[Verse 1]
I lost my guide
I wonder if her grace dwells inside?
And can I sense her footsteps as I stride?
Will I still grow bold?
‘Cause truth can hold
That warmth can help me keep her tale told
So when I rest here in my bed
Mem’ries tug in my head
And I fear that all is said
I’m holding Mum’s hand instead

[Chorus]
And through it all
Her memory gives direction
And floods my heart with reflection
Through choices weak or strong
And when I travel on
Where roads ahead may shape me
I trust that time won’t break me
When I choose to call
Her care won’t fail me
I’m holding Mum’s grace instead

[Verse 2]
When I’m feeling low
And my troubles gather as I roam
I seek her signs in quiet rooms at home
I know she’s near
Though I can’t hear
Her steady truth still rises so clear
So when these doubts invade my head
Worries bound by a thread
If I falter at what’s said
I’ll hold Mum’s love instead

[Chorus]
And through it all
Her memory gives direction
And floods my heart with reflection
Through choices weak or strong
And when I travel on
Where roads ahead may shape me
I trust that time won’t break me
When I choose to call
Her care won’t fail me
I’m holding Mum’s grace instead

[Chorus]
And through it all
Her memory gives direction
And floods my heart with reflection
Through choices weak or strong
And when I travel on
Where roads ahead may shape me
I trust that time won’t break me
When I choose to call
Her care won’t fail me
I’m holding Mum’s grace instead

For Mum

Mum's Grace

[Chorus]
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.
Gram hearts, TikTok starts, digital love charts,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.

[Verse 1]
Virtual dates, Oculus gates, feeling close though states apart,
FaceTime kisses, miss your touches, your avatar, my art.
WiFi emotions, streaming devotions, in the net we're never apart,
Phone charge anxiety, but our love's full battery, a smart love’s start.

[Verse 2]
In a world that's swipe right, found my match in the pixel light,
DM slidin', our connection took flight, love bloomin' in the mega byte.
Tech-savvy lover, geeky undercover, binary code, our hearts decode,
Memes exchanging, our love language, in this digital abode.

[Chorus]
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.
Gram hearts, TikTok starts, digital love charts,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.

[Verse 3]
Virtual dates, Oculus gates, feeling close though states apart,
FaceTime kisses, miss your touches, your avatar, my art.
WiFi emotions, streaming devotions, in the net we're never apart,
Phone charge anxiety, but our love's full battery, a smart love’s start.

[Verse 4]
From the gram to the real jam, love's algorithm, no scam,
VR dreams to reality's beam, love's modern diagram.
In the digital dance, found romance, love’s perfect program,
Synced hearts, tech charts, love's modern diagram, a beautiful hologram.

[Chorus]
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.
Gram hearts, TikTok starts, digital love charts,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.

[Chorus]
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.
Gram hearts, TikTok starts, digital love charts,
Swipe, tap, love’s app, we’re the new era’s map.

Digital Love Songs

[Verse 1]
They tell me, “Stand up tall”
Be cocky, not unsure
Flash that grin, ’cause a man must brag some more
Never sweat the score
“Don’t let ‘em see you cry”
You’re always in control
Shoulders back, never lost, you run the show
And it goes like this

[Chorus]
They say, “Leer, don’t fear, and you’ll look much tougher”
Swing first, talk later, be a born rough-lover
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah
When she says, “That’s enough,” you don’t even listen
Act like ‘no’ is ‘yes’, keep your cold ambition
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh

[Post-Chorus]
Mm-hmm, mm-hmm, yeah
Mm-hmm, mm-hmm, yeah
Mm-hmm, mm-hmm, yeah
Mm-hmm, mm-hmm

[Verse 2]
They say I must not break
A man can’t stay up crying
Tough it out, ‘cause a real man’s always trying
Fists before replying
Breadwinner, bring it home
She’d be perfect, but thinner
We talk footy with the lads, we drink like Dad
But I’m feeling dimmer

