Raging Rausch - Best of

his eyes adjusted to the dark
like cats he always finds his mark
their end is swift, he doesn't play
he's hungry

their life reduced to blood alone
revives his flesh and brittle bone
his heart has long turned into stone
and yet he's holy

escape the sun as long as him
forgotten colours shine within
everything that's still living
where he's been

for though he doesn't really know
how to judge and how to show
mercy to a guilty soul
on innocents he'd never call

life carries on where he's been
a little safer for the still living
for he takes only those who sin
that's how it's always been

how it's always been

How It's Always Been

safe

Safe

First of all - it's long, I know
The lyrics may not seem very coherent, but they do mean plenty to me :)

an end

An End

reminds me somewhat of "How Fortunate the Man With None" (Dead Can Dance) - not even close to its beauty and I will never get close to one of the most amazing voices I know ...

the curtain opens to a train station in berlin
the s-bahn, a surprisingly fitting setting
for our first act in which we are introduced to a man
who is just about to enter the train
when something curious stops him
looking at the ground he carefully steps around some leaves twirling in the breeze
intertwined of a kind perfectly aligned 
like an old couple skipping like children laughing, chasing, hiding, teasing
but never letting go, and so they dance, the winds cannot separate their hands
for the few seconds the man is distracted by them

in his seat on the train, he's looking at the window
he's looking at the window, focussing on the reflection
of the woman, who is smiling back at him, like every morning
their secret little tradition

in the third act, at the tiergarten they leave the train, both of them
skipping down the stairs like teenagers, in the grip of their excitement
their hands entwinded, they find a little path through the woods, giggling
egging each other on, faster and faster they run until they come to a fallen hut
where they cut through a little opening amongst the trees
and where the sun hits the ground just right - they fall to their knees

face to face their arms outstretched as far as they can reach
they try to hold all of this between them and these trees
in these moments they can believe they won't ever leave

in these moments they believe they won't ever have to leave
they are the dancers
lovers in a storm
they are the dancers
celebrate the day their
love was born

believe

Believe

ABOUT THE WOUNDS OF THE BROKEN
WHO SURVIVED
ABOUT THE FIRES WE BURNED
RUINS WE LEFT BEHIND
ABOUT THE SONGS WE SING
SO WE FORGET
ABOUT THE SONGS WE SING
SO WE NEVER FORGET
ABOUT THE LIES WE TELL
TO CLEAN THE PAST
ABOUT THE MEMORIES OF A LOVE
THAT DIDN'T LAST
ABOUT THE WALLS NOONE CAN CLIMB
AND MY LITTLE FEARFUL SOUL THAT HIDES BEHIND

ABOUT THE PAIN AND DESPAIR THAT I CAUSED
ABOUT A BOY IN HELL FOREVER LOST
ABOUT VICTIMS, AND HEROES, ABOUT MONSTERS AND LIFE
ABOUT TRUTH, AND POWER, ABOUT THE LACK OF AND DRIVE
ABOUT THE EGO AND A CHIP ON A SHOULDER
ABOUT GUILT AND BEAUTY AND THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER
ABOUT THE SIMPLE ANSWERS THAT MAY YET APPLY
ABOUT A HUMAN BEING THAT DOESN'T WANT TO DIE
ABOUT ANOTHER WHO CAN'T WAIT
ABOUT A LOVED ONE FOR WHOM IT'S TOO LATE
YET A STORY UNFOLDING SLOWLY
ABOUT SINNERS AND THE HOLY
FOR IT IS THEM
WHO CAST THE STONES
FOR IT IS THEM WHO BREAK THE BONES

FOR IT IS THE HOLY WHO DECIDE
WHO WILL BURN AND WHO GETS A RIDE
STRAIGHT TO A PARADISE FULL WITH SELFRIGHTEOUSNESS I DESPISE

JUST SEE IT WITH MY EYES

ABOUT A STORY, THAT ONLY JUST BEGINS
AS ANOTHER ONE ENDS
ABOUT SOMEONE WHO REALLY TRIED TO MAKE AMENDS
ABOUT FORGIVENESS, FORGETFULNESS AND THE BLISS THAT'S IGNORANCE
A LORD'S CRUEL THREATS AND SELFRIGHTEOUSNESS
ABOUT THE DEVIL, A FALLEN ANGEL WHO BROUGHT US THE LIGHT
WHO SET US ON OUR WAY TO GODLIKE HEIGHT
YET STILL WE REMAIN DOWN HERE, DROWN IN SELF PITY, HATE AND FEAR
ABOUT THE ONES WHO JUST CONDEMN
THE ONES WHO THINK OF US AS THEM

