prod. wixxy & lesheff

Wake up upset 
You’re not here it’s sad
I guess I’m attached 
I GUESS IM ATTACHED 

(2x)
I AM IN DISTRESS 
GOD I AM A MESS 
I MIGHT BE OBSESSED
CUZ I NEED YOUR FACE
(2x)
EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME 
EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME 
EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME 
EVERY TIME, YOURE GONE

vails:

Did I make a mistake?
For giving you my heart
Will you cut it open? 
Bleed it out 
Everytime I give In
Everythime that you sin
Everytime, everytime
I forgive it all 
Everytime I give In
Everythime that you sin
Everytime everytime
I forgive it all

(2x)
I AM IN DISTRESS 
GOD I AM A MESS 
I MIGHT BE OBSESSED
CUZ I NEED YOUR FACE
(2x)
EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME 
EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME 
EVERY TIME, EVERY TIME 
EVERY TIME, YOURE GONE

every time (feat. vails)

if the bass drop in the house yk its a cleanse
ima keep make shiftin these melodies up in my head

dont wait up for me i wont know advance
if im ever gonna wanna leave or im in a transe
i wanna get out my bed but part of me saying i cant
its been cold start but im gettin up off the bench 
feel like they trick shottin my heart off of the ledge
so i try to get up but then they do it again
thought that felt much better
then i felt the cold hard floor on my skin
i always said it dont matter
and now i been takin back all that i said
i went out cruisin after 
just to go clear out the thoughts in my head
but i wont ever get no rest yea i wont ever go to bed fr
i just lay there and i think
april never come soon enough when im 21 im finna drink
thats what THEY think
when i found out thats how i really feel
i sink down and swallow all my fear

yea at the lake side in the village out by the pier
somehow worried still im lookin at my rear view
i thought my intentions were always clear
ill have a fencin match with all my tears
i know theres so much gaps in all my years
but all i ask is that you keep me near
and if you dont think thats just how i really feel
well then im sorry but i tried while i was here

what they think (neverforever)

produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(halfhearted)
said i wouldn’t trip 
but i miss the way it felt when we kissed and our lips touched
don’t know how you live, just admit that i’m too much
since i was a kid, hear em saying i’m a no one
i wasn't one for the games
or making a song for the fame
hop in the whip switching lanes
burden still up in my brain, break all the chains
sick of the faces around
wake up and i’m drowning
when rain hits the ground, i can’t help but feel clouded

(kiddamo)
take my sweater cuz outside is freezing
i can’t live with the thought of you leaving
but if you want you can go
i got used to the cold
i miss the conversations that we used to have on the phone
if i could rewind
re-rewind to the start
watching as the fireworks combine with all the stars
i spent my whole life wondering like “where you are”
stay where you are

(brecken)
and i been grounded, but when it rains i still think about you
still hear the sirens whenever i do sum’ i shouldn't do
yeah well that's how it goes
lying to people you love and you know it
yea all of it shows
they can see what you doing in the moment
losing my focus
i'm feeling broken
thinkin’ bout chili’s
that would be so lit
all of my homies
eatin’ tortilla chips
chips full of spinach dip
just give me a tub of it

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(lil booj)
hey there can you pick me up 
i’m in the lost and found again 
i’ve got my only friend right beside me 
the thread i keep it tight 
i keep it on the mend 
i try to keep us safe and then you stop me 
tell me you’re sad about maybe we’re crashing out, i know 
nothing we talk about goes anywhere because i know 
sediment building up, everyone doubting me, oh no!
are you proud of what you see, now you feel it so?

(yungcray)
paranoia when i step outside 
i’m feeling like this all the time 
got no time, need to find my coat
i hope my gloves are still inside
ice heart, i know I’m cold 
yea this shit’s getting borderline
tell me that there’s more to life 
i can’t feel myself, but i’m the reason that i live like this 
gas up from the shelf, i roll it up and we don’t think a thing
i been in this maze, god this shit gon’ drive me crazy 
i been feeling different lately

(vails)
they tell me look for signs
might be written in the stars
even though they’ve realigned
i still feel like i am far away from an answer
oh i wish i had the answers
now it’s eleven fifty three
still been caught up on IG
scrolling past old memories 
of us by the tapestry in my old home
where we should of left it all alone

