Life is.

All fucked up now
I’m lying on the ground 
Gone without a sound 
I’ll take my life no doubt 
Hate myself now 
I’m lying on the ground 
No point in trying now 
I’ll end my life life no doubt 

It’s been like this forever 
I want to fucking die
It’s never gotten better 
Don’t have the balls to try
Shoot me with a shotgun 
Drain my fucking life 
I don’t even care anymore 
Fuck my fucking life

No Doubt

letting despair fill my body
Everybody hates me 
Because im so ugly 

Dont look at me 
Im fucking ugly 
So embarrassing 
Don't want you to see

Failing to spread on my shit genes
Nobody will know me
Because I'm so ugly

Ugly

here u go talking bout drugs again
and u claim that you cant make friends
ur claiming ur lifes in utter pain
ur complaining's driving me insane

i cant help but sympathise
ur futures so fucking bleak
ur so pathetic makes me wanna die
blaming everything on floride leaks 


dont wanna know
where im gonna go
all i know is that
i'll kill myself

i already know
my life is gone
and all i know is
how to be alone

im just like like you in honesty
my life is just a comedy
indulging in degeneracy
im just Gods cruel mockery

i wanna live someones life
i make passersby weirded out
im so pathetic i wanna die
blaming everything on autist mind

dont wanna know
where im gonna go
all i know is that
i'll kill myself
  
i already know
my life is gone
and all i know is
how to be alone

i'll kill myself x4
im all alone x3
forever more

How To Be Alone

older song i made in like january

teenagers inside our bedroom
worryingly insecure
everybody knows were losers
were still not completely sure
but dont go
we need you
come be miserable with me
im a crab in a bucket
pull you down down here with me
shooter said were not so worthy
and im inclined to agree
say goodbye to your favorite artists
at least they didnt make gamer 3
gezebelle anhero 13 century cowboy
crustsox dethtech h4rtbrkr fried by fluoride
neetnation endwiser maniac deepblu
steakfry hallowed watermark npobu
dont go
we need you
come be miserable with me
im a crab 
in a bucket
pull you down down here with me

don't go

@menthol100s
just an alt version of
https://soundcloud.com/menthol100s/retard

gurl itz confidentiallll

i have a shit job
no girlfriend
its so over
i want it to end

no big dreams are in sight
i wont have
a house wife

i wish things were how they used to be
i dont want to see you upset with me
can’t believe I managed to fuck everything up

you told me sometimes
things just end
and I know that
and I cant pretend

but I want you back
at least I think so
i’ll blow my brains out
i want you to know

i wish things were how they used to be
i dont want to see you upset with me
can’t believe I managed to fuck everything up

i wish things were how they used to be

Semi-Aquatic and Armed

Not Worth Living - Penguinband

giving up and wasting my time
finish college just to end my life
i cant take everyone is falling in love
i cant take that im gonna die alone

thought that id be dead by now
im still here and its so much worse
i liked you but im so bad at talking
without you i am nothing

i dont have a job
i got anxiety
i cant go outside
without getting so depressed
its useless
to try
cause i
always seem to fail

i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone

i cry for help
and you ignore me
i made it worse
and now you hate me
you were all my hope
and now im nothing
its my fault
for thinking i had a chance

i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone

this shit wont stop
until i pull the trigger
paint the walls with my brain
cant feel anymore pain
or maybe ill pull out a knife
and put an end to my strife
cause im just so fucking done
dont really care anymore
so long as i am dead
i really couldnt care less
dont wanna see what ill miss
havent even had my first kiss
so what if i am a bitch
i wont remember a thing

i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone

These Songs are About You

Everyone is Falling in Love - Penguinband

skeleton - and im sorry los angeles

i know

I hope things work out for me
cause right now I can't see
anything clearly
I wanna fucking bleed

if I don't get laid soon
I think I'm gonna go
fucking crazy
my brain will overload
on a killing spree
fucking crazy
lay me

what the fuck is wrong with
I don't know how to be
it's all just so blurry 
you're fucking killing me

if I don't get laid soon
I think I'm gonna go
fucking crazy
my brain will overload
on a killing spree
fucking crazy
lay me

it's fucking over

Pls follow penguinband

https://open.spotify.com/artist/4aJVhC6ZMuUrhNltPxwHJN?si=cFvzPQU2RW6ig4DmzYjdaA

Lyrics:

[Intro]
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't go to school
I don't like to go to college
I don't think I have a future
I don't really give a fuck
I don't really care
I'm already giving up

[Chorus]
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't go to school
I don't like to go to college
I don't think I have a future
I don't really give a fuck
I don't really care
I've already ruined my life

[Bridge]
And I don't think I can change it
For too many years it's been the same
How many times should I try
Before I lay down and die

[Verse]
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and go insane
Fucking hated school
Fucking hate my college
Don't care about my future
Never gave a fuck
Never really cared
Cuz I ruined my life

