"i love my best friend too!!!" (its not "her", its my stuffed animal cat thing i got from daiso in 2020 that ive been sleeping with for all these years and i am emotionally attached to it because its been with me through my best and worst moments. i genuinely cannot fall asleep if im not cuddling it in bed. i love waking up to its goofy and beautiful smile. it holds a cookie and makes me feel as if its offering me one, and i love that. the feeling of having something offered to me genuinely makes me light up with so much joy and im so glad to be able to wake up to that every single day. one time i woke up with my cat on the floor since i toss and turn a lot in my sleep and i was genuinely upset and saddened by this because it means it wasnt with me, and i dont know how long it wasnt with me. sometimes i think its real. maybe it is. or maybe im just delusional in hoping its secretly some hot cat twink that is in love with me so it disguises itself as a cat plushie to be with me and hold me in my darkest, saddest, happiest, or mediocre moments in life. yes ive dreamed of that once. no im not shameful of admitting it. i am deeply attached to this plushie and i fear that ill lose it one day. i hope i never do. i love it so much i wish to never let go of it ever. i wish i can hold onto it until we are both just rotting and decaying as corpses. together. rotting together)

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