ABOUT A STORY THAT JUST BEGINS

see how far you can take me
see what you can do
see how this affects me
see what this does to you

say how do we decide how far we can go
where our boundaries lie, how much blood we let flow
there is so much strength in a body
so much will, and despair
how long can you stay submerged before you come up for air

what is it that breaks you, what makes you stronger yet
do you wish to survive this, or just give up instead
is the pain the release, or do you need the fear
how do we find peace, how did we get here

why do you never scream, when i'm coming for you
am i fulfilling your dream, do you want me to
where do the boundaries lie, how far will we go
what do you mean when you sigh, and how do i know

and must i endure your pathetic complaints
all the effort expended setting up your restraints
confirming me as your master, handing me the control
and when you finally scream, you're just playing your role

is that scream your release, or is it mine
have you found your peace, or have you made me divine
what does it mean to be broken, i will never find out
as all the wounds raw and open, you just won't be without

who is the master and who is enslaved
when i am holding the tools
yet you get what you crave
who really holds all the power
and who pays the most
do i not just devour
what is rotten and lost

rotten and lost

Rotten And Lost

Not really happy with this yet, but hey ... I'll get there eventually ... if I don't abandon it ... I'm just not sure if I love it or hate it ... after listening to the somewhat repetitive chorus enough times, I kinda give up laughing about the whole thing, grab an ale and sing along ... until I'm too embarrassed ...

here are the lyrics:

(by the way, the song is celebrating diversity and living in peace with each other - the blue eyes in the first verse refer to actual eyes of my children, not some idea of race)


when you run towards the sunrise
and the sky's as blue as your eyes
when the cold's your only company
you will be just where you need to be

when the raven ends his flight
devours what just died
when the mountains finally wake
the beauty of a frozen lake

when the wise begin to rise
when the children start to sing
about father winter hiding
from the strong and youthful spring

when the boats set out to sea
discover land and gold for me
when the forests come to life
life's as good as life can be


and the colours and the scent
all that grows on our land
is a tribute to the peoples who hand in hand
created peace when others pushed for war
built a future for our children from the mess that was before

our land

Our Land

when your hands tend to my skin
carefully pull the strings hiding within
the ones sensitive beyond despair
the ones that require and deserve your special care

your fingers gently tap and strum
playing a tune to wake a red hot sun
deep in my heart the agony arrives
it's been far too long, i've been deprived

pain delivered by vibrations
subtle and intense
the world around me disappears
your song is all i sense

of the exquisite sensations you dispense with your art
the way you express emotions by tearing me apart

the sensuality of your cruelty is not lost on me
i do see your restraint in the way you're playing me
oh yes, i bleed, oh yes, i scream, and yes i know
that it might seem almost as if you cared
as if you measure love by how much i can hurt

sensations

Sensations

Welcome to the very optimistic masterpiece 'inevitable that we fail'
I'm a little worried about posting the next song already as 'Sensations' hasn't got many listens yet - it's really good - think about checking it out, please ...

this song is, as usual, full of the confused, but utterly prophetic and downright enlightened, musings of an angry hermit who lives with girlfriend and two tiny kids in derby, UK. clearly super important and intelligent stuff you must immerse yourself in, study and worship ...

hope you like it - i had fun putting this together ...


knowing it inside of me the seed of all humanity
the seed of evil and of good, i'm hunted and misunderstood
my rightous right to live and act has always made you circumspect
the walls that everyones erects a tribute to the fact i'm back
and this time, people, i won't leave, no sacrifice, no pain, no grief
no reason for religious war, no mistakes that you made before
the sun will rise just as it must, your blood dries into brittle rust
so full of iron it reacts with oxygen as iron does
and yet you are so soft and small
a miracle that you control
a world we simply gave to you
to share, but not to rule
mutated brains turned into tools
used all creation as their fuel
and soon became delusional
imagined power over all
to exert power on that scale
they had to ensure others fail
in their attempts to be like gods
their brains too small they couldn't grasp
the flaws of concepts just like this
nationalism and fascists
the somewhat crucial aspect is
they've never been a positive
dictatorships of any kind
socialists kiss my behind
you ain't much better than the rest
of these narcisist hypocrites
the need to lead and overpower
the need to follow and to cower
the way believers trust in fate
the clergy daily desecrates
the simple demand simple lives
the hope that jesus might arrive
and sees that i've been super good
the nicest garden in my hood

