4 of 10

cowritten by & featuring @t0rr
coproduced & mixed by @soupandreas
additional vocals & production by @daywaiter
mastered by Ryan Schwabe
art by atlas ezra

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this

when i speak with my voice
at a regular tone
yeah u like that don't u
started telling myself
that i sound like this
cause i love being lied to
it came pouring out of me
And i don't know how
i've been so good lately, honestly
been too busy portaling
and i wont stop now
getting so close lately
i'm scared of me

(torr)
what do u call that
what do u call that
letting you trade away your pulpit for a ballgag
im been living apathetic to the betterment
go ahead and burn a cigarette into my letterman
i could be passed out dead in the doldrums
letting my cup runneth over til its all gone
how long did u expect yourself to keep on rising now
what goes up must come down you know
thats not surprising now

(sd)
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
if it isn't all bad
but i still don't like it, ya
what do u call that?
what do u call that?
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this
i don't know if i'm prepared for
anything more than this
oh what am i scared for
everything more than this

(daywaiter)
never taking days off, yeah
end up with the shades on
now we never taking days off yea
(yea yea yea)
bouncing on the lip cause i was riding too slow
chomping at the bit its inevitable
(oooooo ooooo)
look what they gave us (if i took a little bit i’m rolling)
takin a day off (just another little hit i’m calling)
keeping the shades on (keep it coming till you hit that bottom)
kicking the chains off (just another little hit i’m wanting)
look how it paid off (if i took a little bit i’m rolling)
never a day off (just another little hit i’m calling)
keeping the shades on (have another and you’ll hit that bottom)
but we just can’t stop there

star★☆

wdyct w/ torr (soupandreas + sd)

art by @reksi420 : support ↓ ↓ <3
twitter.com/4n1m4l51
snipfeed.co/reksi
www.instagram.com/tr4n5c3nd3d/

[Verse 1]
and the pain right in my chest
while im waiting i cant rest
no
and i want u
here but ig nows the time 
to learn to be more patient huh?

[Chorus]
the feeling left on my heart
takes a second to absorb
give me more x2

[Bridge]
i want u so bad 
but i gotta wait till
time moves
and i shouldnt
rush the pace that 
we have
and i rly like u
please just kiss me all over 

[Verse 2]

Am I bad for my self
the thoughts that hurt my health 
I hold a bandage to my soul 

I cant just stop and stay
I need improvement 
to keep on moving
or I'll get led astray

do i runaway
or should i just leave u more
cus anymore and you're out of my life
gonna think while im away
is it needed being away
maybe I'll grow better in my own space

[Chorus]
the feeling left on my heart
takes a second to absorb
give me more x2

[Outro]
i want u so bad 
but i gotta wait till
time moves
and i shouldnt
rush the pace that 
we have
and I rly like u
please just kiss me all over
please kiss me all over
please kiss me all over
please kiss me all over x2

twitter.com/dylazy1
instagram.com/dylazy

seanie

4 of 13 (single 2 of 3)

art by me!

streaming: https://sparta.ffm.to/wl-10mm
lyrics: https://genius.com/Wishlane-ten-mile-meltdown-lyrics

ten mile meltdown

impulse upload
(with a bit extra)

original by @soupandreas

original lyrics: https://genius.com/Soupandreas-morris-island-lyrics

added lyrics:
i'll keep on making it worse every time i open my damn mouth
so brush it off with a word in the dark, i don't want this to pardon myself
keep telling me i'm full of myself
i'll run backwards through the streets in hell
repeat if you want, it'll never be enough
and i wish i knew how they felt

worsen my condition
why can't i just listen
whenever i have the chance to speak
these old superstitions
i just want to be finished
i've learned that it doesn't come for free

(must it always be about me)

morris island (cover)

Stems are available @ https://evangeline.info

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
R. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

[ SOC ]

--

I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

____

made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

____

follow >>>clearlew
https://soundcloud.com/clearlew
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1G7GO69qXe0bNbenX5GQjb
https://www.instagram.com/clearlew_/
https://twitter.com/clearlew_?lang=en

____

Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

____

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

source

another old song
started in september 2021, finished in october 2022
https://twitter.com/canofblissmusic

Inner dialogue
Down on me all the time, but I don't cry a lot
I get my best ideas when I'm gone
Then I try to remember what the fuck is going on
In my head
It takes me all damn night to wanna go to bed
I keep thinking of everything I could've said
Why did I have to come off like I never meant?

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
Nothing got completed
It's time to waste time now

I keep burning out
Not always fully there, I'm drifting in and out
Do people even get the things I talk about?
I don't think so
Maybe my vibe is too bizarre
It's too much effort breaking me out with a crowbar
Maybe the answers to my problems are on Co-Star
I tell myself that I'm not wanted where my friends are
I tell myself that I'm not wanted at all

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

It's not that I don't wanna talk about it
I don't know how to fucking use my mouth
Then I forget what I was talking about

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

defeated

I just wanna clear something up
I’m from a small town in a broken nation
I just wanna clear something up
You’re never gonna change if you don’t make some
You say you’re so afraid, and for what?
If only could make a couple bucks I’d be there
But I play it off
You’ll never see me in the room when I take off

I swear you couldn’t make it up
It’s a policy affair that no one cares about
And I swear I’m done and fed up
And no one’s ever gonna change if we don’t say sumn
Just stay off my back for one year I’m gone
Only worry if I’m wrong
You’re never gonna make it
Running round screaming in your songs
Could be wrong
By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up
I just wanna
Yeah
(Hi)
I just wanna clear something
I just wanna
(Fuck)


But you’d never know the half of what was there
If you never ask
And you’re goin through the motions as if you don’t care
We know that that’s a lie
Yea you know that that’s a lie
And I know you said it twice
Yea I know you said it twice
Well maybe I’m wrong but you said it enough
Holding the advantage in your clutch
I won’t even mention all your luck
You were only 20 holding down a family on your own
How you’ve grown

By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it 
running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up

I just wanna clear something up

big thanks to paddy (@clovehitch) for advice on arrangement and mixing

art generated with dall-e

If it's not for love then what the hell are we doing now?
Going out just to drink it up and letting it go to waistdown?
Is it too hard just to say
You don't even wanna look at my face
And you're drenched and drowned in make up,
bled your makeup now.

I can't quite read your face, Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa, Mona
Please communicate, I'm waiting for you to say 
something that will end all the pain.

I'm not a psychopath blowing up your phone for fun.
Could you listen to my song cuz I think you're the one.
Your dad is one lunatic if he wants me to stop
cuz I'm still in love with you and I'm still in love with you.

If it's not for love then what the hell are we doing now?
Going out just to drink it up and letting it go to waistdown?
Is it too hard just to stay in love
You don't even wanna look at my face
And you're drenched and drowned in make up,
bled your makeup now.

If you want to get to know me a little bit better, then you should try

telling if it's too late, I know it could just wait
telling if it's too late, I know it could just wait

try

Rosa Lisa

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

A secret third thing

evangeline mail  -  ev@ngelin.email