Oh no, did I get too close
Ship's afloat cause' my lips stay closed
Mind's occupied and I can barely think
Heaven knows that I need to find a place to

Fade
Far away like wishes in a well
To yourself cause' time will never tell
Far away like wishes in a well
To yourself cause' time will never tell

If you could know what I've held inside
The animal in this noah's ark of mine
Locked every door and swallowed every key
Heaven knows that I need to find a place to

Caught myself bleeding and it's awful, it's awful
Arteries on display, and it's awful, it's awful
Why does it feel like I'm pulling teeth
This bulletproof vest doesn't work for me
I need an answer, I need to breathe
Heaven knows I need a place to

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demo 2020 mp3

Fade

demo 2022 mp3

Dress (nomu cover)

I had to think
I had to crawl
I had to follow
To lose it all

I had to cry, I had to ball
I had to listen
to lose it all

Bleed me out and make it hurt
my medications barely work
broken record's all I heard
underwater is all I deserve

Held me down and make me choke, quick from blue to comatose
Another summer to fall, I've never felt so far
Another new hell, but I'm trying now.

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SevenFour

I was sitting in his car and it was getting late
He had too much to drink, and I had too much to think
He had a smile on his face, and I was filled with so much shame
And then we met eyes, and our fingers interlaced

And I wanted to say, but I couldn't
And I wanted to stay, but I couldn't
So I told him

Nothing ever lasts forever
No such things as ever after
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
When every lie's a better story
No such things as story endings
The ghost of me has left the building
I'm cursed to be my only zombie
Eat my heart to stop the bleeding

So he drove me home, and I hid my face
Cause' my eyes were red from crying over this feeling I just can't place
We pulled into my driveway and he gave me once last glance
And I looked at him and knew that he was giving me once last chance

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The Ghost of Me

ordinary

Produced by buffalobang

buffalobang:
Crush me baby, betray me
I don't even blame you at this point
There's clear signs of agony
If you're so sorry, then don't do that shit times two
Don't still care how dumb you think I am
I'll always circle back to you

Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?
Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?

spira me:
Depression
Got crushed under the pressure
Punished by the only one I ever thought was precious
Watch you turn your back on me before I got the message
Searching for a reason for this curse that I am blessed with
A broken rapper
Got drugs under the mattress
All this shit you said behind my back, it had me laughing
Tear me apart one of these days I swear I've had it
Go ahead and break my neck while you're at it

buffalobang:
Crush me baby, betray me
I don't even blame you at this point
There's clear signs of agony
If you're so sorry, then don't do that shit times two
Don't still care how dumb you think I am
I'll always circle back to you

Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?
Pieces never fall like we had hoped them to
Crumble into ashes when I think of you
Must be bad huh?

Circle Back

Well If You Want Me

nite

prod. by dararara
https://www.youtube.com/@bydararara2347

i dont really wanna do this right now
im in my head, you've been telling me to pipe down
but baby
i been losing it, no loser but im feeling it
you tell me
keep on losing it, you find happiness in my pain
yeah its a rainy day
i cant win you anyway
im looking at you kissing him, my world is really turning gray
i finally reached the top of building looking at the ground
theres no turning back now
i think i rather be dead
theres bullets in my head, 
i think im losing it
find happiness up in my bed,
i think im losing it
depression is taking control
its been up on a roll, am i dead i dont know
i think im losing

dararara -
'Cause i need your hands around me
Gotta feel your dance around me
What you say, what you want 
Yea i listen
I don't care if it ends
Yea i listen x2

telling me you're gone
you just did me wrong
two years and im still tearing up writing on this song
girl its been so long
im still telling my mom
that u were my fate and i was gonna marry you 
forever, its better like this
no matter how hard it gets
im dying to forget
cause this is the end
and its been for a while
i just want u to smile
least we ended in style

dararara -
'Cause i need your hands around me
Gotta feel your dance around me
What you say, what you want 
Yea i listen
I don't care if it ends
Yea i listen x2

losin myself w/ dararara

lazer! w/ endofworld

@kwuzi
@endofworld 
@wavygvbe

kwuzi:
bby shawty ya u ma lif line
i mite go hom bby ya i mite die
big 808 ya we mite ride
fall n luh or not ya we 2 fly
endofworld n kwuzi ya we hittin on da beat
throwin all dat dirt bby don affect me
pointn all dem fax ya jus lik a lazer beam

endofworld:
2nite i missn u, jus lik da bus dat passd me cuz i wus late
2 go nto work, bby i ben feeln cursed, cuz u don kno ur worth
u r brighter den da sun, i think u r da 1
its da endoftheworld kep ur pictur n ma locket
hav u on da speed dial, phon within ma pocket
gettn all dis work, lik im workn n an office
shinin lik a lazer, flyin lik a rocket

no, bby u can try me, lazer on da eye beam
c u rite beside me, luh it wen u smilin
no, bby u can try me, lazer on da eye beam
c u rite beside me, luh it wen u smilin

ya, ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
lazer on a eye beam, cya rite beside me

kwuzi:
ya i c u rite beside me, ya i c u rite beside me
ya i c u rite beside me

Well If You Want Me

stillscared

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