surely heaven aint for neighbours
who displayed misbehaviours
just like stories in the papers
we suspect they're evil traitors

suspicious, violent and dumb
humankind should long be gone
and yet the bastards're having fun
oh ye gods what have you done

inevitable that we fail

Inevitable That We Fail

and all the spirits we called aren't going away
and all the rage we induced has led us astray
no god willing to hear us pray
a world in ruins
WELCOME TO TODAY

forgotten comforts and beliefs and faith in humanity
the incomprehensible crept up on me
caught me and all of us our love, kindness and trust
our ideals, anything we learned
and threw it all away

WELCOME TO TODAY

in ruins

In Ruins

The song is clearly too long - and I didn't even manage to fit all the deadly sins into it!!! Which is why there is a second part - and an 8th sin!!! Soon to be released ... well, possibly ...

Hope you enjoy this somewhat sinister offer of a bath ;)

i hear that you're the greatest
demand respect for being famous
i'm glad for you
hope it works out too
just prayyou pass the latest test
you've heard of pride
friend better hide
when you get to the gate
or maybe change your ways before it is too late

your best friend for many years
you shared dreams and hope and tears
when he wins one day and moves away
all your love just disappears
what tore you apart
the envy in your heart
turned love to hate
but it's not too late
join us now
we can help you grow
with a bit of faith

they've treated you bad, oh i know it's sad
trust me i get that you're upset
but your anger, friend
will never mend
or defend
your wrath and rage
will just engage
the parts of your brain
driving you insane
and then
you're monster, not man

there's never been enough for you
when you had the meat you needed wine too
instead of saving, you were gripped by fear
made the food adn drink quick disappear
into that hole in your face
without restraint or grace
now you can't move
how will you prove
that you deserve a place
beside the lord
listen to his word


this is the way down to the river
where you get the chance to be reborn
where we drown the souls of sinners who are better off
gone

reborn part 1

Reborn Part 1

I am worried about publishing this song. As a musician and songwriter, I am not shy about honestly expressing my confused and often contradicting views in words and music; writing and performing the results is as much therapy for me as it is torture for you.
However, my views on THE church are as extreme as my experiences with its representatives - Men, I know to be utterly corrupt, devious, deceitful, in short anything but what they claim to be. It is because of them and, what I believe to be their true agenda, that I frequently question the origins of the Lord's words, a terrible state to find myself in...
Are these men misappropriating/abusing the words of the Lord, or have they invented them? And if they have indeed made them up, where does that leave me?

These are angry words, trying to rid myself of the rage that regularly returns - not an old friend, but a destructive force.

Please understand. Do not be offended. Thank you.

lyrics

like the raven the wise one
we're predators too
ravens prey on ducklings
like we prey on you

believed to be noble
we are anything but
and like the raven
the devil
we are creatures of god

we own these lands 
by enslaving its people
never have our hands
built a wall or a steeple

we are a curse 
we're the plague
bred from birth
to deceive and to take

we laugh at your faith
in the stories we told you
we lie to your face
make sure you don't grow



your blind faith is
all we need
all the worlds races
before us on their knees

we are the church
the bishops, the priests
the pope and the preachers
slavers and thieves


and if one day we stand before a gate
before a god who decides our fate
we'll thank him gladly
for the life we had
heaven on earth
it's more than they get
the true believers
who prayed to the lord
victims of deceivers
who made up his words

curse

Curse

After being ill for just about three weeks, I finally recover. My voice is still a mess, but I've been working on this song and just cannot wait to get some feedback, so I tried to perform it anyway. Messy, but better than nothing at all ...

