What's up guys, I know its been a while since i dropped a new mix. Recently I have been battling some new found mental health Challenges and I turned to the only outlet I knew. With this mix I have included many songs that have been on repeat for me helping me get through my battle. Ultimately I felt alone with no one to turn to. I give to my listeners this mix to Listen to... if you feel alone.

Listen If You Feel Alone Ultra Feels Mix

An edit Kamaloscope and I made for touring with shrek rave. Hope you like it!

Behemoth vs Duloc (kamaloscope x Eternal Equinox mashup )

STORY TIME!!!  please read.
 
In the quest for love anew, my latest mix is poised to grace SoundCloud, offering solace to eager ears.
For those who’ve journeyed with me, you understand the intervals between my releases. Each track is a labor of love, an intricate blend born from the fragments of my own existence.

This mix is a symphony inspired by the process of rebuilding after life’s upheavals. Despite a year marked by success, the toll on my family was steep. Music took precedence, and in the pursuit of ambition, I inadvertently let go of my role as a father and partner.

One Crucial Song to this whole mix is "Hate Me" - Two friends ft Billy Lockett (Sadbois Remix). When everything was falling apart at home after my tour with shrek rave/bikini bottom rave, I found myself in a deep depression. It was a dark time I was angry at so much, but more than that I was angry at my partner for wanting to be done with me.

She was the pillar in the relationship, she always made everything feel ok, always held it down, always had the answers. But when I was putting music and the party life before her and our two beautiful children she started to break down. I failed at seeing how much she was suffering with the weight of two parents responsibilities along with her own career and masters program. 

I became so angry that I became abusive, I just wanted the world to burn if It meant that I couldn't have her. I became someone that I wanted her to hate. Because if she would hate me it would make sense for her to leave. It would somehow make it easier for me to move on. I now realize that I couldn't have been further from the truth 

Since April, I’ve been reconstructing the remnants of my life, grappling with the consequences of misplaced priorities. A successful year for me meant her shouldering the weight of both parental roles, leaving me with a hollow ache of remorse.

The past remains immutable, but the future is a canvas waiting to be painted. Now I just find my self asking,  “Can we find love again?”

Thank you for reading this! I hope this mix helps you through your endeavors :)

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