anywhere.

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I cant cry outloud
yea and i dont wanna talk abt it if you gonna feel bad
check the lost and found 
and youll be right back
in my arms where you needa be; full contact
theres no price tag for the memories that i am attached to
i still remember all those things when i go past you
and i still hold onto that list but now its past due
cuz im a bad dude
you think im a bad dude

let me play it cool
no strings attached
See the weather moving quickly
Check the forcast
got a puppet brain from taking so much vivance
got a stomach ache cuz i aint stickin to the plan
make earth mother shake every time i try to stand
theres a sequence to everything thats in my hands
you cant see this you’re too busy scrollin on the gram
whats the meanin? Oh i think im ready to scram

i dont need that i just want the feelin of home
gimme that back cuz i know im not better alone
i feel like startrek space invaders up in my dome
i cant restart it cuz you were all that i really know
i been cold as hail face down in the snow
you dont hit me back think that i might implode
i think i gotta go i think i shoula known you were never what i needed you just shot me below

thoughts exceeded i choke
but im still numb in my throat 
and i been paranoid cuz my anxiety only grows
flooded runny nose
its not funny bro
i spilled the drank on my clothes rip v lone

hit the doctor up (hey doc) -said that i got pneumonia 
i want a life of love, i guess its nice that i know ya
ima fix it up by throwin up
anything i have in my system will start coming out
and i dont even love anymore i feel like im in a drought
i still feel your touch cuz i know that feeling in and out
think ive had enough cant do nothin just to make you proud
lesson will be done at the end when i can fully shout

pneumonia (yunnygoldz)

prod Michael Harrison :)

i promise, i had on the tip of my tongue
these things never really work, thats just my luck
why are all my friendships just falling apart 
cant ignore i know the reason, its just not what i want

im so frustrated 
lost all my patience 
we dont talk alot im sorry 
know that i dont say this enough
just know ur in my thoughts
promise to keep in touch
maybe i
maybe i think too much

in touch

im no different than yesterday
days will bleed together
we’ll all be replaced
some of are us fake
but i’ll share my thoughts out
you won’t hear me 
you just hear my sound

i got lots of words to say
i don't share them here
they're all on my alt page
i hate to leave my house
i fear they laugh at my face
i walk into work in fear 
and i dont know how to behave

idk where i'm going
same song it’s still not flowing
what if they hear
what if they find the real me
change their mind
they'll change their mind about me

all they say is ‘nice song’
like did u read the lyrics...
ignorance is bliss 
maybe they just don't see it
maybe they don't know

i'm crashing out in a song
where did this come from
where did i go wrong
i have been feeling this
i have been feeling this for so long
wanna ruin my body like i ruined my brain
the cycle is repeating and the cycle is insane

oh its only 10pm on a wednesday
why it got me feeling this way
tell me how to erase my brain
all my songs are sounding the same

everything just sounds the same now
in the mirror i've been looking lame now
i don't even wanna fucking go out
i ruined everything i ruined everything

do u still listen
to my songs
used to see ur name
now it's gone
seems i've been replaced by the one
i don't think she's changed
why don't u run

real me [nctrn]

and we all know happened
 I think It all burnt down in auburn 
And I won’t warrant that reaction 
but you can tell me all about it while we go

check out consignment and every store 
It’s not replacements but holding places 
we cherish more than we know in the core
choose the new ones it’s hard to face it 

adjust the ocular focus what’s ahead and I credit 
those before me chose adore me 
open the levy let’s start this out  
we gotta start letting this go to start living out our lives oh 
better said than done put the effort in we’ll get it right this time 

And if we don’t then I won’t hold it against you 
No I won’t 
I won’t 
I said 
Just Sever everything 
I thought I could 
I doubted through it all 
I called I talked 
It didn’t solve a thing 
I crawl along it’s staying underneath 
and we grew this outward 
distance claimed by forces 
outlawed from the trinsic
Plains and we can just get out of there
Out of reach again this time 

adjust the ocular focus what’s ahead and I credit 
those before me chose adore me 
open the levy let’s start this out  
we gotta start letting this go to start living out our lives oh 
better said than done put the effort in we’ll get it right this time

we all know what happened (King Theta)

lyrics ⬇️ 
thought that you would like that
you just want a price tag
i feel like a lit match i dont wanna fight
back
but if i gotta ima scream right where the mic stand
if you talkin trauma then u speakin with the right man
hes right in front of you holdin on your cold hands
and i can feel ur attitude when givin u an eye exam
but i dont wanna lose i dont wanna kick the can
i got a lot to prove
guess i got a lot to tell
i wish that i could change 
toss it in a wishing well
i couldnt take the blame
oh my gosh im givin hell
and thats what they gon say everytime i tell my tale
ever since i was a little kid i felt like ima fail
ima try and do it again and then ill double fail
i was just a youngin skippin rocks and now im skippin meals
it might come as a shock ik there’s no appeal 

i dont eat no veggies i aint eatin on no kale
thats why they hate the sight of me im lookin way too frail
i got no one thats proud of me so ima leave a trail
my father said it readily but i know what he fears
he dont want his son to drive 100 off the rails
he dont want his son to be smokin with his peers
he dont his son to be all focused on em cheers
he just want his son to thank the lord for all his years
and now theres only one that ima fear and ima fear that
the most high and when im high i really feel bad
smoke to cope but then i cry when i relapse
and if theres hope i pray to god he help find that