[Chorus]
They say, “Leer, don’t fear, and you’ll look much tougher”
Swing first, talk later, be a born rough-lover
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah
When she says, “That’s enough,” you don’t even listen
Act like ‘no’ is ‘yes’, keep your cold ambition
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh

[Bridge]
But maybe I’m done faking
This fortress feels too tight
I’m craving space to cry and hold myself at night
Not built for endless fights
Is it so wrong to care?
To let my feelings show?
I’m tired of posing as that rigid soul
There’s more I could grow

[Chorus]
They say, “Leer, don’t fear, and you’ll look much tougher”
Swing first, talk later, be a born rough-lover
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah
When she says, “That’s enough,” you don’t even listen
Act like ‘no’ is ‘yes’, keep your cold ambition
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh

How To Be a Boy

[Chorus]
I got you, true blue, you’re my sunshine
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free
You, true blue, you’re my lifeline (You’re my lifeline)
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free

[Verse 2]
I believe in mellow days, I sense it in your laughter
I see our story shining clear
We can float on turquoise tides, and joy will soon come after
Baby, let’s just linger here
You make me feel blue sky, snug as denim seams
Your colours glow so true
When you flash those hidden shades, my heart can’t help but beam
And I’m never feeling blue

[Pre-Chorus]
You lift me, I lift you, baby
That azure vibe, it drives me crazy
We found our spark, so calm yet hazy
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Chorus]
I got you, true blue, you’re my sunshine
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free
You, true blue, you’re my lifeline (You’re my lifeline)
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free

[Post-Chorus]
You can dive along with me tonight
You can dive along with me tonight
Baby, let me show you the tide
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Woo)
I’m feeling free
You can dive along with me tonight
You can dive along with me tonight
Baby, let me show you the tide
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Woo)

[Bridge]
My mind’s a wide blue current, watch it flow strong
And I’m gliding on these waves, can’t lose this song
And even if I wanted to, I won’t be wrong
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
My mind’s a wide blue current, watch it flow strong
And I’m gliding on these waves, can’t lose this song
And even if I wanted to, I won’t be wrong
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah


[Pre-Chorus]
You lift me, I lift you, baby
That azure vibe, it drives me crazy
We found our spark, so calm yet hazy
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Chorus]
I got you, true blue, you’re my sunshine
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free
You, true blue, you’re my lifeline (You’re my lifeline)
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free

[Post Chorus]
If you wanna feel a brighter mood, let’s ride that ocean blue
And I can show you how I glow
I had a sudden hunch that we could wash away the gloom
Where the worries don’t dare to go
Turquoise in my smile, turquoise in your eyes
Shining in a vivid way
If you’re craving a distraction, come and shake off all that grey
You’re here at just the right time

[Post-Chorus]
You can dive along with me tonight
You can dive along with me tonight
Baby, let me show you the tide
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Woo)
I’m feeling free
You can dive along with me tonight
You can dive along with me tonight
Baby, let me show you the tide
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Woo)

[Chorus]
I got you, true blue, you’re my sunshine
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free
You, true blue, you’re my lifeline (You’re my lifeline)
I need that bright vibe, come on, sway with me
I’m feeling free

Blue

[Verse 1]
Late calls and half replies, you’re building all these walls
Stirring puzzles in my head, you’re waiting till I fall
You say, “it’s better safe than sorry,” so you hide inside
You won’t let your guard go down, though it’s tearing you inside

[Pre-Chorus]
Like a chessboard on the table, you protect your queen
Sacrifice your finer feelings, keep your conscience clean
If I ask you how you’re doing, you just give a grin
But I see through the strategy you’re busy working in

[Chorus]
Mind games, you got to play mind games
Look away, don’t give yourself away
Treat them mean, keep them keen, you say
No love, no affection, heart locked for protection
Mind games, you got to play mind games
Fences high so nobody stays
Heart can be broken, so you hide the ache
Every move’s a riddle that you don’t let me decode