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

cameras out! (cypher) w/ notahero, halfhearted, kiddamo, brecken, lil booj, yungcray, & vails

mixed and mastered by me
beats made by:
acey
ryan kelly

lyrics

i could fuck up our whole entire night
and tomorrow ill turn back to ice
just hope by then that youre doing fine
and my visions back from blurry
but theres nothing else to do alone in jersey

wait i cant do this all by myself
in pain i think to much damage was dealt
but i think your fire's making the ice start to melt
and i think your head on top my chest is good for my health
and i think that once i save a life ill love myself
pay no attention to the drugs inside my shelf
im preoccupied with the drugs inside myself
im googling interactions fucking with my health

its all a little late
and im not sure how much time has passed
im sorry to cancel our dinner date
but girl this high's been kicking my ass
trees shaking
and i cant find my car keys
and i dont even want to go outside to smoke this cigarette
and i kiss your chest
with smoky breath
and i dont have much left
but ill give you my eyes
maybe then youll see what i see
and i would die
for somebody to be able to help me

wait i cant do this all by myself
in pain i think to much damage was dealt
but i think your fire's making the ice start to melt
and i think your head on top my chest is good for my health
and i think that once i save a life ill love myself
pay no attention to the drugs inside my shelf
im preoccupied with the drugs inside myself
im googling interactions fucking with my health

alone in jersey (p. ryan kelly)

this was so fun to make, hope you like it
got a song coming every 1-2 weeks for next month (:
thankful for every listen <3

beat by the insanely talented @illsee
lyrics:

I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you call me when it’s imminent
I’m terrified it’s certain
I live among the vermin 
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you promise you’ll be with me when I’m pulling back the curtain

I've been up in arms
wondering how I’d tell you
when I wanna be in yours
wish it was that easy
but it’s pulling back and forth
wish I could appease it
but it’s gonna run its course

I'm always down on my luck
not coming out of my rut
I’ll find a beat
that I like
and make some shit on it once
but Imma finish a song don’t care
if I hate it
Imma keep up with this i swear
never disappear

I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you call me when it’s imminent
I’m terrified it’s certain
I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you promise you’ll be with me when I’m pulling back the curtain

vermin (maybe)

late_nite freestyle (biscuit)

prod Michael Harrison :)

i promise, i had on the tip of my tongue
these things never really work, thats just my luck
why are all my friendships just falling apart 
cant ignore i know the reason, its just not what i want

im so frustrated 
lost all my patience 
we dont talk alot im sorry 
know that i dont say this enough
just know ur in my thoughts
promise to keep in touch
maybe i
maybe i think too much

in touch

sharpen the blade w/ re: (yunnygoldz)

lyrics ⬇️ 
thought that you would like that
you just want a price tag
i feel like a lit match i dont wanna fight
back
but if i gotta ima scream right where the mic stand
if you talkin trauma then u speakin with the right man
hes right in front of you holdin on your cold hands
and i can feel ur attitude when givin u an eye exam
but i dont wanna lose i dont wanna kick the can
i got a lot to prove
guess i got a lot to tell
i wish that i could change 
toss it in a wishing well
i couldnt take the blame
oh my gosh im givin hell
and thats what they gon say everytime i tell my tale
ever since i was a little kid i felt like ima fail
ima try and do it again and then ill double fail
i was just a youngin skippin rocks and now im skippin meals
it might come as a shock ik there’s no appeal 

i dont eat no veggies i aint eatin on no kale
thats why they hate the sight of me im lookin way too frail
i got no one thats proud of me so ima leave a trail
my father said it readily but i know what he fears
he dont want his son to drive 100 off the rails
he dont want his son to be smokin with his peers
he dont his son to be all focused on em cheers
he just want his son to thank the lord for all his years
and now theres only one that ima fear and ima fear that
the most high and when im high i really feel bad
smoke to cope but then i cry when i relapse
and if theres hope i pray to god he help find that

cuz i been trying really hard and i get nothin back
got me rippin out my heart and now im going mad
i dont think that theres a single thing that i could do to make you glad
doing what i can
and you said that i cant stand up like a man
i dont want a life change i would rather scram
think i got no gratitude but look at where i am
but i know i need something to change to fees the fam
and

if you talkin trauma then u speakin with the right man
hes right in front of you holdin on your cold hands
and i can feel ur attitude when givin u an eye exam
but i dont wanna lose i dont wanna kick the can
i got a lot to prove
guess i got a lot to tell
i wish that i could change 
toss it in a wishing well
i couldnt take the blame
oh my gosh im givin hell
and thats what they gon say everytime i tell my tale
ever since i was a little kid i felt like ima fail
ima try and do it again and then ill double fail
i was just a youngin skippin rocks and now im skippin meals
it might come as a shock ik there’s no appeal

no appeal

(prod. mydepression)

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout
brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

Secretly I’m terrified, the future is scary I know that 
I’m putting myself in a light, not sure if I can even go at 
I’m moving out soon and I’m scared 
Honestly I’m just so happy you care 
Like baby together I know we’re prepared 
This shit is so crazy some things just aren’t fair

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout
brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

in touch

evergarden ❀

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