i always come back to this cus it’s so good mate😭😭😭

produced by hiraeth


Call me
Bitch u never wanna call me
I don’t wanna die tn but im hoping
Crying in ur arms and I deserve all this
Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss

Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss
Hang me out to dry 
Drip blood from the ceiling
Im losing my mind so tell me if u mean it
Try not to cry while u rip me to pieces

Try not to cry just tell me if u mean it
Stop looking down its the blood from the ceiling
Its never my fault how tf do you miss him
Apart of me is gone that’s a part of me missing

forged

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
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you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

produced by me ^^ <3

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Lyrics -
i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls
i didn't wanna text you
too long
that i didn't really see you
won't lie yeah, i've changed a lot
spent the summer with myself and all of my thoughts
bring another bottle
i could really use one
but it's something that i never really talk about
never really saw the same
never really felt the pain

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

i just watch u cry
you do it all the time
i'm here cause i like you
it ain't a lie
focus how to breathe
i need u for some venting
look at me i'm worth
more than i really think
knock me down until it hurts
i'm omw to brink
i'm omw to edge
i'm omw to learn
i'm omw to death 
i don't wanna make this turn, no
i don't wanna make this turn
i don't wanna hit the dirt
i don't wanna make it worse

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls (feat. heylog)

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

spotify

pathetic ft. residential

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

teach me what i did wrong
and this silence, fucking broke it fore it had a start
you can take the things you said and shove them up your arse
found a picture of your face and now its battle-scarred

id do anything for you to just pick up the line
so i can call you a bitch at least another time
you should tell your man to get a fucking life
stop being such a pussy and following mine

turn to my own enemy 
dont care no more dont ask for me
i just wanted sympathy
is that to much to ask for me

havent talked to you in like 5 days
you stare too much at my face
acting like you werent fake
i could do this all day
her teeth grip the back of my necklace
no one cares for the shit that you rented
2k for a feat ur demented 
pussy still stalking my mentions 

uh

liar
should've punched you right on your chin
should've broke your jaw
should've put you where you belonged
i put trust to set aside
but it wasn't useful
now i know it's better
we can't be friends ever

we're all alone in my backseat
i shoulda called in a taxi
her clothes off, got a head start
nails stuck in my chrome hearts
said she love my ambition
my mental state diminished
toxic time, a waste of breath
i feel the blood drip off my chest

battle scarred w/ heylog & pvrk

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand? :)
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

lyrics:

show me how to speak
can u show me how to breathe
again, because darling i can see
everything you done to me

maybe then you'll learn
how it feels ur skin to burn
alive, so please dont u dare and turn
to someone else while ive been hurt

by person to claim to love me
by the girl who promised to stay
so where are you now
where are you
somewhere far away
so maybe when u come
you finally be done
but for now
but for now you won

my love, my love, i fear
ur touch i longed for years
my love, my love, my dear
the feelings that i feared
so where are you now
where are you now
somewhere far, far away
so where are you now
where are you now
i lost that girl in may 

show me how to speak
show me how to breathe
again, because darling i can see
everything you done to me
and maybe then you'll learn
enough to learn me
and maybe then you'll learn
enough to know my hurt

shake w/ hiraeth

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