[Verse 2]
You burn the map then ask me why I cannot find a clue
Every smile’s a twisted hint—I’m never sure it’s true
You’re hoping I’ll stop trying, so you’ll stay in control
Like a juggler throwing matches, one spark could cost it all

[Pre-Chorus]
But behind those wise defences, there’s a flicker of light
Clinging to your lonely fortress all throughout the night
While you claim that trust is weakness, I see where it leads
Keeping every sweet emotion tucked away beneath the weeds

[Chorus]
Mind games, you got to play mind games
Look away, don’t give yourself away
Treat them mean, keep them keen, you say
No love, no affection, heart locked for protection
Mind games, you got to play mind games
Fences high so nobody stays
Heart can be broken, so you hide the ache
Every move’s a riddle that you don’t let me decode

[Bridge]
Now we’re tangled in this maze of words unsaid
Fighting battles in our heads
What if dropping our defences
Could free us from these fences?

[Chorus]
Mind games, you got to play mind games
Look away, don’t give yourself away
Treat them mean, keep them keen, you say
No love, no affection, heart locked for protection
Mind games, you got to play mind games
Fences high so nobody stays
Heart can be broken, so you hide the ache
Every move’s a riddle that you don’t let me decode

[Outro]
Every move’s a riddle that you don’t let me decode
Mind games, oh these mind games…

Mind Games

[Verse 1]
I can’t stay, said in his own way
Black and white never looked so great
We were told two hearts like ours were out of date
But can rules undo what fate creates?

[Pre-Chorus]
Neighbours glance like we’re living on the run
Still, I’ve never felt so real
They can’t arrest the warmth we’ve spun

[Chorus]
Does that make love illegal?
If so, I’ll break every law
Lock me up if this is wrong
’Cause losing you is the worst I ever saw

[Verse 2]
Hate to say I missed the chemistry
While the crowd turned a deaf ear
You’d rather play and stay carefree
But I’m hooked on what we share
You’re the spark I hold so dear

[Hook]
Like sugar swirling in my tea
You melt my fears and set me free

[Bridge]
Once forbidden, now shining in full view
They tried to hush a bond so true
Yet love rings louder than any decree

[Chorus]
Does that make love illegal?
If so, I’ll break every law
Lock me up if this is wrong
’Cause losing you is the worst I ever saw

[Chorus]
Does that make love illegal?
If so, I’ll break every law
Lock me up if this is wrong
’Cause losing you is the worst I ever saw

[Chorus]
Does that make love illegal?
If so, I’ll break every law
Lock me up if this is wrong
’Cause losing you is the worst I ever saw

[Outro]
Lock me up if this is wrong
’Cause losing you is the worst I ever saw

Does That Make Love Illegal?

[Verse 1]
I tried to text you, but my words all tangled in my mind
I know you’re angry ‘cause I left your mum behind
I’m not some heartless stranger, just a dad who lost his way
Wish I could rewind the moment I watched our family fray
And though my jokes land flat, my feelings never lie
I hope you’ll hear this track and see the tear in my eye

[Chorus]
I’d fix it all if I could say it right
But love’s no puzzle with neat edges in sight
If I got one more chance, I’d trade pride for your smile
Even broken, we’re still a family all the while

[Verse 2]
Your mum was my whole world; I still miss her words at dawn
But time can morph forever into days that just move on
I get you’re hurt, I get I messed up more than once or twice
Still, I’d build a bridge with every sorry I can splice
Forgiveness isn’t easy, but neither’s living apart
I’m clumsy with affection, yet you’re forever in my heart

[Chorus]
I’d fix it all if I could phrase it clean
But real life doesn’t come with perfect in-between
If you let me in, I’ll show you more than tears or doubt
Even cracks in a home can let the sunlight out

[Bridge ]
I see you in my coffee steam and in each morning’s start
Your silence stings like missing keys in a shopping cart
I’m no poet, but I’d labour for your laughter’s spark
Love doesn’t vanish, even when it’s stumbling in the dark

