featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

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pathetic ft. residential

i don't want to exist (prod. FALLEN)

busy

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

the way you stare it burns
what's left of me I never learn
hells jaws below consume
the way you smile makes me return

yeah call me a waste of space
Yeah say im not worth your time
yeah hiding behind a lie
watch my mental state decline

yeah watch as I withdraw
tell me how do I repair a broken core
I try to explain but you ignore
I fall further than before

yeah crumbling on myself
thought I could trust someone again
no, it's a lie yeah you were right
suicide will fix my head

no im not fine take some more drugs
didnt think id be alone
inside are breaking everything is shaking
everyone I loved is gone

saying you care, but you just share all your moments yeah with him
breaking apart, wish on a star didnt think I’d lose a friend
you want to go behind my back and break my trust again and again
didnt think I’d lose my hope in  being alive but now I wish for death

isn't it crazy how you can put everything into someone you love
but you know that you're never enough, numbing the pain out with the drugs
watch the skin start to peel and flake, the person I love is the one I hate
I should of crossed off I shouldn't let you in, I know that was just a mistake

Tired

звёзды + waunty⋆812 (prod. greyrock/foreless/q1wekuul)

архивы

lyrics ⬇️ 

eyes on the barrel of rifles that are aiming at me just for fun
never know why they think its so delightful 
to make me wanna run
its not one on one
yea they start to gang up on me as a stunt
but thats not enough i do what i want
and ima keep doing it until im gone

yea u cant be lookin for me
hand up but i wont stay to freeze
angels gon take ahold of me
dangerous but my hands stull clean

in a limousine i blacked out like the tint that on the window
got no memories of anything that happened on the dark roads
i was all alone how was it i woke up in a cemetery 
i dont know i guess that ill hope that they remember me

i dont need a therapist
rather talk about it on my own
its theraputic when i tell em i dont wanna go
ill stay at home and practice all the things i wanna grow
then ill lay low until i master something i can show

and you could mean that or you couldn’t 
yea this could be a rat trap you could be a villain 
And i cnanot have that 
i guess ill be wishin
wishin for the right one 
one day ill be given
one day ill be chillin
staring at the ceilin
ill wait until my heart drop
wait until i feel it
whyd u have to steal it
i just want a second to myself to feel completed
But now im only greivin

lie for

prod @xodazed
cover art by @1cfx

lyrics:
@fxriss
and i watch myself
tearing down and down
i fucking fall apart 
but you dont wanna make a sound
girl run away
i fucking want it bad
girl honestly
i want it fucking bad

mm da-da-
fucking want it bad-
mm- da- dow- girl-
want it- want it-
mm da da-
make a so
o-o-o-o-e
o-o-e-o-e-e-e
want it- want it-
ba-a-e-e
want it- want it-
BAD
want it- want it-
ba-a-a-e-e
want it- want it-
a- e- e-
want it-

girl i bite back, and you like that
hey!
so we'll go round and round
you wanna ride it bad
i might have a heart atta-a-a
don't tell me you won't
ride it- ride it-
ri-e-e
ride- it-
don't tell-
a-a-
have a- have a-
heart ATTA-e-e-

@xodazed
feel- feel- feel- fe-e-e-e
feels like you're miles away
o-a-uh-uh
two (too) bad (far)
a-a-a-a-a-a
OH GOOD GOD
tell-tell-te-e-e-e-e-e-e-e
PLEASE DO NOT LIE TO ME
uh-PLEASE-uh-PLEASE-uh-PLEASE-uh-PLEASE
PLEASE DO NOT HIDE FROM ME

all your girlies whoring and they say
they say you want it bad
all your girlies whoring and they say
they say
YO%@&$&&U WA%&#NT IT B%A&#&D^#&%&*#@
150k know my name
and i still want it bad
he beg for fuckin fame
OH MY GOD
I MIGHT GO INSANE

@fxriss
mm- da- dow- girl-
want it-
SANEEE
mm- da- e-
make a so-o-e-o-
ride it- ride it-
a-e-e-o-
have a fucking heart attack-
AHHHH-
want it- ah- mm-
ba- ba- ba- ba-
want it- want it-
BAD
want it- want it-
a-e-e-a-e-
want it- want it-
a- e- e-
HEART ATTACK

cameras flash i feel them shining
all eyes forward what am i doing
people laugh its so confus- us-
i might die girl lets just do it
lets just do-e it 
have a- fucking- heart atta- E-####
lets just do-e it
i fucking want it bad
lets just do-e it 
we'll party for a month
lets just do-e it 
lets- just- do- it-

heart attack

her cutlery is pit against the chest
the cavalry is strung about in red
oceans sing, the air it resurrects
confusingly, the liquid knows him best

give me something to feel yah
i just want this trust to inch it's way enough to heal numb
the battlefield he yield's enough to get him gone from being on
the acid turf is leaving burns, and passerbys see nothing wrong
injustified his tortured mind, and found recline in weaker ones
through divide and clouded sky, a destiny decayed
it's yesterday that local cat is no longer a stray
fallacy is brought upon erasure of the frame
you only wanna fuck him cause he calls you by your name
you only wanna fuck him
you only wanna fuck him 'cause he calls you by your's
called you by your name

love sores and scorn within yourself you'd deprecate
fed the source of everything you couldn't hear me say

her cutlery is pit against the chest
the cavalry is strung about in red
oceans sing, the air it resurrects
confusingly, the liquid knows him best

forging the ache in a cauldron of storm
there would lurk the accompany whispering war
the ecologies flood the industrial core
for the body is steel, but is still only armor

sacrificial departure (sorrow bringer)

prod by buffë
lyrics••
said that you needed a pause

but never gave me the cause

now baby what does it cost?

all cuz u wanted2 run

having a tough time

ur leaving me tongue-tied

i never expected you to be this way

smoke make my lungs fried

i stare with these numb eyes

ask what i could have done2 make u stay

and now ur gone

now ur gone

now ur gone

and i'll keep on moving and going

even when i feel alone

2bad ur not one for growing

cuz you'll never feel at home

all of these problems u cause on yourself

ask how im doing but i'll never tell

u made me this way

and i could have begged u to stay

now ur gone

now ur gone

now ur gone

and now ur gone

having a tough time

ur leaving me tongue-tied

i never expected you to be this way

and now ur gone

now ur gone

gone

produced by heylog

lyrics:
run
breathe through your lungs
hold onto me
hold onto me
fast
won't let you crash
just look at me
just look at me

we're separated
and no one has called back
i just wish you were here
so i could hear you laugh
and it stopped raining
he kept seeing your blonde hair
i just want some hope
that you're out there somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere

rip my heart heart out, slowly listen
hold my hand but you're too distant
sometimes i can't even breathe
when u are no where to be seen
i hate that i left that night
and cutting skin is a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin you know i hate
i been searching everywhere
and i miss when i had blonde hair
you said you liked that bout me
and now it looks dead and dirty
don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin's such a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin' you know i hate

i'd rip my heart out so you could live
and you can't stop me from doing it
now you're right there next to me
but only happens in my dreams
and i should never of left that night
i didn't know it'd be our last time
and i hate myself for that
it was the most we ever laughed
i keep searchin up and down
n hopes that i'd find you somehow
i'm not having any luck
and i refuse to give it up
and don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin is such a waste of time
and you'll get no where with that blade
cause that's something you know i hate

one two three

i don't want to exist (prod. FALLEN)

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