Hope you like it :)

My apologies to everyone still waiting to hear from me, I am getting better and I will write soon ... (10/06/21)


Lyrics:
and when the sun won't rise
my dreams won't go away
if i just don't wake up
maybe i could stay
right here with you
in times long gone
and not ever doing the things i have already done

oh if the sun won't rise
and my dreams don't have to disappear
and if i just don't wake up
would you let me stay here

stay

Stay

nur noch eine woche, dann habe ich hoffentlich endlich frei (projekt beendet!!!) und kann mich dann endlich mal wieder der musik vernuenftig widmen ... inner zwischenzeit hab ich det hier letzte nacht aufgenommen ... voellig uebersteuert, hoffentlich reisst's euch nicht die ohren ab ...

one more week to finish my contract (work!!!), but then i should finally be able to spend some real quality time on something hopefully resembling music (at least to some degree)

in the meantime i recorded this last night (should've worked really, don't tell the boss) ...

far too loud, be careful ...

hope u like it :)

bevor du es kapierst

und ich bin doch ueberhaupt nicht in der lage was zu sagen
habe keinerlei erfahrung musste sowas nie ertragen
bin nur wieder mal hier reingeraten von mir kannste nix erwarten
mich da was zu fragen ist wie alles einfach hochzujagen

keine ahnung, aber meinung, was ist wahrheit, was ist schein und
wie soll man das unterscheiden wenn da immer zweifel bleiben
will da nix mehr drueber reden, was da kommt werden wir ja sehen
mach nu einfach gar nix mehr, mein kopp war vorher auch schon leer

du willst unterschiede machen, revolution und so'ne sachen
glaubst dass man nur schreien muss damit die leute auch erwachen
im gegenteil, ganz leise muss du sein
damit die gar nicht merken
worauf lassen die sich ein

wuerden leute einfach denken, waer dein traum ganz schnell vorbei
koennnst dich tausendmal verrenken, das waer dann auch einerlei
aber denken tun sie nicht, und du luegst ihnen ins gesicht
mit angst und neid und hass fuehrst du alle hinters licht

mit paranoia propaganda nimmst du alles auseinander
wahre werte werden suenden, kannst die wahrheit ja anzuenden
verboten werden anstand, liebe, empathie
alle die die anders sind die akzeptiern wir nie

staerke ist was andre killed
wir machen daraus gleich ein schild
so werden unsre kinder lieber gleich von anfang an gedrillt
die neue welt muss anders sein?
was klein ist bleibt auch klein
was klein ist wird soldat
wird polizist, beschuetzt den staat
spurst du wirst auch du beschuetzt
solange du uns etwas nuetzt
brav ist gut und gut ist dumm
bist du klug, bleibst lieber stumm
mach dir keinen kopp um wahlen
waren eh nur leere zahlen
und bevor du es kapierst
hat nur noch einer hier das sagen

bevor du es kapierst

Bevor Du Es Kapierst

i'm running with you through the summer rain
the water's washed all the blood away
on and on and over bodies slain
life fades just as the night succeeds the day

the gods have turned their backs on us
offended by a war fought in their name
yet disciples fight just as we must
faith absolves us of any blame

undeniable our lust for blood
we pursue our prey relentlessly
try to understand an evil god
as a warrior knows his enemy

summer rain

Summer Rain

she said i would just know which way to go
she said that i would fall like she did before

she said she would be there to catch me 
she said there's no place she'd rather be

she said that we will dance through the skies
she said that our romance is alive 

tonight
i'll be there
in paradise
to be with her

she said that they would sing our songs again
she said that our memories now belong to them