[Chorus]
I’d fix it all if I could speak my truth
But fatherhood’s a jumble—no perfect proof
One day, I pray we’ll mend these lines like threads in a quilt
Because broken or whole, my love is never on stilts

[Outro]
I’d fix it all if I could say it right
But love’s no puzzle with neat edges in sight
If I got one more chance, I’d trade pride for your smile
Even broken, we’re still a family all the while

I'd Fix It All

[Verse 1]
Got your sweater in my dresser drawer
Can't wear it anymore
Like a broken compass spinning round
Lost and found
Your coffee mug still claims its space
In its usual place
But today I need a different view
Time to start anew

[Chorus]
I want to go on a walkabout
And think what love's about
Past the cafe where we used to meet
Down every street
Where your hand once held on tight to mine
Now I walk this thin line
I want to go on a walkabout
Through fields of doubt

[Verse 2]
Three blocks east to where we first kissed
The memories persist
Like a dance we knew the steps to well
Under love's spell
Past the bench where you proposed that day
Now I walk away
Learning how to dance to my own tune
Beneath the afternoon

[Chorus]
I want to go on a walkabout
And think what love's about
Past the cafe where we used to meet
Down every street
Where your hand once held on tight to mine
Now I walk this thin line
I want to go on a walkabout
Through fields of doubt

[Bridge]
Sometimes to find your way back home
You must walk alone
Let the sidewalk be your shoulder now
Show you how

[Final Chorus]
I want to go on a walkabout
And think what love's about
Past the places we called ours
Through empty hours
Till these streets don't feel like photographs
Of a love that passed
I want to go on a walkabout
Till I figure out
What love's about

[Outro]
These footsteps lead me home...
Learning to dance alone...

Walkabout

I wrote this song because I've been suffering from depression recently, and I thought that there is a lot to live for.  There are all the little things, such as beer and friends.

[Chorus]
Let’s drink to the little things, toast to the wins,
From catching the bus to beating the gym.
Laughing at you when you trip and grin,
Everyday moments—where do we begin?
We’re shining, we’re vibing, life’s our kin,
Good times rolling, let the rhythm spin.

[Verse 1]
Beer at sunset, chat on the clock,
Smoke break’s a sermon, no time for shock.
Your jokes hit different, they tick and tock,
Like a vinyl skipping, love rocks the block.
“Turn it up!”

[Pre-Chorus]
Here’s to laughing loud, here’s to living proud,
No fancy filter, just the raw crowd.
Winning small battles, life’s allowed,
Raise your cup, let’s sing it out loud.

[Chorus]
Let’s drink to the little things, toast to the wins,
From catching the bus to beating the gym.
Laughing at you when you trip and grin,
Everyday moments—where do we begin?
We’re shining, we’re vibing, life’s our kin,
Good times rolling, let the rhythm spin.

[Verse 2]
Your team’s a winner, mine’s on the mend,
But it’s burgers at halftime, cheers with friends.
Skinny jeans, eat the world—rules we bend,
Every moment’s a highlight, no need to pretend.

[Bridge] 
Life’s a mixtape, every track’s a spin,
From the little losses to the big win-win.
We’re the chorus in a song that’s thin,
But thick with love, so let’s begin.
“Feels good, yeah!”

[Chorus]
Let’s drink to the little things, toast to the wins,
From catching the bus to beating the gym.
Laughing at you when you trip and grin,
Everyday moments—where do we begin?
We’re shining, we’re vibing, life’s our kin,
Good times rolling, let the rhythm spin.

[Outro] 
“You hear that, mate? Life’s just one big jam session.”
“Alright, one more beer… let’s hit replay.”

The Little Things

[Verse 1]
Our love’s a rocket, count down the days,
Venus on the horizon, through the Milky Way.
You’re my co-pilot, my stellar guide,
Charting constellations, you by my side.
No NASA map could’ve predicted this,
The orbit of us, in celestial bliss.

