ ᵃˡˡ ᵐʸ ᵇˡᵒᵒᵈ
ʲᵘˢᵗ ᵗᵒ ᵏᵉᵉᵖ ʸᵒᵘ ˢᵃᶠᵉ ⁱˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵉⁿᵒᵘᵍʰ

is that good enough?

is that good enough (secre x jolst)

i'm not the same person I was before
I went from choking on my words to choking back fireball
I think I'm better underneath the floor
I went from struggling to breathe to not needing air at all

why am I suicidal
I been doing good but everything is to die for
“oh but ur so delightful”
but I'm hiding under a mask wit tears in my eyeballs

if you leave at the first chance
believe me girl I understand
one more time baby take my hand
please let me have at least more dance

sorry if I've been sour
decaying more by the hour
please bury me in the garden
let me rot away with the flowers

let me fade away without a second thought
I still decay as I choose to rot
I should be grateful for what I got
but I'm so worried about everything that I'm not 

swear to God I can't think for myself I need ur opinion
sorry that I've been distant
I don't know how to fix it

swear to God that I'll never be good enough I'm never consistent
I appreciate your persistence
but truthfully you're wasting your time

if you leave at the first chance
believe me girl I understand
one more time baby take my hand
please let me have at least more dance

sorry if I've been sour
decaying more by the hour
please bury me in the garden
let me rot away with the flowers



let me roat away with the flowers

let me rot away with the flowers (yunnygoldz)

@drowna

if they examined my brain
they'd only find traces of you
if you could feel my pain
you wouldn't know what to do
you tore apart my veins
you left me black and blue
you couldn't live a day
walking in my shoes

take a step down my path
see what the other side sees
what happens to a fragile heart
when you cut it til it bleeds
oh god what have you done to me
you never listened to my screams
turns out you're not a friend of me
turns out you're just the enemy

I think I'd be more useful if I fucking ran away
nobody knows me here nobody calls me by my name
I'm another lonely stranger with an empty gaze
ain't nobody care about an unfamiliar face

I've been stranded walking thru an unfamiliar place
every single memory I have is turning grey
there's no feelings when I wake up feel my body decay
when I inevitably kill myself you'll etch my grave

stackin problems i got an abundance
im too high no i cant even function
why you makin a scene outta nothin
you say that youre leavin i say that ur bluffin

i been coughin up black its disgusting
hit this beat like im opium bumpin
hit this weed classified what im puffin
saudi aramco i aint goin public

holup wait a minute lemme talk my shit
tune up tune in too good to miss
i aint ever puttin trust into another again
aint a one legit they all fake as shit 

and ive said i wanna die since i was a kid
but nobody listened to me cuz its all in my head
i was raised to suck it up because it doesnt exist
what will everybody think when im fucking dead

unfamiliar (drowna x etchmygrave)

one take

first snowfall covers bodies on the battlefield
just another soldier to the country that you're fighting for
you had never meant anything to the federal
you had never meant anything to the whole world

isn't that the reason why you joined in the first place
thought that you would find yourself or maybe find a purpose
now you've lost the closest ones to you in the service
they're the only family you had now ur worthless again

lost every friend
watched them get ambushed by other humans
hard to tell if they're real
"how could anybody do this?"
you're the same person as them, are you stupid?

breathe
you should breathe a little bit 
re:
recollect your thoughts before you sip
from the canteen on your brothers hip
he doesn't need it now that hes limp
feed on the blood of the innocent
you think you're so fuckin different

do you remember the screams?
when they were beggin for medical
and all that you did was just fucking sit down make a wish to the gods you were back at home

no fucking responsibility
this was your fault in the end
you couldn't save any one of your squad cuz of you they all ended up dead

tell me was this all worth it
just to save yourself
did you know you'd be a burden
in the end you'll be rotting in hell
you couldn't be a servant
you couldn't even help
tell me was this all worth it
just to save urself

amongst all these corpses, i can no longer tell friend from foe

amongst all these corpses, i can no longer tell friend from foe (neverforever)

