And I don’t wanna talk about love anymore
'Cause it’s getting too much for me
All I do is waste and decline, waiting for that age of my life
When I'm old and love is all that I’ll need

Swaying in the lamplight in my mother’s white gown
Holding out like a dog they’ve yet to put down
I whore out my tears and just keep wasting the best of my years
Like a beauty queen with eyes bleared

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see ?
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

I don’t wanna be in my house anymore
'Cause it just makes me sad
Letting in the wild with every man who brings a world of hurt
With him each time he falls in my bed

Do you just want my blood?
Am I just that damn hard to love?
'Cause it feels like all I have is still just not enough
I guess that I'll just go outside
And watch the fire and fields of gold fly farther away from me

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love turned out to be

But one of these days, it’ll come right back
I’ll love myself and I’ll tell myself that
I don’t have to wait to be happy when I’m old
And one of these days, I'll find a way
To fight the waves, embrace the pain
And paint the ages a hundred shades of gold


And I have found a way, I forgot the way
I’m on my way, I’m on my way
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I’ll be coming along
I’m coming along, I’ll be coming along
I’ll be coming along, I’ll be coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along
I'll be coming, coming for you
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I'll be coming along, coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along

Ethel Cain ~ Golden Age (Piano Version)

A Lullaby for Judas - White Silas

Darlin' do you see the fright?
I'm holdin' on so tight
I close my eyes in spite
Of the fact I can't sleep at night

I can hear all the noise
Laughin' with the pretty boys
Actin' so fuckin' coy
Kill the lights, Kill the joy

Well I don't need a teacher or preacher
In silver and gold
I'm not a believer, I'm good on my own
And I don't need no bitch walkin' me home
I got this on my own, I got this on my own

Hunny's gotta go get high
If he doesn't then he thinks he'll die
Well maybe baby, my oh my
That's the key to gettin' by

I can handle one through three
Hunny that's clear to see
But what isn't clear to me
Is what it fuckin' feels like to feel free
What it fuckin' feels like to feel free


Well I don't need a teacher or preacher
In silver and gold
I'm not a believer, I'm good on my own
And I don't need no bitch walkin' me home
I got this on my own, I got this on my own

Hunny's gotta go get high
If he doesn't then he thinks he'll die
Well maybe baby, my oh my
That's the key to gettin' by

Hunny (Maddy Ellwanger cover) | Ethel Cain

Sex Change

Verona

Saint Judas

Adolescence

Succubus

This song is the tribute to Athen, my cat who was by my side for 17 years. It isn’t about putting everything into words, but about the presence he carried, quiet, steady, never asking for anything. I loved being alone, but I wasn’t lonely until he was gone. This track holds the small moments of memory, the routines, and the weight of absence that made alone feel different.


Not Asking

あなたには届かない　この想いは
時に歪んで届くかもしれない
どうしようもない　言い訳だけど
こういうときは　君と夢で会いたい
The moon, the hourglass, and eternity
These feelings will never reach you,
And sometimes they may arrive distorted.
It's a hopeless excuse,
But at times like these, I want to meet you in my dreams.
君の想いを確かめることもできず
水の味も変わってしまったまま
I can't even confirm your feelings,
And the taste of the water has changed.
でもそうだ君に出会えたことで
景色に色が付いた　
例えばどこまでも落ちてゆく紅色　
例えば弾けそうな星空の青紫
そう　すべて
But yes, meeting you has added color to the scenery.
For example, the crimson that falls endlessly.
For example, the blue-purple of a starry sky that looks like it's about to burst.
Yes, everything.
Ah Ah Ah
また会えることも知りながら
当たり障りのない冗談を言い合って
ふざけるよ　
神妙になり過ぎてしまったことを
後悔すらするよ
Knowing we'll meet again,
We joke around, making harmless jokes.
I even regret being too serious.
どこまでもこの痛みは引き連れて
匂いだって　音だって違う　違う人
This pain will carry with me forever.
Even the smells and sounds are different、parson .too.
さよならを言う必要もないのに
さよならが抑えられずに
例えばどこまでも本心を見せて
例えば嘘を付いて傷付けて
月はもう欠けたまま
There's no need to say goodbye,
But my attitude is showing my intentions.
For example, if I show my true feelings to the fullest.
For example, if I lie and hurt you.
As the moon wanes.
終わりのない砂時計　
必死で抑えて　この時を止めて
せめてこの想いよ　消えないで
永遠に
An endless hourglass.
I desperately try to hold back, stop this time.
At least these feelings, don't fade.
Forever.
でもそうだ君に出会えたことで
景色に色が付いた　
例えばどこまでも落ちてゆく紅色　
例えば弾けそうな星空の青紫
そう　すべて
But yes, meeting you has added color to the scenery.
For example, the crimson that falls endlessly.
For example, the blue-purple of a starry sky that looks like it's about to burst.
Yes, everything.
Ah Ah Ah
君の幸せを願いながら
いつか二人で満ちる月を見る
夢じゃない　夢じゃない
Wishing for your happiness.
Someday, we'll watch the full moon together.
It's not a dream, it's not a dream.

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