[Chorus] 
Blast off, to Mars, you’re my only star,
Out in the cosmos, it’s just who we are.
Gravity can’t hold us, we’re breaking through,
The universe is endless, but it starts with you.

[Verse 2]
Barbarella dreams in a satellite’s spin,
Your love’s the fuel, igniting within.
Blue Origin’s got nothin’ on your kiss,
Space X can’t launch what we feel like this.
Every light year’s a second with you,
A love so real it bends time too.

[Chorus] 
Blast off, to Mars, you’re my only star,
Out in the cosmos, it’s just who we are.
Gravity can’t hold us, we’re breaking through,
The universe is endless, but it starts with you.

[Bridge] 
We don’t need a control room, just the sound of our hearts,
No cosmic plan, just a journey to start.
Your voice, my signal, cutting through the noise,
We’re light-years ahead, just two lovestruck voyagers.

[Chorus] 
Blast off, to Mars, you’re my only star,
Out in the cosmos, it’s just who we are.
Gravity can’t hold us, we’re breaking through,
The universe is endless, but it starts with you.

Blast - Off

[Verse 1]
You left me at the station, minus four on the clock
My mind’s all over the place, guess I missed your small talk
You say I’m prone to drama, that I smoke like a chimney
But who am I supposed to be if I’m not fully me?
I’m messy and an introvert, I live in my own head
Do you love me in spite of me, or love me here instead?
I don’t catch all your sarcasm, I’m anxious most days
But you’re my safe harbour—sorry if I can’t always phrase
“I really don’t mean to cut you off; I just don’t know how to jump in sometimes…”

[Chorus]
Do you love me despite my quirks—or accept me as I am?
I’m loud and then I’m silent, I’m a puzzle you don’t always understand
One minute I’m on top of the world, then I’m a total catastrophe
But if there’s space in your heart for my scattered art
I promise this love is real, so real it sets us free

[Verse 2]
I know I can’t fold laundry, clothes pile up on the floor
I zone out in conversation, leave you wanting more
But these special interests fill me with sparks I can’t contain
I’m clumsy with my feelings, but for you, I’ll try again
You say, “Just one text, or two, is that so hard to do?”
But I’m tangled in my thoughts, words get stuck like glue
Still, you spark my heart’s ignition when your eyes meet mine
We might not be typical—but baby, we’re by design

[Chorus]
Do you love me despite my quirks—or accept me as I am?
I’m loud and then I’m silent, I’m a puzzle you don’t always understand
One minute I’m explaining everything, then I’m lost in reverie
But if you hold my hand through the chaos I am
You’ll see our love’s the key, yeah, it’s the key
(Love me as I am… as I am… oh-oh)
(Love me as I am… as I am… oh-oh)

[Bridge]
I see the world differently, but that don’t mean less love
I’m stimming with excitement when push comes to shove
You might think I’m too fragile, but I’m stronger than I seem
I just need you to meet me halfway in this dream
“This is the part where I say everything I can’t say…”

[Chorus]
Do you love me despite my quirks—or accept me as I am?
I’m messy and I overthink, but your smile tells me I can
When my anxious mind spirals and my words can’t find the light
Your acceptance lights the match, making everything feel right
Do you love me despite my quirks—or accept me as I am?
I’m loud and then I’m silent, but I swear I’ll do all I can
If you’ll dance with my rough edges, and tune in to my melody
Then no label or shape will keep us apart—our love’s for all to see

As I Am

Ezzy Elliott(ezzy.elliott@gmail.com) UK PSB TV and 
SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0uVpNnaw3A0ars8GwlkoHl?si=HtnOH8eUS_iKpfTq0IXtyQ  | http://codingForJustice.org.uk. Passionate about justice, coding, autism, MUSIC & London N9. The views expressed in my songs are my own.

Mum's Grace

Ezzy Elliott

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