Like Your Mother

i wake up with your name in my throat
despite my best tries, i can't get you out of my head
and i still know how you take your coffee
i still know your favorite color, your favorite song
tattooed on the inside of my brain

and i know it's hard to be alive sometimes 
but god, i wish you would've tried
god, i wish you would've tried

and i cannot feel you in my bones
i'm not doing well on my own
i cannot call this place home

and i hate being where you are not
but there's nowhere where you are
i wish you were here

and i know it's hard to be alive sometimes 
but god, i wish you would've tried
god, i wish you would've tried

I Wish You Would've Tried

your emotional aloofness is sort of lame, y'know?

i miss her but i have too much pride to say

losing her was like losing a limb

i wrote this song in like november of '13 and just got around to recording it. (i'm lazy) 

LYRICS: 
i think that dead men have it easy
i think that life will never please me
i think that i’d be happy if i were sleeping
i think i’ll only miss you when you’re leaving

i think that nothing has a meaning
i think that looks can be deceiving
i think that maybe you’ve lost your way
i think, no i know, that i can’t stay

and if i said that you were not the one
and if said that i was moving on
would you cry my name or would you even care
would you cry my name or would you even care

i think it’s half faith and it’s half chance
i think maybe you don’t have the patience
i think that you don’t care about me
i think you’d be better off without me

and if i said that you were not the one
and if said that i was moving on
would you cry my name or would you even care
would you cry my name or would you even care

i think that dead men have it easy
i think that life will never please me

dead men have it easy

the rain, it pours

don't have trouble sleeping

i saw my ghost today 
in the eyes of a boy who looked just like you
she asked me for help, i just looked away

i saw my ghost today
she didn't look much like me
at least not the person i imagine myself to be

i tell myself i'm stronger than i am
i tell myself it wasn't you that changed me
you always called me a liar, you'll say i'm lying about that

i saw my ghost today
in the bathroom mirror in our old high school
i thought it would feel different, i still feel the same

i saw my ghost today
in the letters you wrote me before you broke me
i thought i threw them away, i found more

i tell myself i'm stronger than i am
i tell myself it wasn't you that changed me
you always called me a liar, you'll say i'm lying about that

i tell myself i'm stronger than i am
i tell myself it wasn't you that changed me
 but i've been seeing your ghost
i've been seeing my ghost
i've been hearing your voice calling my name
so in the end it was probably you that changed me

i saw my ghost today
in the eyes of a boy who looked just like you

i saw my ghost today

so this was recorded with my iphone cause you gotta do what you gotta do and sometimes that's recording a song with your iphone cause you gotta get it out of you

you look just like your father or at least you speak like him
with arms wide as valley and hands too close to my face
you look just like your father or at least you fight like him
with hands just like boulders and venom in your mouth

and you said that it's just a small incision
and you said that it's not a big decision
when you opened my chest and cut out my heart
you said that it's not a big decision

you sound just like your father or at least you ramble like him
with too much to say and smoke pouring out of your mouth
you sound just like your father or at least you yell like him
with a voice just like earthquakes and your mouth too close to my ears

you look just like your father or at least you smile like him
with teeth just like razors and sadness in your eyes
you look just like your father or at least you get mad like him
with hands coming near me and tears all over my face

(before any worry warts (i'm lookin @ you, family members who listen to my songs) ask: no this song isn't completely autobiographical)

a small incision

tbh i recorded this on my iphone and i'm not even ashamed of it


the crickets chirp in minor key
i'm not aiming for allegory
half promises once made are
rarely worth committing to a page
it's 4 am and i forgot your face
and all my memories i think i've misplaced
there's romance in open books
do you miss me do you miss me do you miss me

you said light a cigarette in my name
so you can die with my sadness in your veins
learn the rules you want to break
was this mine to give was it even yours to take
i looked at you and i forgot my place
and ignored the thought of errors we would make
your palms were empty when we met 
do you miss me do you miss me do you miss me

you wrote the book on breaking my heart 
i wrote my poems bout the scar on your face
you told me not to call you a mistake
i wrote the book on making mistakes

the book on making mistakes

cassandra, don't you know much better?
cassandra, here just take my sweater.
cassandra, can't you tell the future?
cassandra, can't you see the humour

and if it's right, then it is right
and if it's wrong, we'll end up so much stronger
and if i know, and i do
we'll be okay in the end

i know you're doing all you can now
cassandra, the things i wish that you knew
cassandra, you can be so clev
cassandra, things can get much better

and if it's right, then it is right
and if it's wrong, we'll end up so much stronger
and if i know, and i do
we'll be okay in the end

the rain will wash it all away
the rain will make us all anew

cassandra

collecting the songs i write here in some futile attempt to prove to myself that i exist

f campbell

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