[Pre-Chorus]
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games

[Chorus]
I don't go to school
I don't like to go to college
I don't think I have a future
I don't give a fuck
I don't really care
I've already ruined life

[Chorus]
I don't work
I like to sit in bed and play games
I don't go to school
I don't like to go to college
I don't think I have a future
I don't really give a fuck
I don't really care
I've already ruined my life

Penguinband-I Don't Work

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

one day, ill do someday
 
somedays i always feel the same 
im Not Ok ill never change
and all this rage  it drives me insane 
ill run away and never show my face
ill fade away while im stuck 

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

slowly deteriorating 
i fucked my life up
ill never see the day
where i make a change
slowly deteriorating 
i fucked up everything 
blow off my fucking face
im gonna make a change  


slowly deteriorating

i wrote this with alice

no one gets excited for christmas anymore,
now i’m an alcoholic, my ex-girlfriend is a whore
there’s no magic in december, it’s all so fucking bleak 
you broke me like an ornament, you’ve got me feeling weak

and now my parents are divorced,
i don’t talk to my friends,
i lost my faith in childhood but that’s not where it ends
i’m gonna get my fathers shotgun
and some vodka, just a fifth
i'm gonna kill myself on december 25th

when I think back to my childhood, 
it’s all so picturesque, now
my car’s stuck in the snow again
and I just want it all to end
cause we used to hang inside 
with you, things were so fucking peak
now I contemplate alone
and I just work all fucking week

and now my parents are divorced,
i don’t talk to my friends,
i lost my faith in childhood but that’s not where it ends
i’m gonna get my fathers shotgun
and some vodka, just a fifth
i'm gonna kill myself on december 25th

im gonna kill myself on december 25th

all rights belong to neet

Looking through you
Can't see human
Bite my cheek to
See the fluid

You're gone
And I know it's wrong
You're gone
And I know it's wrong

You're gone
And I know it's wrong
You're gone
And I know it's wrong
Not absorbed in
Any moment
Fractured conscience
No way through it

You're gone
And I know it's wrong
You're gone
And I know it's wrong

You're gone
And I know it's wrong
You're gone
And I know it's wrong

DPDR - neet

Old demo I had but never published because I thought it was bad. 

Woke up at 4, didn’t leave my bed
Saw that you left me left on read
Tried to text back, I changed my mind
Guess I’ll just rot here, guess I'll die

Yeah, I'm trying to move past her
But it's so hard to forget her
Yeah, I swore I’d get it together
But I’m still stuck in last November

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I'm watching the paint peel from the wall
Crying as I wait for your call
Told myself I would start again
But here I am, waiting again

It’s fine, I’m used to it
Always feeling like shit
I'm burnt out in my mind
But I swear that I'm fine

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

I tried to quit caffeine, but I still can't sleep
Your suicidal thoughts are catching up to me
I really wish you'd shoot me 'til I'm dead
I really wish that you'd cut me instead

Cut Me Instead

im falling apart
because i dont know know anyone
so dont say my name
just leave me to equilibrium

i feel like a castaway
and im so ashamed
im out of place
im out of place

im a freak far gone
theres no where that i belong
so ill run away
i cant feel without feeling wrong

im a fucking castaway
and im so ashamed
im out of place
im out of place

Out of Place

Year of the Horse



[Verse]
I dont know why you cant get out my head 
I wanna die take my life i wanna drop dead
I cant image you with someone else 
It hurts my soul it makes me wanna cut myself 
I wish I can move on but that cant do
Cuz my mind and my heart cant get a clue 

[Chorus]
I cant help myself 
I wanna kill myself 
I wanted just to move on 
And just accept myself
I don't like it here 
Its something that I fear
I don't wanna be here 
I wanna be with you 

[Verse]
I dont know why 
You make me wanna cry 
Cuz you said we'd last I guess that was just a lie
Please just take me back 
Our love will never crack 
I just wanna be with you 
Until our time is due

[Chorus]
I cant help myself 
I wanna kill myself 
I wanted just to move on 
And just accept myself
I don't like it here 
Its something that I fear
I don't wanna be here 
I wanna be with you 

i wanna be with you...

im so sick of it all
got no friends who care to call
and i am working all the time
its taking a toll on my mind

wake up go to work
come home late is it even worth it
up and repeat the very next day
i am wasting my life away

im so sick of it all
my life is hitting a brick wall
i feel so alone
got no place in this world to call my home

the day will come when im fed up 
and i decide to make the jump
and end it all and as i fall
ill think of my friends who didnt call
to see if im okay
they probably wouldnt care anyway
so lets just get it over with
cuz nobody cares about me shit

im so sick of it all
my life is hitting a brick wall
i feel so alone
got no place in this world to call my home

Life is.

everlastinglyyy