tonight 
in the summer rain
our children sing
our song again

tonight

Tonight

SEEN THE DEVIL REJOICE
SEEN THE ANGELS LAUGH
KNOW THAT THERE'S NEVER BEEN A CHOICE
BETWEEN HELL AND A HEAVEN ABOVE

HEAR THE DEMONS YELL
SEEN THE ANGELS FALLING
EMBRACE THE HEAT OF HELL
DO NOT RESIST YOUR CALLING

WE WELCOME EVERY SINNER
CLERGY, PRESIDENTS, AND POPES
HERE COMES THE JUSTICE BRINGER
IN HIS BURNING ROBES

COME SEE THE TREE OF DARKNESS
ITS FRUITS ARE MADE OF MEN
ITS FRUITS ARE EVIL DOERS
BELONG FORGOTTEN

ROTTEN TO THE CORE
THANK GOD THEY WON'T BE NO MORE

belong forgotten

BELONG FORGOTTEN

BULLETS SHOT INTO A FACE
A FACE THAT SCREAMS IN FEAR AND HATE
AND HATE IS EVERYWHERE YOU LOOK
YOU LOOK INTO AN OPEN BOOK
AN OPEN BOOK WITH EMPTY PAGES
EMPTY PAGES MEMORIES
MEMORIES LOST TO TIME
TIME IS NO LONGER MINE
MINE IS A PALACE MADE OF AIR
ER IST TEUFEL ICH BIN LEER
LEER DER KOPF ICH BIN IM HIMMEL
HIMMELSFAHRT FUER DUMME LUEMMEL
LUEMMEL LAUFEN FREI HERUM
HERUM HINEIN WIESO WARUM
WARUM KANN ICH DAS ALLES SEHEN
SEHEN HEISST DOCH NICHT VERSTEHEN
VERSTEHEN TUT MICH HIER DOCH KEINER
KEINER HIER FUEHLT SICH NOCH KLEINER 
KLEINER NOCH ALS ICH MICH FUEHLE
FUEHLE NICHTS MEHR ALS DIE KUEHLE
KUEHLE TIEF IN MEINEN KNOCHEN
KNOCHEN WURDEN NICHT GEBROCHEN
GEBROCHEN SIND NUR WILLE UND VERSTAND
VERSTAND IST HIER EH VERBANNT
VERBANNT, VERBOTEN UND VERSTECKT
VERSTECKT DER LETZTE MANN VERRECKT
VERRECKT VERRUECKT PARANOID
PARANOID IST GRENZGEBIET
GRENZGEBIETE MUESSEN SEIN
SIGN HERE AND THEN YOU'RE MINE
I SEND YOU TO THE BATTLEFIELD
THE BATTLEFIELD WILL NEVER YIELD
NEVER YIELD A PEACEFUL WORLD
A PEACEFUL WORLD JUST EMPTY WORDS
EMPTY WORDS ARE SOMETIMES HEARD
HEARD AND OFTENTIMES THEY WORK
THEY WORK A TREAT ON TRUE BELIEVERS
BELIEVERS VICTIMS OF DECEIVERS
DECEIVERS VICTIMS OF THEIR GREED
GREED IS AN AWFUL SIN INDEED
INDEED IT'S GREED THAT DRIVES YOU MORE
MORE LIES BEHIND UNOPENED DOORS
DOORS CAN ALWAYS BE UNLOCKED
UNLOCKED MY MIND WHEN IT WAS BLOCKED

BLOCKED THE MESSAGE OF THE DEMONS
DEMONS HIDE IN EVERY THOUGHT
THOUGHT I COULD CONTROL THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL KNEW THE WAY I FOUGHT
I FOUGHT UNTIL I COULDN'T FIGHT NO LONGER
NO LONGER DO I YEARN TO LIVE
TO LIVE MEANS PAIN AND FEAR TAKE OVER
TAKE OVER MASTER, I WON'T QUIT


I WON'T QUIT THE FIGHT OH DEVIL
DEVIL TAKES ME BY THE HAND
THE HAND IS LEADING ME ASTRAY
I CROSS INTO THE HOLY LAND
I SEE A PARADISE SO LOVELY
FULL OF SONG AND DANCE AND JOY
BUT FULL OF ALL THE EVIL PEOPLE
NO ONE WAS ABLE TO DESTROY
THE ONES WHO LIVED IN WEALTH AND FREEDOM
WHILST SENDING US TO WAR AND DEATH
ENJOY THEIR AFTERLIFE IN HEAVEN
AFTER THEY TAKE THEIR FINAL BREATH
THEIR CHILDREN MEANWHILE RULE BELOW
A PARADISE FOR PARASITES
I DON'T KNOW WHY THEY ARE GOD-FAVOURED
BUT THAT THEY ARE, CAN'T BE DENIED

god-favoured

GOD - FAVOURED

civil wars - hell, what fun!!! 



there is a flood in the blood valley today
it sweeps our sins away
there is a flood in the blood valley today
only the holy get to stay

there is a war in the blood valley today
the crosses're burning bright
there is a war in the blood valley today
to set the church alight

there are demons in the blood valley today
trying to find a way out
there are demons in the blood valley today
's no escape for the unholy crowd

there are screams in the blood valley today
we'll hear them for years to come
there's crying in the blood valley today
as we watch our neighbours run

who's still holy in the blood valley tonight
who's pure and a man of god
who're the saints in the blood valley tonight
when only killers survived the flood

Raging Rausch - Best of

Evil Blacksheep