Name: speechless. (what to say.) by Mackk (@everythingmackk) in Kyle's Playlist 🧃
Duration: 2 min 55 s
Description: "away from here." - January 27th.

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giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

mastered by @wokely
Lyrics:

[chorus] 

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

[verse]

slumped on my desk hoping that somebody wakes me up
this ain’t what u want, but that’s okay I always mess it up
haven’t slept for over 5 hours, in 5 years 
maybe it would be better if i could see clear

i been hurting myself for a while
throwing up every single day before a shower
what a disaster, i feel myself losing all of my power
headaches every day cuz i want music louder

hate going in my living room, cuz everybody thinks i wont be living soon
hate my voice so i try my best to cover it up in autotune
hate myself, i hate to loom, when that’s all i know how to do
i hate the way i think, so i hate my attitude 

[verse 2]

going down i know, that you probably hate me
i don’t blame u either, cuz i also hate me
everything i make is garbage and ez
that’s why nobody likes it lately

i been going crazy, i don’t even want to do this anymore it hurts me
yeah, it hurts me, i don’t even want to do this anymore 
it makes me feel weak 
and i can’t even stand this for one more week

it’s really hurting deep
my soul is not cheap, but right now it might be
i really hate this feeling
so can you take it please, can you take it please

[chorus]

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

dry i's (killedmyself)

what the fuck
im out of time
i feel like theres nothing left
im dead inside
if ud like to disappear
ill help u out
dont u call my phone again
n fake a smile

why does every doctor make everything worse
telling me im fucked up maybe thats a curse
i dont think i fit in this whole universe
imma spend another day in bed with my phone on silent

i been hiding my depression but i like it
i got these voices in my head that keep on fighting
pushed everyone away im driven by the violence
their faces still happen to show up in my nightmares

daymare (branwen)

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: Madisyn Nichols
Production: lil XipZ
Mixing: lil XipZ x Madisyn Nichols
Mastering: lil XipZ
Cover Art: Physs
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FOLLOW OUR INSTAGRAMS
@xipz_sad.am
@iamzpanda
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LYRICS:
[Verse 1: lil XipZ]
i fucking hate when u dont talk 2 me
you never text me back so i throw away my true feelings
i know its all my fault this time, i couldve spent my time way better
i wasted a year of my life, when we could've spent that time together
spent a whole december alone in my room
sometimes i get in a mood and i dont know what to do
i been crying in my closet, im looking into the mirror
i was asleep on the floor every night last winter

[Verse 2: Madisyn Nichols]
i always hate when you dont talk to me
i always hate when you walk all over me
trynna find stuff to help me
but nothing really seems to be helping me cuz
im always in my room crying
had 5 mental breakdowns this week
i dont know why i overthink
youre never coming back, people come back to me 
let me know, you alome, and youre needed

HateWhenUDontTalk2Me *REMIX* (w/ Madisyn  Nichols)

Got a lidocaine heart 
Swear you knew from the start 
And it’s not really hard for us just to hold on 

And that’s not who you are 
Swear to god it’s so hard 

Leave myself in the dark 
Got a lidocaine heart 

It’s not who you are don’t stress it 
Fill the bottle up please don’t start testin 

Baby so stressed better buy her a checklist 
In the city boutta cop her a new necklace 

It’s so hard, your so cold
I sleep through all the calls 

They ring throughout the night 
While I just sit and hide 

Got a lidocaine heart 
Swear you knew from the start 
And it’s not really hard for us just to hold on 

And that’s not who you are 
Swear to god it’s so hard 

Leave myself in the dark 
Got a lidocaine heart 

It’s so hard, your so cold
I sleep through all the calls 

They ring throughout the night 
While I just sit and hide 

Got a lidocaine heart 
Swear you knew from the start 
And it’s not really hard for us just to hold on 

And that’s not who you are 
Swear to god it’s so hard 

Leave myself in the dark 
Got a lidocaine heart

Lidocaine Heart [+ ayoley]

self-prod

Look at the problem it's you, 
Girl you know that it is true, 
Got all these bands and they blue. 
That's also what I have been too. 
Big money, 
Big heart, 
Big depression, 
Restart. 
Sip shit, 
Go hard. 
I broke, 
My start. 
Crashing the car, 
And the whip got a limp. 
Bumps on my back, 
I got acne on skin. 
He better than me, 
I got nothing on him. 
But shit imma flex, 
Either way I been lit. 
Big cups, 
Chase it with regret. 
40 fucking ounce, 
Take it to my head. 