cuz i been trying really hard and i get nothin back
got me rippin out my heart and now im going mad
i dont think that theres a single thing that i could do to make you glad
doing what i can
and you said that i cant stand up like a man
i dont want a life change i would rather scram
think i got no gratitude but look at where i am
but i know i need something to change to fees the fam
and

if you talkin trauma then u speakin with the right man
hes right in front of you holdin on your cold hands
and i can feel ur attitude when givin u an eye exam
but i dont wanna lose i dont wanna kick the can
i got a lot to prove
guess i got a lot to tell
i wish that i could change 
toss it in a wishing well
i couldnt take the blame
oh my gosh im givin hell
and thats what they gon say everytime i tell my tale
ever since i was a little kid i felt like ima fail
ima try and do it again and then ill double fail
i was just a youngin skippin rocks and now im skippin meals
it might come as a shock ik there’s no appeal

no appeal

lyrics

pink purse
i swear i never meant to make your feelings hurt
i swear ill sail the seven seas if i could make it work
im really glad you look your best today, i feel the worst

just tell me youre still in it in it
try to grab ahold of my heart i cant feel it
you said that its sounding like art
but you dont understand it
and neither do i
but when youre laughing and look at me its the fourth of july
so thats the best thing that i could ever look at its so
my hands trembling and my body shaking out of controol
its something well understand when were old
can you help me open up the door im tryna get out of the cold

I’m pulling up it’s warmer inside the car
take this drive with me and stare at the stars
the man i used to be i left his ass at the bar
going through these changes it feels new to me
like who are we?
21 years old the world feels new to me
talking bout the things i did it feels like yo ass is shooting me
you killed that part of me
blank slate i don’t even know who to be
just show me a sign that you’re really there
just show me a sign that you really care
talking about my memories like you were really there
like are you aware of what this shit really feels like
i was scared to fall asleep without the glock nine
baby come a little closer every nights a cold night
don’t know how long it takes to find us but we’ll find it on our own time
find it on our own time

it could be worse i could be layin in the hospital
or laying in the dirt with all my family and my friends gone
it could be 10 times worse but i don’t recognize a thing
think they could tell that it hurt
when i lost you i went to sleep
cuz if im sleepin theres a chance that i could see you still
if im dreamin theres a chance that i could feel it still
might be walkin in a trap but i dont even care
i would rather see what happens when i get there
i miss your attitude and somehow that cold stare
gimme bad news but you fix with no hardware
well i hate to be the bearer of bad news
but i cant fix this i think that we met our doom
i can see the floor give out beneath our feet as we speak now
rocks fall from the ceiling bury me into the ground
cant tell if your kidding but your fillin me with doubt
and i hate how it sounds
i hate the sound of your car starting up to leave
i cant make these thoughts leave i wish that you could see
wish that you could see everything that i had done in thought of you and me

just tell me youre still in it in it
try to grab ahold of my heart i cant feel it
you said that its sounding like art
but you dont understand it
and neither do i
but when youre laughing and look at me its the fourth of july

still in it w/ kiddamo & brecken (p. under the maple tree)

Wake Up w/ Brecken

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wrote a letter to you 
wrote the date
signed my name
saw in the news
they finallly locked that man away

i dont wanna be the one to talk 
abt the problematic things
used be the one you call
when somethings wrong
but now we don’t agree

mama never learned
my dad tried his best but it only left him burned
sorry that it hurt you
yeah i stayed up every night 
asking “God what is my worth?”

but its all good
its a part of me now
im awful, just a face in the crowd
i wish you were proud.

so i drink another bottle by myself
sick and tired of the feeling that iv felt
said im lying but i know the truth
it’s killing me so im killing you

we were never ones to play it right
and 
i was never one to be aligned
feel the blood flow right into my visine
theres two sides to the silver lining

problematic [idly blare]

prod yunnygoldz

lyrics ⬇️ 
lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat
just look at my characteristics 
i swear i got nothin to show
a lot less than most
not what you expected not even close
when i look in your eyes mine dont wanna close
if i love you then everyone knows
that i wont make it there without a new dose

yea i swear you look beautiful in every single pose
not an angle to imagine that i think uou could blow
but everything explodes when your over 
and nothing ignites as we planned
i can tell how tonights gonna be in advance 

ive lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat

whys it so hard just to look ahead in my life for a minute 
everyones upset i dont know why theyre livid
can you tell me when it’s finished 
oh they think im trippin out on the barstreet
but really im just chillin with grayson
so when you tell me that you love me
it only seems like its partly

hardly ever wanna step foot inside house now days
and i dont wanna look up
yea
cuz i would rather hide my face
and its hard not to tear up
when i think about everything i fail in my life in your eyes
but its okay
and i cant even flinch when they hit me with those words in my face cuz i know that theyre coming
doesnt matter what i think cuz im a still a disgrace according to their wording
but im hurting, tell em everyday and only thing they say is sure thing

in touch

evergarden ❀