i cant remember prod, my apologies reach out if u know <33

it started out in the trailer park
3 bed 2 bath and a rundown car i got
5 brothers that i love with my heart
even if we don't get along or they move far well that

one goes for myself too
tried to run away from home just to see something new and got
punished by whatever powers above oh i shouldn't have run
i shouldn't have run

but it is what it is cuz i tried my best and i learned my lesson
and i'm glad that i did what i did if i wouldn't have left would've never invested
in myself or the art that i make i just made a mistake off of first impressions
don't judge a book by its face you should flip through the pages and read the description

now i'm sittin in a different trailer park
2 bed 1 bath and no fuckin car i got
bruised feelings and a broken heart
but at least i got you it was worth it from the start and ima
get recognized because of my art
"my songs are repetitive" so's the top of the charts oh

2 years ago they said that i could never be something
100k plays later and i'm still nothin
i can barely keep a job or dinner in my stomach
but at least for once i'm happy and i feel sumthin

and it is what it is cuz i tried my best and i learned my lesson
and i'm glad that i did what i did if i wouldn't have left would've never invested
in myself or the art that i make i just made a mistake off of first impressions
don't judge a book by its face you should flip through the pages and read the description

first impressions

@tiedforsilver

keep that same energy when they know my name
how does everybody feel when you sound the same?
another whole year but nothing's changed
and every single day is the same damned thing

keep that same energy when they know my name
love to talk but you don't walk the walk
how does everybody feel when you sound the same?

another year but nothing's changed
every day is the same damned thing
who am I to run away?
I know that im deranged

don't look the other way
you made your choice to stay
I'll give u sumthin u can wrap ur head around
you would never even make it past the house

stay up late take an eighth to the face
cuz it's just another day I don't really wanna wake up
stuck in my ways and I self deprecate
underappreciate everything that I'm made of

pillowcases are drenched in your makeup
were you only in it for the paystub?
let me reiterate, repeat myself, I'm so fucking upset and I don't wanna wake up
oh my god was u rly that fake bruh?
u ain't mean a damn thing, that was fake love
let me depreciate killing myself I'm so fucking upset and I might waste away

reiterate

reiterate (tiedforsilver)

god i feel so rundown
pick me up off the cold ground
freezin out when the sundown
need a hand but noones around

god i feel so tortured
maybe i should have warned her
im fucked up
and i cant trust
but ill try my best for her 

i blackout when i drink too much
i pass out when i need your love
i blackout if i think too much
id rather die than lose your touch

touch

touch (neverforever)

thank you everyone for being here, goodbye.

they told me to talk about my feelings so I let it out on this beat
no emotions when you text me what's the point of keeping this neat
you're a bandage to a gunshot wound you might as well lemme bleed
did you always intend to bite the hand from which you feed

regulated nightmares when they put my ass to sleep yet
everything around me starts to wither as I dream
every day gets shorter or is that just what I think?
every face is distorted and they're strangers to me

I don't know my friends and at this point can't recognize a face
wonder if they'll ever start to notice that I'm not the same
6 grams to the brain, tell myself it'll be okay

drink my blood since
you love the taste
I slit my wrists
and I count the days

22 years and I'm still fucking hollow
I don't like today but I don't wanna see tomorrow
I wish I was back to sucking down on the bottle
I wish I could figure out the least of my problems

tell me where to go
I just need some fucking guidance
lead me down the road
and I'll take point against the violence 

throw me in a hole
cuz I don't think that deserve better
I can't help myself
so how could I ever let her

red stained cardigan
blood on my sweater
god i love this girl too much i wish i never met her
red on the paper
blood stained letters
how could i ever regret a thing that i said to her

they told me to talk about my feelings so I let it out on this beat
no emotions when you text me what's the point of keeping this neat
you're a bandage to a gunshot wound you might as well lemme bleed
did you always intend to bite the hand from which you feed

regulated nightmares when they put my ass to sleep yet
everything around me starts to wither as I dream
every day gets shorter or is that just what I think?
every face is distorted and they're strangers to me

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