I been going crazy, 
I been going hard, 
I been fucking bitches, 
But I know I'm not a star. 
I been getting big cheques, 
I can't drive a car. 
I been going crazy in the back, 
I'm going hard. (x2)

Tell me she hate me, 
Don't doubt it, 
I'm crowded, 
By mouths, 
That be saying I'm drowning, 
In clout, 
I don't need nothing else, 
Here around. 
I just need me, 
And the sound. 
Voices can rattle, 
Belittle, 
And I'm in the middle, 
Of argument, 
I cannot pick, 
Who's in the right, 
Who's in the wrong, 
Really don't know all that shit. 
I just want dividends, 
Splits and a cheque. 
I just got water on me, 
Check my neck. 
Fucking these bitches, 
And I get em wet. 
Only one girl, 
But the others want it. 
Ain't chase a drink, 
So I won't chase a bitch.
Only chasing dreams, 
That shit is real, 
Get off my dick.

I been going crazy, 
I been going hard, 
I been fucking bitches, 
But I know I'm not a star. 
I been getting big cheques, 
I can't drive a car. 
I been going crazy in the back, 
I'm going hard.

Pull up on me, 
Let it buss. 
Pull up on me, 
Bitch you suck. 
You better duck, 
I keep it tucked, 
Spraying you bitches, 
I been number one. 
Ten rounds in this blicky. 
I been blowing up, 
Bitch im fucking playboi crizzy. 
This is my world, 
This is my life, 
This is my girl, 
Sipping on sprite, 
Pussy real tight, 
Fuck every night, 
She want it hard, 
I'm saying alright. 
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah, 
I got the money on me. 
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah, 
You acting funny to me. 
Now I been doing my thing, 
Now I pull on your bitch. 
She asking you for a ring, 
It shine when she stroking my dick. 
You say you ain't fuck with the kid, 
Still you been bumping my shit. 
I'm better than every clique, 
Trust me you ain't getting in. 

I been going crazy, 
I been going hard, 
I been fucking bitches, 
But I know I'm not a star. 
I been getting big cheques, 
I can't drive a car. 
I been going crazy in the back, 
I'm going hard. (x2)

Going Hard

Lyrics:

i spent 3 yrs digging in crevices i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs and i'll lay beats to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

if i had a fucking option
i would so turn back the time
and attend clubs attend events n get some people in my life
but with the way i chose to live i lost 3 years of fucking time
this is genuine loneliness that no one knows but i

i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

-

i spent 3 yrs digging in crevices i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs and i'll lay beats to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life
i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

call it life (hateful)

your best is all you can do, keep trying

produced by eeryskies

cover art by Kensy Rose

LYRICS:
my words have never meant as much
as when i didn’t say them
swallowed comfort to abstain my thoughts when crying bout your heritage 
west virginia’s been a prison
locked between the maples and the
option to embrace forgiveness
from the ones you wish to love

i saw the signs, early on
tired of your monthly visits from the ghosts within the sticks
and darling
i know you’re exhausted and know time keeps moving on
from every time you heard your younger self in those old songs

and she said heal
try your best i know it’s hard
she said heal
it’s time for you to move along

every scene you acted out
i sat in the audience
watching youthful tragedy
translated to indifference
if my shaky hands could be the vessel for your soul
i’d never shake again to keep your spirit from the cold

so baby heal
no matter where you are
try to heal
remember who you are

speechless. (what to say.)

Mackk (@everythingmackk)

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